Nicole Ashley

Nicole Ashley Jul 2015

I hate you
but i can’t say that
because I hate the word hate
It sounds destructive
in its own way
And that’s why i can’t say
that
It’s too mean
Too loud
Screaming so many sounds
and for a girl that doesn’t want to be seen
it’s cataclysmic and obscene
I find it more creative
to think of other things to speak
For I am so meek
but when it comes it you
Maybe that’s where that word
should be
even when
*it goes against all I’ve ever believed

There are multiple people I could tell this too and no one would care

#anger #confused #thoughts #you #meek #nohate

Jul 2015

AM

Left and Lost (Collaboration Poetry)

You left
I'm letting go
I'm letting go of you
I'm letting go of hope
And that's okay
—Nicole Dawn

I lost
I'm giving you up
I'm giving you up again
I'm giving you up for her
And I'll try to be okay
—Amalia Puspa

Here goes my collaboration poem with Nicole Dawn! check her page http://hellopoetry.com/nicole-dawn/ she's amazing! :3

#love #poem #poetry #sad #lost #breakup #left #collaboration

Jul 2015

Cyrille Octaviano

Riddle Me ~ Contradicting Reality

I have a mouth, but I cannot speak.
I have two eyes, but I cannot see.
I have two ears, but I cannot hear.
I have two feet, but I cannot walk.
I have two hands, but I cannot touch;
I cannot feel not even a single thing.
Is this the one, the numbness that I feel?

                                                      I have a body, but we are apart.
                               I am complete, but I feel empty in my heart.
                                                      I must be missing pieces of me.
                                              But I am whole, why can I not see?!
                                     These holes inside, they cannot be filled.
                              My dilapitated house, must never be rebuilt.
                                               Please stay away and leave me be.
                                              My isolation is what keeps me sane,
                                                                                      **it sets me free

#overthinking #confusion #myself #complicated #contradiction

Nicole Ashley Jul 2015

It's like this

Every word I speak hurts
And when thought comes to mind
Believe me, it's a train wreck

All it takes is a second
Because when you're all alone
In an empty room
with no one to speak to
and no one to hold
The silence just kills you
Like your soul waiting to be sold

Voices astray
Speak what the mind has to say
So what may lay here now

Is nothing

Because trying to speak
holds the same meaning
as falling asleep

*in silence

#depression #anxiety #mind #silence #nothing

Nicole Ashley Jul 2015

Last Night..

When houses are asleep
That's when I'll come seek
under the moon and stars to find you
We'll sneak away for keeps
'Cause I'm a ghost at most
In your arms under the tree
Secluded from the world
Kissing your lips I'm finally me
Like the time we were
plastered under the train tracks
The first time I saw
What you really meant to me
Like the time I cried on your shoulder
in the private room that holds our memories
But now that you're gone..
In this moment
I'll listen to the crickets
And chimes break through the wind
outside
And imagine holding you close to me
under the tree
and cry
and hope to hear the rumbles
like the very first time
Because this night was probably the last
And I wish I could relive it all..

"I know you're gone now, but I'll still wait for you" -PVRIS

#love #broken #depression #lost #thoughts #you #latenight #imissyou #train

Nicole Ashley Jul 2015

The Final Wall

My final wall was built
And now I'm shut off
And I never want to know how to turn myself back on again
So I'll sit here and go crazy
I'll cry till all the water is gone
I'll scream my static screams
And punch my walls I don't want to tear down
Because as a shut-in
that's the best time I could ever have
My final wall was built
And now I'm shut off

I don't even know anymore...

#broken #depressed #anxiety #introvert #crazy #wall #idontknow

Nicole Ashley Jul 2015

Last Time

The last time I cried on your shoulder
was when I knew I loved you
But tonight there's no shoulder to cry on
when I think of all we've been through

#love #broken #depression #crying #thoughts #you #shoulder