I tell myself I would forgive people,
Those that have done me wrong.
Forgiveness, will allow me
To let go of my heavy heart.

In reality, the ones that I want to forgive
Are the same exact people who,
Wouldn’t even bother to forgive me.
And we wonder why we can’t let go.

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I want to liberate myself
From the pain you have caused me.
Although, I don’t want to blame you
It’s the sad truth of what you have done.

You left behind a woman
Who would have given you life.
You left behind a woman
Who would have given you a family.

Maybe that woman
Wasn’t what you wanted
At that very exact moment,
But she’s exactly what you’ll need

When you’re growing old and alone.
A woman to hold you, mend you
Love you and care for you.
That woman was me.

Now I’m gone and I no longer exist.

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I need you to hear me.
Save me, protect me.
I need you to watch over me.
No one else will.

Grandma, heal me.

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The more I sipped from my coffee,
The more my hands would tremble.
Just like any other addiction.

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Why are we unable to sleep?
Sleep is much needed.
That is why I'm restless,
Because it's what I need.

Even sleep has been taken from me.

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This loneliness creeps up,
Devours me and destroys me.
I am hollow and fragile.
Soon enough I will break.

And I will not heal anymore.

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