People ask...
Why?
Why are unknown?
Why are you hidden?

My only answer
Is
Im hiding for the ones
Who cant be hidden
Im hiding for the ones
That love has bitten
Im hiding for the ones
Whos been through it all
Im hiding for the ones
Who are struggling along.

the tears are flowing
and i don't know if i am
happy or sad.
is my heart seeping through my shattered soul?
or is my joy leaking from the corners of my smile?
am i on top of the world?
or beneath it?
am i empty?
or bursting with emotion?
i never know whether my soul
is grinning or weeping.
are the tears
happy?
or
sad?

I try to make you happy
       But it doesnt always work
            Because youre so broken
                 With so much hurt
            You know I love you
       But thats not enough
   You think ill leave you
Left in the dust...
   You dont realise, ive been there too
        From the same kind of person.
            Just
                 Like
                      You.

People ask why I stay quiet
They dont listen to me

People ask why I dont cry
They have hurt me so many times

People ask why I hide
They dont know my life

People freak out when I want to die
They dont understand why

People miss me when im gone
They never noticed me till I died

Thats why.

my brain burns
and i can't sleep

too much poetry
too many difficult books

a part of my head
has popped open

i believe i have
a metaphysical hernia
brought on by
too much thinking

only one thing to do

truss it up tightly
and turn on reality TV

after a few episodes
my brain turns to mush
and the swelling
subsides.

brain dead bliss
not a synapse firing

absolute relief
of no thought

perfect slumber
of the seriously
stupid

Storming rain
The sound of life
Deeply drains
Into a strife

Only my age
Lives in my booth
Becomes my cage
My future, my truth

It’s just some tears
No one should care
Fighting my fears
Do not despair

To finally cope
Severely drifts,
My promising hope
Is what has left

How do you know?

Where the lovers go?

Do they run, towards the setting sun?

Or secretly meet where the water kisses their feet?

Or perhaps bathe in the light, feeling more than alright.

Where ever the lovers may be, I hope they get a chance to come get me.

The sun shines every single day
   No matter what
      Even through rain
         So why cant you do the
          same                              
            Everyone shines in their
              very                  
               Own way
            Even through the snow        
         Surrounded by the cold
      Eventually youll know
   Nothing stays. It all goes
The only way you should stay
   Is
      Shining
         Every
            Single
               Day.