i cannot believe how long its been
yet still i love every piece of you

i tell myself you felt the same way
you didn't mean to hurt me
not every word you spoke was a lie

but still i am unconvinced

what if
what if you did hurt me on purpose
would i still love you
...i would

it's a thought i cannot bear

You ask me how I can love you
You who is broken, and limping, and lame
I stop you before the tear can fall
Taking them from your eyes
And crying them out my own
I tell you the truth of absolute love
I tell you I wear no blinders
I see you as you are
I see your imperfections but we are all flawed
Those minute cracks in your soul
Trickle out pain in swirling hues of tender that highlight your heart
A heart you profess is black and stone
But it beats strong within my chest
Where I will nuture it and feed it with my own
I see all the nicks and bruises and breaks
They are not reasons to walk away
They are the very thing that makes you worthy
Your damage healed in stregnth
You are not broken
You are beautiful in all things
A tender heart that bleeds for others
That hates you for not being better...for me
Don't you know?  Can't you see?
There is no better, you are as good as it gets
It is I who is unworthy
And in all your fear of being alone, you overlook the truth of who  you are
of who I am when I am with you
You see beauty in every corner of derelict
You fill my cracks with your joy
To the point where you feel you run out, not even knowing you gave it away
You see in me what I am unable to see in myself
And because it is you who sees it I believe you
I see your cracks and spackle them with love
I see the scars and am thankful you survived the journey
And tomorrow, or next week next month or next year
When you have grown strong in my love
When the time comes that you realize I am naught but pieces duct taped together
When you  see the truth of what I have always known
I will still love you
When you move on to brighter days and greener pastures
I will still love you
When you see that you are worthy of more than I am able to give you
I will still love you, as I do now
For I never learned how to unlove someone
And you have always been worthy

im hopelessly in love with you
and
you're not making it very easy

Have you ever woken up at 2am unable to breathe because your paralyzed by your own thoughts?
No?
Then before you lay down your harsh judgment understand, that you will never understand, who I am.

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep on your bathroom floor because you couldn't bear to face the world?
No?
Then before you inject me with your poisonous words understand that I may never recover.

Have you ever hated yourself so much that you took a blade to your skin because you felt you had no choice?
No?
Then before you stab me with your words understand that I may already be bleeding.

you wanted to know the real me
i revealed my self
i broke down my walls
just. for. you.
you weren't expecting me to be there
yet there i was

you looked at me with disgust
you put me to shame

i stood there revealed
you pushed me
and i fell
down in a cold ***** well
helpless
hopeless
cold
lonely
only you can save me now

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