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525 · Feb 2012
Forgiveness
Mark Lecuona Feb 2012
The last time I actually forgave someone
I felt like Jesus or something
Until that precise moment
I realized I was good for nothing
Why was it so important to me?
I knew what the book said
Do unto others as you would have them do unto you
But I acted like the words had never been read
Trust becomes bigger than all of us
It's a hard thing when you learn about a lie
What's worse is how they don't like who you are
It was no longer about another guy
I don't get all this stuff about change
I was who I was the first night we spoke
Then the moment we shared wasn't good enough
I became a fish flopping in a boat
Why couldn't I stay in the river?
That's where she found me
It's not like I asked to be different
But it became her life to always disagree
I think I should treat a girl like everyone else
That way she knows what's real
Then she can decide if I'm the one for her
Maybe she'll understand how I really feel
I saw a picture the other day
Of an earthy girl and her man
They seemed happy with each other
Just like the first day their love began
She knows how I felt back then
She knows how I feel now
It took an awful long time
To get over a broken vow
It's not that I even loved her that much
I just thought I'd never understand women
I can't say that I do now
But I've learned they need to be forgiven
523 · Dec 2017
John Lennon
Mark Lecuona Dec 2017
It was thirty six years ago today
Sergeant Pepper has nothing more to say
He never did go out of style
But a bullet erased his smile

They blew his mind out on the streets
He didn’t notice that the times had changed
A crowd of people turned and stared
They wondered who they should blame

He laid his heart in the fields
His mind protected from hate
Strawberries will forever grieve
Over the violence of his fate

We played his mind games
While he gave peace a chance
Why didn’t we know it was real?
His feelings not a song and dance

Will we ever come together?
Dreams are like diamonds in the sky
He asked that we join him
Though love and peace had to die

Another man of peace they had to ****
We cried even though it was God's will
I'd love to turn you on to him again
Come together, find a new friend

Number... number nine... number nine
We're talking evolution not revolution
Number nine... number nine... number nine
Never forget to imagine the solution
He was murdered thirty years ago today. I'm 59. The Beatles were everything. It's hard to imagine it but we all felt connected when they were together and then they took him away
521 · Sep 2016
Clean My Heart
Mark Lecuona Sep 2016
The inks been dry a long time
The story has already been written
Moving on was a matter of survival
But my heart is about to bleed again

Don’t pretend you love me now
There’s too much I can’t forget
You used to wipe your feet on me
Now my muddy heart is your regret

I need to clean my heart
I need to make it pure again
I don’t want someone new
To think I can’t love a woman
Clean my heart
Clean my heart
Please clean my heart
So there’s no traces left of you

I feel ***** on the inside
Like I can’t let nobody in
It’s how you treated me
I let it get under my skin

We’re going to say goodbye one more time
I’m going to have to think of the past
But then when the day is through
I will make a new memory better than the last

I need to clean my heart
I need to make it pure again
I don’t want someone new
To think I can’t love a woman
Clean my heart
Clean my heart
Please clean my heart
So there’s no traces left of you
Country song lyrics
520 · Jan 2012
The Only Thing
Mark Lecuona Jan 2012
The only thing that touched you
Were my eyes
As your life neared mine
The pain of separation
Was borne
By my arms
My hands
My mind
My heart
Pain born of silence
My voice
Trapped
Within the fear
Of rejection
Yet I could not look away
And for a moment
My life
Became a vision
The only thing that mattered
Were what my eyes saw
In you
As I watched
You walked
As I watched
You breathed
As I watched
You left
The only thing that mattered
Was your pain
Hidden
Behind your smile
But did you notice?
My mind... pacing
My heart... racing
My life... changing
The only thing you noticed
Were my eyes touching you
Was that not enough?
Or did you need my voice?
My arms?
My hands?
My heart?
My life?
To believe you are beautiful?*


Copyright 2011. All Rights Reserved. Mark Lecuona
Just a man lusting after a woman walking by.....
Mark Lecuona May 2012
Is it you
Or your shadow?

Who does the talking?
I can’t seem to find either one of you

It never follows
It never speaks
Except to the weak

What did you do to it?
Or what has it done to you?
Do you know?

I stare at the sun for truth
And watch for its shadow for relief
But the sun has no shadow for me
Only a fleeting glimpse of what I will never be
But for what the sun will not allow
I will find with the turn of a cheek

How strange
To explain a lost shadow
There are no words to tell
Except a woman without a shadow
Is a man without a woman in his life

I stare at the moon for love
And watch your face for relief
But your face has no love for me
Only a fleeting glimpse of what could be
But for what the moon will allow
I lose with the turn of your cheek

In a confused state of an indelicate world
With normality turned upside down
And all wrong which finally feels right
I stare back at the sun to see where I’ve been

A voice is heard from the sky that has always known me
Since the day I first noticed its presence it has waited for this moment
Was it spoken today or a thousand years ago?
What message is so important to travel such a distance
Only to arrive in the light eclipsed by the shadow of doubt?

