Running through glass isn't
living.
Walking in grass isn't
happiness.
Happiness isn't
peace.
Peace isn't
sadness.

We left ourselves back in that place I could call home.
When you had stolen my heart and left me alone.
I still can't get over this ache in my bones.
You were once my queen on the thrown,
but now a love for us wont grow.
Just go.
**...

That girl you said didn't deserve a life, was only 16. So young and ahead of her, a long life.  She didn't think she deserved one either.
It's okay tho', right? ...because She is dead today.
Now no one has to worry because she doesn't have to see you,
and you don't have to see her neither.

Here I am
Deep within'.
this whole time I had been looking down the wrong end of the tunnel
Looking for the light.
for sometime,
I thought it was  *Humanity  who shed it's red around me.
Verses my mind
and heart, it is a continuous, on going battle for me.
I knew this whole time it was up to me to win.
it wasn't the life around me, it is me.
I'm never giving up this change, I'm giving it a chance.
*And I wasn't ready.

it was late at night when things got silent.
a mid aged woman's daughter, snook her moms bottle, the same bottle that sent her mom insane just earlier that night.
the girl drank gagging to the taste, and she kept drinking.
the bottle then became empty.
her world was blurry
just like her mind that night.
she was numb just like her heart,
it was like a dream to her.
she was chasing the butterflies the same way she would chase her dreams.
alive, and walking dead.
she went into the bathroom and looked up in a mirror were she saw nothing.
she felt worthless to herself so she sat on the floor, took out a razor and began taking it apart.
holding her blades hesitant and courageous, she began to hover over her wrists.
the sensation of release before the slicing through her fragile angelic skin.
she cut and it was deeper than what she could normally take.
she counted as the drops of her own blood spilled out, watching the life fading away from her right before her very eyes.
she started to loose count and began to look up at herself.
she waned to go back but it was already too late.
she fell to the ground before she could even scream her pain.
she dropped beneath the ground and kept sinking.
oh god where did she go...

Dear Heart, I will hold on to you because I never want to let you go.
Dear Misleading Thoughts, ******* you mad man.

If you try to catch me when I fall,
I'll just hit the pavement and being to crawl.
I'll walk up steps and get to the top,
There where I can repeat the flop.