And I'd never be whole again
To feel anything
I would like to encompass my past
Light silhouetting my face
Writing this to you
One last time
My stomach as a well
Forever dropping and pulling
Being emptied out
And your depths are unknown to me
I hear an echo
In the midst of the night
Haunting my bones
My lungs to ache
Rebuilt
From ages ago
In the mist
And the lights
Stirring
There
I wait for you
And no mortal may know

Fourth time writing you
Getting darker now
Living on roads
Existing at home
My second happy ending
Stimulate
Grey pain
Tear
Dreams of pure love
Awaiting your arrival
Writing on receipt paper
Friday's spent walking  
Much closer now
It seems
Fear became our constant
Breathe for me once more

I realize now
I should have gotten out

The width and depth of the ocean
Winds my spine upward
Sending distress signals
Of the souls
Lost for eternity
In lust
Speaking of the wisdom
Once held in fortresses
Beneath the waves
Haunting dreams
I have yet to fathom
And the thoughts
That escaped my head
During the lonely nights
I think of you my dear,
In the gasp of breath
Reaching out
Lingering on
Without remorse
Please help this drowning disaster

I just received your letter
It must be tough
Knowing you shouldn't be there
Figuring out you made a mistake
That's what it is, a mistake
I hope you're done
There is a very intelligent person inside you
I know it's your life and yours to live how you want
But I'm your father
I'm the only one you've got
You'll have to make the best of your situation
If I'm to speak honestly,
You need to accept help from the people that can
You know how I am
I know, that you're better than this
I hope you realize how much people care
Especially me
I'll send more money soon
I'm on leave from work,
But that will soon change
I'll write more in my next letter
I hope you're doing okay
Love, Pa

A rose appears
In heat I fall
Into chaos and a feral mixture
So close to pain
And smile
And to inhale
Inhale you
The touch beneath my flames
Oh I try, and do come undone
Dissolve

There was nothing
Nothing but loneliness
And the subtle
The desperate words
That never came forth
But in a moment of despair
That was all that had been offered
And the quietness
The few things that could be shown
As we sit and stare
In the eyes of the night sky