The shadow knows as it reveals itself only to the weak
518 · May 2015
My Boy
Mark Lecuona May 2015
I talked to my boy because he thought life as a toy,
but now he knows it’s a painting, and
what his mind will employ, to dodge every ploy,
are the colors of his own making, but
what only he felt was spoken while he knelt,
for what he believed was in waiting, and
what would never melt where the cards are dealt
would be the assurance time was saving

He had to decide who spoke truth and who lied,
but the colors he mixed already knew, it
was as if the one who died and the one who cried
were mixed in time for something true, even
if what was breaking was what was awakening,
for what is a man if not his own hue, but
only his own making can dream as he is sleeping
before the morning when he became new
Mark Lecuona Apr 2012
I saw beautiful homes and lawns
Lined by frowning gutters and awnings
I saw broken lattice and falling fences
During a mornings smiling dawning

Sometimes it seems what money can’t buy
Lives where there’s no money at all
Until the cold chill arrives
And the leaves begin to fall

Living on the tracks with no place to go
I lived on one side
And then the other
Living on the tracks with no place to go
What I found was what I didn’t know

I’m not sure what it is I believe
I just want what’s best for my kids
But the real world is on the other side
I wonder if they could live on the skids

I left home because I just couldn’t cope
Now I’m alone and I feel the same
I’ve learned more about myself
And those who have no name

Living on the tracks with no place to go
I lived on one side
And then the other
Living on the tracks with no place to go
What I found was what I didn’t know

Every small child wants someone to love
We’re the ones who make them feel small
They want to smile even with a broken toy
Don’t cover them when the leaves begin to fall
Song lyrics....
516 · Mar 2012
She's A Prophet
Mark Lecuona Mar 2012
This will never happen
I’m tired of waiting
A dream is exhausting
Yeah that’s what she said

She knows
The future
Because she knows my past

You won’t be a man
And you will never be
Unless you set me free
Yeah that’s what she said

She knows
The future
Because she knows my past

She reached me
She did it so easily
She made me want to love her
It’s not just her beauty
It’s how she understands a man
She loves being a woman
And she let me be me
She did it without even trying

But she knows
She knows what will happen
She sees the look on my face
It’s not here
It’s not with her
It’s somewhere
But it’s not here

She’s a prophet
She’s a prophet
She’s a prophet
She’s a prophet
Song lyrics....
516 · Sep 2016
Let Me
Mark Lecuona Sep 2016
I want to wash your hair with the night air
Soft light that does not burn
You can close your eyes again
My fingers are stars massaging the moon

I want to bathe your skin with light of day
Hot light to soften your pain
You can lay your head next to me
My fingers are reflections of a warm tide

I want to cool your pores with the forest air
A soft breeze rippling beads of sweat
You can watch the leaves fall all around
My fingers are trees dropping them on you

I want my heart to feel the love of yours
A whisper that only I can hear
You can let your blood mix with mine
My fingers will draw pictures with our color
515 · Jul 2015
So Far From My Bed
Mark Lecuona Jul 2015
I know more about your pictures than I do about you
I don’t care if it makes me weird
It was the only way I could be close to you until I get over
The things we both feared

You weren’t the prettiest girl I’d ever seen
But you were the most alive
You don’t have any money or care about tomorrow
It’s a life so different than mine

Every time I look I know it’s how you used to be
That’s because time has already passed for me
And the days that make you happy today
Are the ones that once made me happy to see

I keep forgetting if it was once or just a dream I have
The past can seem so real
But not as real as what you can’t wait to feel again
Even if it’s from a picture you must steal

Greenbelts, old clothes and earrings love the rain
Make-up never runs when it’s really you
Nothing matters most of all the rules
There is time for smiles tomorrow is for pain

Every time I look I know it’s how you used to be
That’s because time has already passed for me
And the days that make you happy today
Are the ones that once made me happy to see
515 · Feb 2012
Every Love Has Its Fall
Mark Lecuona Feb 2012
I walked towards you from a vanishing life
With every intention of adorning my loneliness
With you
I held you in my arms and found within your body
Every desire that I felt alone at night
Without you
I asked you why you let me in when you said no before
And you told me that finally your fearful mind
Got out of the way
You had the aura of availability yet I could never be sure
Your smile had no message to tell
It had no feeling to convey
Now as you gasp at my boldness
You realize how fantasy explodes on contact
And submission becomes real
You failed to see in my exposed eye
How I would ravage you until you were exhausted
Your virtue my last meal
And as the lonely enter a new world
Of reckless abandon and no restraint
Will we remember
That even as I made you bloom
The leaves may scatter soon on the pavement
Because every love has its Fall
514 · Feb 2017
What Has Become of Me?
Mark Lecuona Feb 2017
There was a time when I would play
Today was the same as yesterday
The news was read by a man named Cronkite
With my Dad we listened in the panel room light
I wondered if war was wrong; or was it right?

What could I ever know
Except what the TV might show
Was it what a preacher might preach
Or what a general might teach
The canon of a ghost a father and a son?
Or flags flying high above a smoking gun?

I saw a man with a loaded gun
Pointing at the temple of another one
But they were far away from me
Then I saw the barrel of a rifle
And a flower planted by a disciple
He said blessed are the peacemakers
But so too a man who lays down his life

I thought about a carpenter
A soldier and a gardener
The gospel rang in my ear
So too the flag I hold dear
And as I tilled the soil
My blood began to boil
For I have become a sinner
Who has no King but Caesar

Where did the little boy go
Who believed in good and not evil
Now he sees hate without reason
And love lost without a season
As he walks in the desert sand
A soldier and a prophet await
For what is man without fear
Or faith without scars in his hand?
Mark Lecuona Jan 2016
Who could take me seriously
When I have never lost my pride
Never felt hunger
Never feared for my children
Not like they have
But if I hold your hand
And you hold his
And he holds hers
Until we hold the hand of tears
Where the river begins
Then we will be together
And I will be able to speak
Words
Screams of anguish
Because then you will know
That when I speak it is not for me
But instead it is for them
For I do not have to suffer to cry
And I do not have to live like them
To die in shame
Because I was unable to carry them
Or make you believe in them
Like God does
514 · Apr 2016
Personality
Mark Lecuona Apr 2016
It is within the province of the personality where freedom finds its voice; but never assume that the freedom exhibited by someone else precludes their capacity for kindness and a gentle spirit; for what is foreign to you does not marginalize their humanity.
Mark Lecuona Apr 2016
You never forgot what was lovely
What is a memory anyway
If you can walk as it is happening
Then what you forget
Awaits for you tomorrow
You remembered how to love
Nobody taught you that
Because a feeling is life itself
There are no more lessons
No more reasons to defend
You did what you had to do
And then you left it all with me
512 · Oct 2015
don't forgive me love me
Mark Lecuona Oct 2015
You forgive everyone
but you can’t love them
stop forgiving me
live with me
be my equal

Did you forgive someone
for begging
for being poor
do you understand
or do you make yourself feel better

Are you the one
do you stand on the mountaintop
then tell us
is what you see greater than failure
what else could we learn from the past
how else would we really know
is that what you see
or do you need the distance between us?

