and just for some reason
I discovered that I deserved better
than I what I was receiving.

I am a man without a country
A bird without the wind beneath its wings
Cold has been the winter of my ill-content
Spiraling to the ground like the leaves of October;my youth has been spent.  But I am none the  richer,  I have searched for clarity and only blurred the picture.
I let my words speak what I can't with my mouth. What's good the mind of a lion when I have the heart of a mouse? I've looked at myself,compared and contrast ; others have done  the same; that's why love does not last.
I've grown lonely with the wisdom from the less-walked path. It's hard to hold my head  high,  when the weight of the world is breaking my back.
I hope you'll look past the flaws in my nature
But that's not a very strong wager
How can someone with the sweetest smile
Leave such a bad flavor
The sun may set but will soon rise
So I'll wait out the night
To see if there's love in your eyes.

As I lay dying,
  You  choose
       to  pull
           the
         trigger.

they all think i was fixed last year
that 6 talks with a therapist was enough
that i’m happier than ever and therapy
can solve anything in a few weeks

bs, depression isn’t just something
that goes away just like that
it never goes away, it haunts you
for the rest of your life

so put your glasses on and look
into my eyes and tell me if I look
fine
my heart is aching and i’m anything
but fine

*(s.m)