I am all wrecked
Do act correct
The way people expect
Do seem perfect
Like I have nothing to regret
Always trying to be pleasing
But inside I'm leaving
And nothing can keep me from dreaming
'Cause dreaming keeps me from freezing
While freezing keeps me from healing
I am all wrecked
Doing things people wouldn't expect
Not correct
And not perfect
With lots to regret
I drink, like I'm obsessed
Boys look at me impressed
Want me to do what they request
Think me completely messed
And I am at best, if not ... depressed
I can't let go of what destroys me
Probably drink a lot to flee
And smoke so many to feel free
But can't find the key
To make me happy
I'm all wrecked
I am a ruin
Took me pretty long to work this out.
Written while listening to Marina and The Diamonds. (Mostly Immortal and Happy, but some older songs, too.)