I don’t want to be forgiven
I want to be understood
can you see the callousness of my mind
the weariness of my heart
the pride that overcomes shame
yes I know myself
do you know yourself enough to know me?
511 · Mar 2015
The Soft Life
Mark Lecuona Mar 2015
It is a simple life
If you will only let it
You need not shout
For no sincerity can be heard above a whisper
Forget anything except your place
In the lives of your children
And your parents
For your need not want for more
What praise is beyond fleeting?
What words are not forgotten?
But what love does not last?
Only that which you pursue
It is in the heart that you can touch
With your life
And your own blood
That is what will last
As will humility that is genuine
And honesty
For though these things are as spare
As arrogance is intemperate
You will feel what is meant by life
Wheat fields bent by the breezes
Softness that will gently comfort
Those who you love
And quietly conquer
Those who do not suffer your need
For their approval
509 · Jul 2016
What To Think?
Mark Lecuona Jul 2016
Have you run from your conscience?
You are a half-breed believer
You do not know where you belong
You cannot decide
Who is right and who is wrong

Find the human being inside you
That is where you will begin
It is the easy road
And the right one
It will help you carry the load

Whether cheap robes and scarves
And a beaten brow
Or summer dresses
And a Kentucky wide-brim
The truth cares not who it caresses

You could not decide what to believe
So believe in me
And what I tell you today
Is that you need no one
Except that from which you ran away
509 · Dec 2016
Too Perfect
Mark Lecuona Dec 2016
You pushed me away
After all of that
It was perfect
Your lips were ready
Then your fears made the decision
You were only a reflection of the past

You couldn’t tell the difference
I was the right one
But it was too perfect
Now your body aches
You know you made a mistake
You could only think how long it would last

I tried too hard
I thought of it before we met
I wanted it to be perfect
Now you're gone
My pleading eyes left your ears ringing
Why did you end our love so fast?

Falling from heaven
We never believe
Nobody's perfect
Especially not love
Even though for a moment I had you
The gap between faith and doubt is vast
509 · May 2015
Shadows Made Without Light
Mark Lecuona May 2015
I remember when you were spring in my arms
When we were close we knew why our eyes came together
But what was shelter for my soul fell to my bare feet
The nails dug into my heart and so did the stormy weather

What was once a free life is now a guilty existence
You said look into my heart and I’m trying to think that way
I thought I would know by now how to feel about love
But there is a shadow made without light that won’t go away

Why are we wasting away
We can’t sleep
We are so suspicious
All we do is weep
We can’t make a life
Our sadness is too deep
I need a reason for me to stay

I can’t beg or be angry any more than you can my love
The rest of the world can’t see inside our closed windows
We need to find out how much we want for our own life
We can hurt each other or try to make light without shadows

I always was the lucky one
You said I had a guardian angel
But what I thought was a cool breeze
Was only her flying away

Why are we wasting away
We can’t sleep
We are so suspicious
All we do is weep
We can’t make a life
Our sadness is so deep
Give me a reason to stay
Song Lyrics
508 · Oct 2017
You're Gonna Have To Say It
Mark Lecuona Oct 2017
My face, like a wax figure
The party, a parade of curiosity
Laughing at what they will never remember
Unless someone plays the fool
I hide behind my bravado
An invention, a fabricated symmetry
But a hint of oddity remains
A strange sort of allure, fierce
Stronger than life itself
For life itself is no longer enough
Not like it once was
Every feast devoured
Weakness or strength, digested
But my eyes are not vacant
I understand my effect on you
My face, unaware of itself
Alone, without a mirror that reminds
The longer I forget
It’s flaws of no concern
Because that couldn’t be it
You smiled long enough to see
The lines that run together
And the blood rushing to fill them
I was naked once again
I knew it would happen
Civility, the weakness of morals
You wanted me to guess correctly
Were you afraid of God or of yourself
I made it easy for you by walking away
Neither thinking poorly of me for an indiscretion
Or drenched by the deluge of sin
I could not help myself
But if you could just tell me the answer
I will know why I waited for so long
507 · Nov 2015
A Divided Family
Mark Lecuona Nov 2015
What blood that would flow inside of us
melted from twin peaks before our birth
could ever turn us against our own?

The reflections come from our eyes
And within them are his revealed words


What heart that hears its companions
in harmony with its own voice would
ever silence itself and deny its purpose?

Each white light brightening the green
Drawing us nearer to the season


What braided rope would willingly
unravel until each thread has become
so weakened it cannot love another?

As we think once again of a baby
We offer the plank from within our eyes


What family would dishonor itself solely
to preserve the desires of each person
over the strength in the love of the many?

