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Oct 2016 · 800
Less Than Me
maxime Oct 2016
How dare you?
How do you have the audacity to make me feel like I need to change
How dare you make me feel like I am in the wrong?

I am not the one that needs to change.
I am not the one who is in the wrong.
I am never going to change for the likes of you.

Instead of pretending like you're some little saint
Instead of pretending like you care about me
Instead leave me alone and let me be me.

I am not here to please you.
I am not here to listen to you ramble.
I am not here for you to use at your convenience.

You are selfish.
You are narcissistic.
You are the one who never listens to anything other than the sound of their own voice.

So no, I will not cater to you.
So no, I will not serve your every need.
So no, I will not be your back up toy in reserves.

I am strong on my own.
I am successful on my own.
I am my own person.

And there is no way that I would ever let you make me feel like less than that.
Oct 2016 · 644
Goodbye, Good luck.
maxime Oct 2016
To you I wave goodbye,
not with a heavy heart.
I know you need to be on your own;
To find a brand new start.

Even though we had our laughs,
our smiles and our sorrows.
I will never have any intention
of saying "See you tomorrow!"

Do not think I hate you.
I would never wish you ill.
I am simply not right for you.
It's a role I can't fulfill.

So I wish you the best of luck.
I really truly do.
I really hope you find someone
who truly satisfies you.
Sep 2016 · 2.1k
self-deprecation in three
maxime Sep 2016
dependent, dependent, dependent.
i hate to be dependent.
it's something that shows weakness.
it shows i can't defeat this.

sorry, sorry, sorry.
you tell me not to be sorry.
even though i try my best.
i never succeed, so i cannot rest.

stupid, stupid, stupid.
i feel like i am stupid.
obviously i'm the least of all.
no one cares when i take a fall.

weakling, weakling, weakling.
i am truly just a weakling.
melting from your sweetest words.
hoping my promises have been heard.
a small little snippet. not my best honestly.
Sep 2016 · 1.3k
safe place
maxime Sep 2016
please take me to a safe place
where everything is bright and shining
where it's never raining and dreary
where the water is pure and food is a delicacy
i want a safe place
where i'm never afraid of being myself
where i don't feel guilty for being happy
where i won't be forced to be unhappy
take me to a safe place
where my family isn't falling apart
where no one is a disappointed in me
where i'm not afraid of my best friend
just take me to a safe place
please.
Sep 2016 · 591
hope
maxime Sep 2016
"always have hope" they say.
"never lose hope" they tell me.
hope is supposedly a blessing.
it is the feather that is lifted effortlessly
the light of every person's life.
it's the purest form of human ignorance.
a wolf in sheep's clothing.

for that one moment i feel weightless.
i see my ideal world snap into focus.
everyone is smiling there. the sun is bright.
and you and i are standing hand in hand
neither of us with a care in the world.
why would we in such a serene place?
and then that moment ends.

there is nothing quite like a crumbling heart.
you wouldn't expect to physically feel it.
but an empty feeling grows in your chest.
the wind has been knocked out of you
along with any traces of hope.

i'm left with no hope and a broken heart
all because you said a name.
and it wasn't mine.
Aug 2016 · 318
To The Wolf
maxime Aug 2016
“Drown in acid rain,” you told the monster.
Do you think of me that way,
Now that I've hurt her as well?
Because we all know that she can do no wrong,
At least not in your eyes.
So, of course, I must be the one at fault.
Me and my twisted gray world
That blurred all your carefully drawn black and white lines.
She learned that from you didn't she?
She took her worldview from you:
A man that never smiled,
A man that only ever saw black and white,
A man that I completely baffled because I had joy.
That was completely foreign to you.
Does that mean that, in turn, you stole her naivety?
Her happiness?
Her joy?
You forced her into a boring world.
If that's so, I'll meet you outside,
Drowning in rain beside me.

— The End —