I didn't believe in Heaven
until I was tucked in your arms;
breathing in the warmth radiating off you
You were the forbidden fruit
and it was too tempting to deny

I didn't believe in Hell
until I saw you with her
I danced with the devil
and doubted all demons that whispered
my darkest insecurities in my ear
Jealousy creeped in
and I sold my soul trying to keep you
but I was cheated and you left with her
leaving me beneath the ground
we once stood on together

I didn't believe in God
until I was screaming His name
at 3:27 in the morning;
praying he'd lead you back to me

It's my birthday
Finally Thirteen
That's when i started falling
It's my birthday
You told me to go up to my room
Mama started calling
It's my birthday
You locked the door
Your clothes are on the floor
It's my birthday
My collarbones are showing
Then I started crying
It's my birthday
You told me to shut up
Youre finally growing up
It's my birthday
You touched the cracks
of the broken glass
It's my birthday
You said it's a test
You won't make a mess
It's my birthday
You didn't take my virginity
But you took in my purity
It's my birthday
You left after kissing my forehead
so i just nodded my head
It's my birthday
I cried
I wanted to die
It's my birthday
Finally thirteen
when i started falling

I know I’m evil, I’m mean, I’m rude and that makes me a bad person. I know I make mistakes, sometimes I’m being sarcastic, I often cuss. My mouth is uncontrollable. I just realize how bad I am. I can’t be a perfect person, a perfect girl, a perfect child and a perfect friend to the people around me.

all the tables
are turned
but
all the chairs
are remained
frozen

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