*So we may cross the divide between us
Upon the path we have laid for forgiveness
507 · Nov 2016
You're Not A Burning Bush
Mark Lecuona Nov 2016
Don't speak to me of certainty
Not in the unseen
Not with zealotry
Do not bind me to the stake
For the flame is not yours to light
And the judgement is not yours to make
Do not tell me that what is right for me
Make no demands
Only show the fruits of your tree
The voices you hear are yours alone
For whether I hear silence or sound
It is my choice in how I atone
507 · Jun 2016
A Son Says Goodbye
Mark Lecuona Jun 2016
The rows of corn were straight as history is long
The farmer knew he had chosen soiled hands
Or was it a blessing
The morning sun always waited for his signal
Nature waits for those who care for the land

The wood desk was smooth as glass
A hand-carved wooden hand pointed north
Or was it to God
It had been mounted upon a wall
He took it down to find the place of his souls birth

The old boots were as cracked as his voice
He kissed his father hoping to see him again
Or was it faith
Tomorrows long day would wait a little longer
For the night knew his tears would say when
507 · Dec 2017
It's Just An Opinion
Mark Lecuona Dec 2017
You asked me what I think
I told you with my hand over my heart
It was only to show
Right or wrong, my opinion is all my own
I will live with it, but I want to hear yours

There is no reason to stop trying
Convince me, I want to know more about it
It’s what I want to know
That what is true, the opinion that you own
Is because of the life you live and endure

We hear so many voices
They just want to be heard, and we do
I’ve messed up everywhere I go
As soon as I know, then I realize I don’t
The things I feel sometimes make me unsure

I don’t know how far I can see
The horizon changes but never life’s misery
I don’t want to fight about it though
You tell me everything that you will or won’t
I still hope we can live behind the same door
507 · Apr 2015
This Bow Longs For Port
Mark Lecuona Apr 2015
Oceans morning moon winking, at
sea gate keys rusted pleasures,
opening loves barnacled secrets, clutched
by tentacles intertwined forever silted

Rocks carved by crashing waves,
shadowing moments before instants, of
loves memory building sand castles
in the rain guided by passing masts

What could be drove her into the surf;
it was never the man as he was,
but what her heart told her was waiting
beyond rip tides and winds that didn’t care

Morning after’s had to wait for dawn,
nights alone knew that mornings alone
felt the same; but the hold of a ship at sea
at least carried her memory with him

Birds picking the lustfully heaving waters
at midnight, dodgy flowers in a stormy garden,
she could only wonder about such things,
while he could only wait for the night before

The wash behind drew life near, expectant;
she could feel the life in his wake, including
her own; but he knew what she could not
believe; this bow longs for her port
505 · Dec 2014
WAR
Mark Lecuona Dec 2014
WAR
OH GOD NO!
NO NO NO!

I want to love her
But she does not walk the streets
She does not walk with my enemy
I would share her with desperate men
If it meant we could be civilized

I thought about lies
And killing another man
I thought about the holy ghost
Does it live in this land?

She wants to be angry about how we treat her
But it is so
It is so because we are not like her
We are mean
Because that is how we were made
We know what our gifts are

NO GOD NO!

Why is my gift violence?
Why is my gift fear?
That is why I’m still alive
That is why men fear me

ME!

Why God?
I fear you
But men fear me

He believes
He is chosen
Allah praise be unto him
And my rifle sights him in

Let me lay next to her
An exotic dark eyed beauty
From another land
From the land I walk
Her face is covered
And it is who she is that makes us crazy
Crazier than gold
Crazier than oil
Crazier than rare earth
She is the only one that can soften a killers heart
A stranger
A strange woman
Because she is strong enough to love an assassin
Strong enough to love a man about to die
Because she is a woman
And she knows why we are angry
She wants to lay next to anger
Only anger can reach her
Even though she is soft enough to care
Soft enough to care about war
And the men who must die
They die for the flag
She dies for their heart

NO GOD NO!

She prayed all night
Help me Lord
Help me love these men
Help me love their sword

The bullet passes through her
From me to him
And he accepts death
Because she gave him life
She loved the bullet
Loved it because it was life
The way life is
Death
Death on the way
Reaching around love
Flying through love
From hate to love to hate
And she watched it as it approached
And she stopped to allow it to pass
Pass through her heart
To soften my hatred
She never blinked
As we shared her before death
She shared the killer
She shared the victim
She stared at us both
She asked if we wanted the bullet
Did we want the bullet to be us

NO GOD NO!

How can I love her?
She is stronger than me
Yet I am the killer
When will I cry?
Her tears became mine
As she took her clothes off
Naked as the world stands
Truth
She said **** me instead of him
**** me she said
Because I’m dead already
This is not my world
It is a world of anger
A world of desperate men
Who cannot love each other
Or me
So **** me
**** me now

NO GOD NO!
NO!
NO!
NO!
Mark Lecuona Feb 2012
Why is the moon
So close to our hearts?
While the hot sun
Burns love before it starts
We can look
Into lunar eyes
While the solar winds
Carry our goodbyes
Does the moon love us
Because we return its gaze?
Does the sun remain bitter
Because we close our eyes to its rays?
The moon guides our lonely night
An audience to our dreams
While the sun awakens our delusions
And reveals all our schemes
It knows
Unforgiving in its intensity
It knows
It offers us no pity
So we run to our lover
At night as it smiles
Soothing our tired eyes
Understanding all our trials
The sun... a solitary sight
Dominates our horizon
The furnace of life
It does not embrace or wisen
Though we walk with a chill
And beg for a warm heart
It seems distant
I always feel apart
Tonight I will await
The understanding moon
Though you reflect the scolding sun
It is you who makes me swoon
504 · Mar 2015
A Bullet Feels No Pain
Mark Lecuona Mar 2015
It delivers
A crushing blow
Yet it feels
Nothing
It renders
The final verdict
With numbing callousness
It senses
No pain
It knows
No guilt
It experiences
No empathy
Instead
It is lifeless
A tool
Awaiting direction
From the killer
The one who decides
While it sits
Ever silent
Never wavering
Not knowing
Its fate
Or its victim
Or why
It could be anyone
MLK
JFK
A little girl
It cares not
Like a caterpillar
It waits
For transformation
For motion
And then
Impact
Destroying
Dreams
Hopes
Lives
Creating
Fear
Hate
Worry
It lives
A life
Singularly focused
On death
Poised
Then delivering
Death
Of a life
Remorseless
In its travels
Stochastic
Random
Chaotic
In its delivery
The executioner
Without a hood
Without a conscience
Without feeling
Without anything
Resembling humanity
Only inevitable death
Just like life
504 · Apr 2012
Beautiful People
Mark Lecuona Apr 2012
I wonder about beautiful people
They gather together
And stand
And move
Switching perspectives
Always smiling
Unless they’re not
Then they leave
Then they do it again
And they say what they say
And nothing changes
But their view
Of one another
Not so much their opinion
But their angle
Because people don’t change
They just move

