I spend most of my time
Locked away in my room
Writing metaphors that could never be
As beautiful as you

I try to catch your eye
With my words
But they could never do you justice
So I know this'll never work
But I keep trying

I try to capture your beauty
Using only thoughts that come to my mind
I know you find it hard to trust me
I don't blame you
Almost everything I say is a lie

I try to twist my own words
But I end up just twisting my tongue
And though I know it'll hurt
I try my hardest to be someone
That you could trust

And I
Wanna make you smile
But I don't know how
And I
Wanna stop lying
To your face
But I can't get a single truth out

Everything I say is a lie

I wanna carve your name
Into my wrist
And have you sew me back together
So you can see how much
You've hurt me

I crave your every inch
In the most innocent way

I like the way
Your breath feels
On my neck

I wish that I
Could feel it
Again

Her throat is growing flowers
But she's got cobwebs in her mouth
She has so much to say
But she just can't get it out

My mind is a battleground
I fight all day and all night
            this is your own fault
My body shows my battlewounds
Scars and bones and scratches
            you did this to yourself
I need to eat
   but you can't
It's just food
      but it's not
My minds thin
         but you're fat
This is breaking me
            I'll fix it for you
I'm going too far
               you're not far enough
I need to turn back
                  that's not an option
Release me
                     not happening
I've gone too far
                        push it a little further
I can't
I            can't
I                           can't
I                                                can't
I                                                                    can't



                                                                           *I think you've gone too far

I need to stop apologizing
For things that you did

Time
Doesn't
Pass
Like
It
Used
To

Scars
Don't
Fade
Like
Before

I guess my life is slanted
I guess I'm kind of weird
I look a little diagonal
When I glance into the mirror

My heart's a little too large
I say whatever I hear
But as long as you don't trust me
I'll wipe away your tears

When I first met you, I'll admit I was a mess
But you were too
Our nights were filled with talking till dawn
And I love you
But this was back when you showed me off like a prize
When I finally realized
I don't need to starve or cut to feel something
I just need to look into your eyes

But now everything seems to have changed

When I say I love you it feels hollow
And you pretend you didn't hear
When I touch you I feel a shock
But you seem to disappear
You no longer parade me around
You seem to be ashamed
Because you hide me like a secret
And don't mention my name

And speaking of my name
Why the **** don't you repeat it
When it spills out of your mouth
Why does it sound like *******
Why do you only stare at me
Until the morning comes
Why can't you show your feelings
You make me feel dumb

For putting all this trust in you
And taking a shot
By honestly answering every question
Whether you told the truth or not
I tried to believe you
I tried so hard to change
But I guess you just won't make it
To meet me in the rain

And ya I ******* miss you
But I bet you don't miss me
So I'll open up my chest
And take my heart off of my sleeve

My bulletwounds
I took for you
But you're the one
Who held the gun

Your laugh
Isn't a windchime
It's
    The
         Whole
                   *******
                               Symphony
Your smile
Lines up the notes
Oh
    So
       Perf
             ect
                  ly

When the sun shines
All I can see
Is the storm ahead

She's skin and bones
But she has no one to show
Because she's lost all hope and her soul's lost its home

She got so close
To perfection
But she went to far
Past the point of no return

Her face is like a skeleton
Her eyes and lips caving in
Her smile looks sad and grim
She doesn't care if what she is is a sin

Her heart is ruptured
It beats in her ears
Loud enough to hear

Her mind is weighed down
By a ball and chain
She doesn't want to change

What if she was light as air
Would she be happy?
What if she knew somebody cared
She'd be happy

I guess
I need you
More than
I let on

You were the only thing
That I had left
But I have nothing
Now that you've left

I want you to be happy
But not
Without me

My breath is just air
It runs through strands of hair
They run out of my head
I'm pretty much dead
I miss my life
I know I can't survive
I'm just living in vain
My heartstings are strained
I need this pain

I guess
I need you
More than
I like to
Have you
Believe

Hold me so I can feel your warmth
Or maybe just hit me so I can feel *something

I took down my walls
And let you walk right in
No need to knock
Because you kicked down the door

I won't stall
Or beat around the bush
No need for small talk
Because I have to tell you the truth

I'm so vulnerable around you
You see the real me
I guess I kind of love you
And you have set me free

I guess when I talk
I say too much
I guess when I'm quiet
I don't say enough
Won't you take off your coat
Stay a while
Won't you take of your frown
Replace it with a smile

I guess when I write a word
It has to be sad
I guess when you write a sad word
I feel so bad
I don't want anyone to be
As unhappy as me
I don't want anyone to have to
Deal with pain like me

Your lips are black and blue
They look like the sky
But I know the truth
I see the pain in your eyes

You're beat till you're numb
You're hurt till you're broken
Nothing makes sense
Why is the world so cruel
I don't want you to see the world through my lense
I guess I'm just as hurt as you