Nobody knows how to fix a girl this broken
People walk past
And see my shattered pieces on the ground
Some look down and give me a look of sympathy
Others look and say
I wouldn't be so broken if I hadn't jumped off a ******* bridge
But what these people don't seem to grasp is
I didn't jump.
I fell.
I didn't mean to end up like this
Nobody wants to be this broken
*someone please just help me off the ******* ground

We kissed so much
I would come home hiding my swollen lips.
And you sat with me for my first psychiatrist appointment,
and told me everything was going to be okay.
So i engulfed myself in you,
and ended up drowning.
A simple chemical imbalance was too ****** up for you.
I would get home and the only things swollen were my eyes.
Why would you tell me you would teach me how to swim,
and then hold my head under the water?

words
it was all words
because you repeat them
over and over and over again
but not to me

I hope you meant it to someone.

The problem with falling for a woman
Questioning her strength to catch you
Or maybe you fall on purpose
To catch a glance under her dress

Either thin, tall and lean
Thick, short and curvy
Any shape, any size
The female gender can make you insane

The very thought of a **** goddess
Brings the mightiest of men to their knees
This briefly entails without question
The power a ****** can hold

Simple like exotic dancers
Complex like business CEOs
No matter the background she withholds
You can never figure a woman out

A tale as old as time
A riddle still not solved
But yet how could Adam have made it
Without Eve?

As the cold air of November beings to settle in
I feel the warmth of the happiness I once had
Being drained out of my body.
My eyes feel heavy,
I can't eat again.
My thighs are once again marked
with the expression of my sadness.
empty.
A constant roller coaster
I can't get off of,
for the past five years
I've been going straight down
with small, sharp peaks
of a temporary happiness
that always slips through my hands

I had been drowning,
Yet not fully engulfed in the waves.
Trapped in a daze of being numb to any feeling at all.
No sadness
No happiness either.
I am finally emerging, and taking a fresh breath of air.
I never knew I would be so happy
To be able to cry,
To smile,
To feel anything.

I've been turning the water on hot
In the shower lately,
Hoping to boil the goosebumps that
Creep up my flesh and the
Thoughts that crawl into my mind.
I've been scrubbing my skin and lips raw,
Because I still feel your finger tips
Running down my body
And your lips brushing mine,
And it ******* hurts.

I realized as my friends shared a cigarette in the car that the smell reminds me of friday afternoon drives and not of sitting on your porch those summer nights, entangled in your arms and the ribbons of smoke.
Now as the smoke escapes out the car window, so do the remaining thoughts of you.

I don't want to miss you.
But we lose over a million skin cells
In a 24- hour period
And it's been 22 days since I've touched you, and that skin is long gone.
I drink more and more to try to forget the color of your eyes, or the way your voice sounded when we would wake up.
It's not the ***** that makes my head spin it's the ******* memories that are branded into my brain.
I miss you.