They act out their part
But is it who they are?
Or who they think they should be?
Really they are just desperate
To stand somewhere important
They breathe a sigh of relief when something intelligent is said
Or witty
Because it confirms their standing
And yet it’s so silly
Because what does it matter
To be amongst people
Or to be alone?
It’s all the same
Unless you are trying to get laid

I’ve never learned a thing at a party
Except that I hate them now
I don’t want to be the life of the party
I’d rather people not remember me at all
Except for maybe one thing that I said
One small thing
That was so profound that I could not utter another sentence
Because what would be the point?
Each additional word drowns the previous one into irrelevance
Because then they can’t think about what you said
Instead they must continue to listen
Then they forget
And then where are you?
Standing next to beautiful people
Who one day won't be so beautiful
Unless they shed themselves of these things
Standing next to beautiful people
Who one day won’t be so beautiful
Unless they shed themselves of these things
503 · Mar 2015
You Can Do It Now
Mark Lecuona Mar 2015
A bird sitting on the end of an arrow
When it fell your wings knew what to do
You liked being carried along for the ride
You learned to fly when your courage grew

But was that really you?
Riding the wave
Whatever its direction
You needed to feel the floor drop
Before you finally felt brave

You can do it now
You can know what was forever true
You used to watch it happen to someone else you knew

You can learn what matters now
You can find out before the day gets too late
But you have to you fly in skies that aren’t always blue

The sword is covered with all our blood
The folks who swing it don’t worry about their aim
We spend our times frying eggs and looking down
But we don’t have to lose our pride or take the blame

A bird sitting on a freight train
When it set out you didn’t care where it went
You only believed in man-made things that never die
But when it stopped you knew which message had been sent

You can do it now
You can remember what they told you
Or you can decide if you want to be someone new

You can learn what matters now
You can find out before the night becomes early
But you have to fly in skies that are sometimes cloudy
502 · Jun 2015
A Memory
Mark Lecuona Jun 2015
When today can only be yesterday
Tomorrow must accept its lonely fate
For the memories we will inside
Will make the rising sun hide and wait

There will be too many days and nights
When expectation feels no earthly end
For the dreams that walk by our side
Are the longing past we wish to see again
Mark Lecuona Feb 2012
The age of awakening
When a boy becomes a man
No longer just listening
He questions who holds his hand
A revelation of life
His mind now his own
He will continue to search
His thoughts no longer on loan
From the world of eternal persuasion
The message he receives a ruse
God is this; Your country that
The truth has been abused
The confusion of a material world
And knowing how to live
He is confronted by a choice
Is it better to receive... or to give?
He will finally know
As the charlatans are revealed
They speak for themselves
Their motives no longer concealed
His ability to discern
And live on as a man
Will guide his future
As he discovers his plan
Fearful Mother remain strong
As you watch your bird fly away
You may well trust his wings
For you taught him to fly this way
500 · Apr 2015
Eyes Through Her Heart
Mark Lecuona Apr 2015
He always felt the pressure, with eyes
that weighed life only through the mind;
though not too strong or sardonic; he
listened closely to her apologies to others
for life’s unrelenting random decisions;
but dead still fatalism was the only
logic that he allowed to approach

He should have known, her languid eyes
weighed life only through the heart;
though not so delicate, nor sympathies
hopelessly buried in allegory, she
laid the dead pennies upon his eyes
while blood became clear because she
said so

But she knew how to laugh, it was
as close as she would come to pretending
she didn’t care so much; it was because
of days spent drowning in her own futile
black and white world; seeing life only in
the light of kindness and the darkness of
shadows begging to lift their veil

He laughed but only in the past; he spent
more time asking what difference does
any of it make; she smiled patiently, if
there was anything she loved about him
it was that what he denied of himself
screamed in agony alone at night because
he knew he was the same as she was
500 · May 2015
He Taught Me
Mark Lecuona May 2015
He taught me how not to hurt anyone
And not to trade in his name
For my ambitions are not his for blame

He taught me about the quiet air all around
And how what I could not see
Would be the life breathing inside of me

He taught me how not to love war
And why those are blessed
Who tell us only peace feathers their nest

He taught me about the sounds we hear
And how man would discover
That wood and steel could speak of a lover

He taught me to accept all human difference
And to know of his presence
For what I do not understand is his providence

He taught me that what is holy is the ground
And that all who walk are seeds
Planted for those who follow to fill their needs

He taught me that my children are my life
And that time passing is to know
That they will fill the river that my age made low

