My knees start to shake
When you’re in sight.
My Mind filled with wonder,
My Heart with fright.

When will this feeling stop?
When did this feeling start?
How can I listen to my mind?
Without breaking my heart?

Im so Confused
I don’t know what to do.
I can’t think of anything
Except for you.

Should I ignore you?
Or just give it time
I can’t think straight,
My heart is controlling my mind.

You hurt me, I hurt you
We both hurt each other, without meaning to
We push each other, we pull away, and we say hurtful things
Most times we don’t mean it, we just say it to get back at each other
As much as we try and talk, things are just not getting better
Maybe we should just face the fact that you and I are not compatible
I keep saying please stay, but you just keep pushing me away
Don’t you remember the old times, when you’d smile?
And when you could never stop giving me hugs
When we were the couple that people envied
But now our love has faded like the leaves in the fall
And it’s time to let go, so we can start a new chapter
Then maybe when we discover who we are
We can rediscover each other again.
And then maybe it won’t hurt as much

Sometimes I wish I could hate you
I wish I could turn around and walk away
Without looking back or so much as a glance
But I know that it would hurt me more than you
You would shrug your shoulders and find another girl
A girl that would believe every lie that came out of your mouth
A girl that doesn’t get jealous and doesn’t get upset
Basically a girl that doesn’t care about you
The way I did, do, guess that will never change
Ill be stuck on this merry go round filled with tears, sorrow
Fake smiles, broken promises, whole lotta lies
I guess if you can do it so can I
I guess my biggest lie would be I never cared
Actually I can think of one better, it would be
I’m over you

Every time I see you, I feel regret, I messed up
And I can’t fix it because you’re with her and you’ve moved on
I can’t help, but still love you, I don’t want to
But I know that I do, why can’t I move on?
Why did you have to move on to her?
Why’d you have to get your fairytale?
Why am I the only one without her happily ever after moment?
You get yours, she gets hers
It seems like everyone has their
Happily ever moment, except me
And I want mine
No, I deserve mine

I do a lot of crazy things, but its just because I care
There are some reasons that I would like to share
I’ve never had a best friend who I can tell everything to
It surprises me how you don’t have a clue
How absolutely amazing you are
You’re amazing, I know you think is bizarre
But you don’t understand how special you are to me
I know you and I know you’ll never agree
You’re always there to make me smile
Even if it’s only for a while
When I get good news you’re the one I tell first
When I talk to you I get nervous, I feel like I’m cursed
But you just laugh and say it could be worst
If I go please don’t hate me, please don’t forget the time we shared
Just remember, never forget, how much I cared
And how much I will always care
I know it’s not fair
But Know this, you’re my best friend
That is something that will never end
You helped me like myself for who I am
You think I’m pretty when I look like spam
To be his friend, he says it makes him glad
Because if a guy like you likes me, I must not be that bad

I thought you were my prince charming
The one that would save me from myself
The one person that would listen to me
And think that I was normal and great
It started off amazing and normal
As I marveled your Emilio Estevez smile
And got lost in your deep blue eyes
But for some reason you always covered them
With those sunglasses that made you look so cool
Just your smile gave me chills
I wish things could have stayed like that
But fate had its own destiny for us
And now we are thousand miles apart

I jumped, you caught me.
I laughed, you joked
I was down, you picked me up
I crumbled, you glued me back together
I loved you. You loved me back

You jumped, I couldn’t catch you
You forgot to laugh, I couldn’t remind you
You were down, I couldn’t hold you
You crumbled, I had no glue
You loved me, I still love you

Without any warning or sign
You ventured to a world divine
I refused to say goodbye, yet tonight I cry
My tears are for you, my friend
But our time will not end
For I shall see you soon
But first I have some living left to do
I promise I won’t forget
Your face is embedded in my heart

Sometimes I wish I could run and hide
No matter where I go though, these feelings stay inside
How can I stay home and live each day a lie,
When all I want is to close my eyes and die?
I see all the pain I’ve caused you, with every tear I shed
I plead with you now, let me go instead?
I wish I could take all the pain away and go to a happy place
Whether it exists though, it’s time for me to face
Can I ask for your forgiveness?
And for you to set me free?
It may seem ungrateful
But this life’s not meant for me
Thank you for all your love, for all the time we shared
It means the world to me that someone actually cared

A girl with a big smile on her face every day
A girl who is confident, funny and perfect
But that girl is not real
She hides behind the makeup on her face,
Her smile shattered to pieces when she’s alone
Desperation to be perfect, normal
Or just someone who fits in
Someone who has no problems in their life
Her friends are there for her day and night
They look for her for advice and happiness
Her friends mean everything to her
However her nightmares still come to life
The demons follow her, everywhere she goes
She made a promise to be strong
She sits alone in the middle of a field
Surrounded by birds and trees
The blue sky and the sun shining
This is her heaven, her long lost paradise
This is the girl no one knows
This is me