Liz Carlson

Liz Carlson Mar 2018

these walls are crashing down,
along with my tears.
with all the strength within me
i tried to hold it in,
but truth is,
you can't be there for me anymore.

this is long overdue,
and this feeling inside has started to rot.
i hate to break your heart,
but mine is already broken.
still want to hold you close,
but i can't keep holding you,
while you hold someone else.

breaking up with a friend

#breakup #deadend #end #friendship #relationship #toxic

Liz Carlson Mar 2018

****** times.

you see me with a smile
on my face and
making sarcastic remarks.

i must be perfectly okay.

yet im still thinking about 10 minutes ago,
when i was letting my pillow
soak up all my tears.

i was the girl laying on my
bedroom floor,
the same song on repeat.

tears come and go,
but the pain lingers.

#****** #sad #pain #tears #bedroom #floor #depressed

Liz Carlson Mar 2018

unsafe.

you talk about trust,
and then betray it.

you talk about love,
and then destroy it.

you talk about friendship,
and never give it a chance.

and
every time
im the one crying
on my bedroom floor.
no one to hold,
no one to see me.

#lies #lie #deceit #untrustworthy #notrust #trust #love #friendship #sad #pain

Liz Carlson Mar 2018

empty friend.

we said we'd be friends forever,
but now you're holding him
before you hold me.

i guess "friends first"
just wasn't for you.

i still tell you everything,
but the trust has vanished.

and after all,
what's friendship without trust?

i act like everything is fine,
though i know what's wrong.

i'm your shoulder,
i'm your best friend,
but you are just an empty friend.

#friends #friendship #relationship #pain #sad #lonely

Liz Carlson Mar 2018

vagabond.

ive traveled here and there.
ive seen incredible works of art
and pieces of history
scattered across the globe.

never will i know "home",
never will i fully belong,
never will i not miss someone.

a life full of adventures
and new faces,
i wouldn't trade it for anything.

the pain is always there,
but the memories will never fade.
joy will always abound
in the hope for the future
and the days of the past.

being a world traveler,
a vagabond,
has its troubles.
but the rewards make
it well worth it.

#vagabond #mk #tck #travel #traveler #missionary #thirdculturekid

Liz Carlson Mar 2018

falling in love.

i think im falling in love with you,
for ive never felt this way before.

i miss you all the time
and i know your mind so well.

i know when you're being a goofball
and when you're being honest.

i know how deeply you care for your family
and friends, though you may never admit it.

i know you're scared of getting hurt,
so love frightens you.

but i know when you will fall in love,
though it may not be with me,
you'll be just perfect.

#love #like #crush #friend #bestfriend #relationship

Liz Carlson Mar 2018

drowning

oh im drowning
far below
you don't see it
but i know
its there

shallow water
never seemed so
deep
carry me under
keep me captive

no one knows
im gone
and thats
the torture of it all

move with the current
or you're
forever lost
can't go that way
don't you know

oh we're all drowning
far below
we don't see it
but we know

we're forever lost
in the current.
it reels you in
and never let's go.

#drowning #water #life #current #stress #anxiety