He taught me that his word is our bond
And though life itself may lie
It was his promise that we would never die
499 · Nov 2014
let's start
Mark Lecuona Nov 2014
let's start with how it ends so we can decide if we should color our hair or show up to work tomorrow or maybe decide what forgiveness really means

let's forget about the middle because it's not the part we will remember;  the weather is more interesting than love trying to be a couple

let's be the beginning, a fable of mystical animals, hopeful, fearful, open-minded,  revolutionary to our souls, exhilarating lovers wanting desperately for tomorrow night when our morals will be devoured by our lust

let's sleep apart where we can meet for the first time in a dream without form or shape; only emotions painting landscapes upon the loneliness we refused to confront for fear that the morning sun would remind us that shifting sands is time being stolen by oceans of selfish remorse
499 · Jul 2016
Wandering With It
Mark Lecuona Jul 2016
I wonder if this is how it will end
“Yeah, I remember him”
What more can it be anyway
Just to fit into someone’s life
Even if you didn’t talk for years

Everybody is already there
We’re just playing out the hand now
Somebody new doesn’t stand a chance
They can’t compete with the past
I’m already a made man

If I can stand you for a week
Then that’s a close to love as I get
You can’t suffocate me
That’s why I got rid of the pillows
We’ll lay flat long enough to breathe

What I say is what I think
But the way I turn at any time
Depends on the way time looks at me
I will always consider your feelings
But I’m going to push my personality far

I’m looking for another door
Different than the one I came through
An entrance awaits on the other side
But is it leaving or just passing by
It depends how big the thought is

You finally did what I no longer care about
That’s what twenty years on does to you
I could borrow more money than I’ve made
Somebody trusts me that much
Or is it a trap like when you said I love you?
499 · Nov 2016
So You're Pretty
Mark Lecuona Nov 2016
Did you think I was going to fall in love with you just like that?
That's right
I just snapped my finger in your face
You need so much more than your pretty face
So what if I stared at you for a bit
Do you have anything to add to that?
I'm not talking about make-up
I'm not talking about playing hard to get
I'm not talking about thinking about making me feel lucky
You need to feel lucky
Have you ever?
You should try it sometime
You might learn something about yourself
And the world around you
498 · Apr 2015
The Paint on Her Back
Mark Lecuona Apr 2015
The story on her back was painted by empty cargo ships, leaving
this earth but sailing to find who you are, or to deliver the news of
who you are now; the answer was revealed when someone thought
her name, filling the silence in a noisy room

But it was not in the wings that moved; as she strained her face never
moved; concern was the watchtower of her life; was judgment in the
eyes of the man who could not turn his eyes away? But it was her choice as it always is for a beautiful woman

The life on the streets watched as the dream disappeared without
charging fare to those who begged to pay for a new life; he looked to
the sky but did not return his gaze because they did not know each other; but blue knows blue and storms pass because calm is for worry

He wanted to listen to birds singing instead of interpreting darkness;
as terrified of being hurt as he was of being rejected the litheness
of her smooth neck revealed only his own attraction; but does a man
lose his dream or find a new one because she left without a sound?

He was tired of suggestion or hint; he wanted straight talk, no matter
if romance was left behind; she was a human being with every right
to suffer alone, but she didn’t know why or if she should cherish the pain, caught up in blessed hope covered by a past that told her story

The comfort of shadows was because the sun asked too many questions; fear is the only real power in the universe; fear of dying, fear of living; there are things she wants to tell someone in case the morning never arrives, but though the sun rose the ship finalized the distance between us
498 · Sep 2017
force majeure
Mark Lecuona Sep 2017
water falls burning; rivers
boiling; oceans churning;
it’s never love that is wrong
if we remember how we
walked next to hand-carved
banisters; we picked them out
together; the storm won’t care;
the angels said it doesn’t matter

but it does; rebuilding a house,
it’s not home until our memories
decide to join us; can our tears
carve a new path so they can
make their way to us; can they
give thanks to the prayer that
saved our souls because all we
prayed for was to smile again?

a sea song echoing inside of
conch shells; enough to risk
singing it again alone on a still
beach; shadowed by the surge
of seabirds fleeing; their wings
promising their return as does
the melody inside the fear that
knows what it has done

when I saw you wander in without
a thought of the future; it is our
humanity crossing borders and
oceans that transported the divide
we felt when the sky was blue and
the tide was tame; and now when
it is God that tests us I reach for the
love from you that we cannot invent
498 · May 2012
You Will Know Love
Mark Lecuona May 2012
You will know love
When you rid yourself of desire
You will know love
When you no longer demand or require
You will know love
When you set someone free
You will know love
When your faith flows gently
You will know love
When you live and let live
You will know love
When you do not ask and instead give
You will know love
When you can accept another’s choices
You will know love
When you listen to other voices
You will know love
When you honor the life of another
You will know love
When you liberate instead of smother
You will know love
When you understand a problem
You will know love
When you try to help them
You will know love
When a vow is renewed
You will know love
When your destiny is understood
You will know love
When you let yourself go
You will know love
When your heart tells you so
497 · Sep 2016
And So I Say
Mark Lecuona Sep 2016
If the Earth should vanish by our own hand
If the book was erased without a memory
If all of life stopped without a trace
Would God still remember me?
Is this what I really believe?
A God who is everlasting?
Can I turn the other cheek?
When will my anger begin fasting?

From the mountain tops
I see the valley of oppression
It fills with our tears
As we drown in man's obsession
But does God need man?
Or to plant a garden on a stone?
Must we **** everyone
Who will be first to atone?

The emotions of man
Invisible to the eye
Controlling our every action
Only our soul knows why
I saw him on the corner
Did I turn the wrong cheek?
Inside my heart I already know
Grace was made because I am weak

Truth as a form of reality for humans
Is revealed or in what we discover
In both, we find what we know
Is controlled by emotional desire
There is a truth or an outcome
That we insist must always be so
Even if the truth we have found
Conflicts with all that we know

From the limits of our imagination
God is a metaphor of anthropomorphism
An assertion as to his nature including gender
Is to place God into a man-made prison
He is beyond the limits of reality
If reality is perception and experience
But if reality is truth then God is reality
And only he knows the hour of deliverance

Creation, purpose and the history of mankind
Each of us could only describe it as a fairytale
And yet to describe God with certainty
Is to limit the possibilities of the metaphysical
Our concept of time and purpose is only relative
Yet we arrogantly believe we can change his nature
And so too it is better not to say anything at all
Than to describe our birth by the hand of the creator

And so we answer questions by singing of the wind
Abdicating all knowledge to nature to justify our sin
And though we know the cause of all suffering is desire
It is not true that all desire is wicked if he planted it within
The more we desire to become a part of the spiritual world
The more we give away the scraps of our enslavement
Enlightenment is said to be found by impoverishing oneself
But who can walk barefoot on the hot pavement?

Love is deepest in a parents love for their child
Or our first love or in the love of an animal
And what is life except devotion to those you love
And to those who depend upon you to be rational
Do not compromise what is wise and good to belong
You have the strength to be alone if you know how to love
For it is without expectation that love is true
And even a wanderer can know what this is made of

Do not command someone to believe as you do
You cannot make them arrive at the same place
Neither in time or where your body may lay
If their origin of birth did not have the same grace
To believe that you alone are the holder of truth
Is to separate yourself from the divinity of the flame
To restrict enlightenment to the narrows of predominance
Is to declare that you alone are the target of your souls aim

Philosophy, reliant upon the development of our soul
Married to truth and curiosity as to our origins, not unyielding
To any new fact that might present itself to you
Is there anything more than what is good and revealing?
But if the world insists that you wear your cross
Then tell them you would die so that others can live
And to God alone you render your fruits for judgment
For the ledger kept is the mark of those who can forgive  

A belief in a dualistic world is to say evil is separate from good
It is as powerful as good and the creator allowed this to happen
If we say that the creator is only good, then what of evil?
Is it the absence of good or is it a war with our own reflection?
Must we assert our goodness or our own evil devices of destruction?
We cannot wait for good to destroy evil or so history has proven
Yet men stand in front of horses and hoses when death has failed
Having made their peace, they wait, for the hour to be chosen

It is our task if good is the passive nature of a benevolent absent God
But if we are made in his image then is he made of good and evil?
If the good in God is also ours, we know of it but who will summon it?
We must take it upon ourselves to steel ourselves upon the anvil
But if our nature is such that the absence of good makes powerful evil
Then is it evil alone that can save us from the very nature we possess
That is why we concern ourselves with such notions as a just war
And wait until the day when there is nothing left except to confess

The more assurance I hear from you the less that I am
I will not say, “This is truth so repent now or perish forever”
Humility is the admission of all that we do not know
But the depth of ignorance it too vast to be called only a river
If humility is to be rejected then your aim falls below the sunset
You have compared yourself to a horizon that will never be found
You have accepted that what lies beyond is of no consequence
Because what matters is that you stand upon your own holy ground

I hardly know myself much less why I am this way
I believe I have a soul, defined as unseen consciousness
But which story of long ago was witnessed by honest men?
I can only hope that I will survive after my body perishes
I will never tell you how to live because I cannot live my own
I will never judge you for your beliefs, only if you hurt someone
There is no contrary opinion that should result in physical conflict
For in the end, what can I prove except that peace has come undone

If I am so insecure that I must destroy all who disagree
Then it is I who should  be destroyed for my weakness of spirit
There is too much temptation to place money above the individual
And too much desperation to steal what they cannot inherit
But as I choose to walk with the pride of knowing my place
And the honor of allowing all who come to sit in front of me
I have found that behind the multitudes there is a place of rest
And it is a place where good and evil can both finally agree
497 · Jan 2016
Who Really Knows?
Mark Lecuona Jan 2016
Only God knows all our wrongs
But though arrows point at our souls
The whispers of the lamb dull his vengeance
A man has to die before he lives forever
While parades remind us of his courage
Some stand still thinking only of progress
Train tracks laid across holy ground
Desperate men laid to rest
They ask if evil killed each other
Or did we also sacrifice the saints?
They made peace with their destiny
A story they never thought to question
Right can never observe wrong blithely
And those whose spirits keep watch
Silently shed their hopes for the truth
Because history is still written by man
Mark Lecuona Oct 2015
Don’t ask me to wish you luck with all your money
You spent your time pretending but who’s kidding who
Now you walk away into the sunset that you finally noticed
Justified by the praise of people who want to be just like you

What echoes in my mind is rejection of the message
There are shadows upon my future as if it even exists
The weather is not a summer breeze but a still day
There is no reassurance for a man who resists

But what did they learn from your gift of callous focus?
Ruining people’s lives was just something you had to do
It didn’t matter because the enterprise was your mistress
You tried to hide it but she was all that was inside you

I thought it was creating a need where there was none
Or impressing someone who wished they had an office
But the ink that couldn’t be recycled recorded a past I hate
I wonder if the man who threw it away has clinched fists

Who would relish in destroying a working man’s pride
Where are you when he has to tell his family he’s lost
How hard can life be when they laugh at all your jokes
Except the ones who know your warmth will turn to frost

A vacation without rain isn’t too much to ask is it?
But how do rapids form waiting for someone like me
I’m willing to stand under the falling tears of heaven
I won’t ask nature to be something it wasn’t  meant to be

You have to learn to say thank you but not really mean it
Every pleasantry has a price like every dollar paid is a loss
His wife waits for him to come home knowing his mind won’t
But the old wine is the dividend from him being the boss

I wanted to be everything you have ever dreamed about
But you didn’t know you had to live with another man’s ambition
I wonder if we could move to a small town and leave it all behind
I just want you to believe in me and not someone else’s vision
492 · Feb 2015
Behind Seriousness
Mark Lecuona Feb 2015
What solumn countenance would curtain
a joyous explosion of masks, wigs and
gay costumes lifted upon the shoulders
of unicorns, hoisted by green mice with
chattering teeth as the teeming throbbing
wall of ever sharpening claws and whip
tails tightening the knots that bind them
with each living brick?

What strained smile would do honor
to the leaping unicorn, transporting
mere mortals transformed by imagination
relinqueshed of reason and the laws of
man where those who carry no haute
or couture of those most favored swallows
that flap their wings until the day their
frivolity turns it's head on their foolishness?

What mind locked behind lonely doors
would leap ahead of birds shed of tails
and teeth and horns that fly about the
land unabashadedly crossing seas and
rivers cooling the hardened hearts of
men who cannot believe in the fairy tails
of fantasy because what their God decided
was that the poor must always be with us?
492 · Jun 2017
The Wrong Girl I Knew
Mark Lecuona Jun 2017
I never was a wheeler dealer
So don’t pass me the wheel or the cards
I don’t do puzzles either
I don’t like picking up the pieces
or taking my time just to **** it

I don’t drink to get drunk that much
I don’t like the morning after
or waking up with a stranger
We can drink for each other though
There’s something about love in a bottle

I was trying to decide something
It had to do with falling in love
Trouble was nobody was around
The love letter I wrote was really good
It never got mailed but I would’ve

I’m not much for attention anymore
After the cameras are all gone
What’s left but you and all my fears
I don’t want anybody to know what I got
Somebody might want to come take you

For some reason I’ve found myself here
I loved you but I didn’t like you sometimes
It’s not that you weren’t a good woman
It’s just that you wouldn’t quit doing things
Talking to your ex or drinking more than me

Some of these people sure don’t seem real
I don’t know if they know which candle to burn
A home away from home is hard to find
You have to say hello to every stranger
Even if you’ve never seen their type before

I’m on my very own yes I own it now
Freedom is something I’m ready to pawn
But that’s what I said last time
A girl I once knew said I should go for it
But it’s not right to steal her away

I was thinking about hind-sight
But that’s nothing but a song to sing
I’ll take the crystal ball from you
But you don’t have one do you?
That’s why mistakes just happen
492 · Apr 2012
My Mistake Was You
Mark Lecuona Apr 2012
When
I wanted love
You were gone
When
I
Wanted
You
You no longer wanted
Me
All the days
Of my mistake
Left me awake
With the regret
Of a lifetime

In your heart I will live
With my eyes I see you give
Everything
For me

When
I wanted solitude
You were there
When
I
Wanted
Me
I no longer wanted
You
All the nights
Of my desire
Left me asleep
With the dream
Of a lifetime

In my heart I will live
With my mind neglect will give
Nothing
To you
Song lyrics... kind of an ethereal vibe....
491 · Nov 2014
Remove it From Our Sight
Mark Lecuona Nov 2014
Stringing beads of discontent, dangling
Every color of the spectrum, strangling
Over shallow waters of ignorance
Where the children choose to wade
Rather than deep waters where shadows are made

Remove it from our sight
Remove it from our sight
Why are we bound by the things we hate?
Remove it from our sight

Blank faces with no souls, staring
We describe them instead of caring
In time we will know what they were saying
What memory we choose is what stayed
What we refuse to abandon is the image we made

Concrete setting in our souls
Filling the crevices and the holes
Enough we say of this way of being
Give me the pain of knowing and seeing

Grace is in how you forgive yourself
We removed it to see for ourselves
We had to know this time
Why the price was already paid
For children not knowing why they were made

Remove it from our sight
Remove it from our sight
Why are we bound by the things we hate?
Remove it from our sight
491 · Dec 2015
Buddhism
Mark Lecuona Dec 2015
Western man is not a Stupa
To observe architecture is not to be
Even if you know why it was built that way
Or what it means

The iconography symbolizes our differences
Rotating to the East where the morning sun is seen

Relics of the death of desire walk freely inside

It’s shape

Earth
Water
Fire
Air
Space

The purified elements

Unknown to those who watch the sun set
And to those who remain trapped in their desire

And so

Do you **** or do you love?
Can you be both or neither?
Can you suffer without desire?
Can you desire and not suffer?
Can you love suffering and hate desire?
Will you die by desire
Will you live by suffering?

Without desire
You cannot love

Without suffering
You cannot feel

Are you afraid of pain?
Is pain life or death?

Do you understand the things you say?
Or what you wish to be?

The mountaintop is so lonely
It causes pain in those who need you

Yet

You

Avoid

Suffering

Is this life?
To eliminate
Desire?

Will you dig
Until you cannot see the sun or the stars?

What did you prove when you became immune

To passion?

Is it
the way
to end
all desire?

To end
all need?

To end
all experience?

To end
all feeling?

To end
all touching?

To end
all wanting?

To end
all expectation

In you?

I cannot end desire

Or suffering

Because
I cannot end life

Can you?
490 · May 2016
Our Story Your Body
Mark Lecuona May 2016
I didn’t find your feelings on the corner
I know you gave everything
But real life doesn’t begin until it’s over

You felt sand castles all around you
The tower you wanted fell
It was something that could only be true

I wanted to go where they write no letters
Who would live like that
Crying out is so much more better

You painted your body with my memory
Everyone can read what I did
I thought it meant you still wanted me

I’m not going to live only on your skin
But what my heart knows
Is love will never forget where it’s been

I never knew the word please until tonight
Now I’m ready to say it
I decided that only desperation is light
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