i could delete your pictures,
i could block you.
i could sit and write a million "i hate you's",
but it doesn't change how i feel about you.

i could delete your number,
i could force my your name down my throat whenever i feel it coming up,
and if it does come up i could puke on it
and flush it like a bad memory.
will this change how i feel?
no.

i could find every song that speaks about the hatred of a love that has gone wrong,
and belt it out at the top of my lungs.
i could burn every poem i ever wrote about you,
and swear to never write another one.
but not even this would change the way i feel about you.

you can check me a thousand years later
and you'll see that my love for you will never run dry.
(h.s)

There's much more to life than what you want and need
There's others out there with more important needs
But life is full of selfish people ignoring the pain
Or so it seems
All people can see is what THEY have to gain
Look at life beyond whats only in YOUR mind
Think about the hurt of others and what they find
Inside yourself is something much more than you can see
All you need to do is put aside what's in your own world
And think outside the box to whats outside the things you believe

The truth is bleeding out of my pores
And yet the feelings are all bottled up inside
I fall out of my skin, disappearing out the back door
Losing my mind, struggling to find the best place to hide
Running laps around the sounds of my own screams
Trying to decide which dreams I should or should not believe
Thinking that my life is no more than it seems
And these struggles I have are sent by the devil to deceive
It works; the lies, the hate, the pain that I'm put through
It makes me break down and I get scared of the truth
But the suicidal thoughts in my mind all lead back to you
And the tears that stream down my cheeks burn like a fire
That's bigger than all the flames of rage from my youth
It hurts; it builds in my soul before it pours out my eyes
Becoming rivers that flood my life with disguises and lies
I don't know how to make it all fade away, to disappear
Because it's more than I can handle and I hate to admit it
But it fuels my spirit and awakens all my childhood fears
Chilling me to my core, causing me to give up, simply quit
How do I do that? How do I commit myself to suicide?
Is that what I really want? Is that truly what I need?
Do I believe that my life is only my choice to decide?
And if I hide in the corners of my mind, will I still bleed?
These are the things I ask myself every morning when I wake up
As I stare at all the sugar settled at the bottom of my coffee cup
Then the caffeine hits me and I finally start to think clearly
What was I thinking? There is no way in hell I'll ever give up

There are sins of ømission
And there's sins of **comission

Poetry is art
      Poetry is visual

Poets can see the words

The way a play write
Can see the actors on stage
       with every line he writes

The way a musician
Can see the notes dance on air
       with every key she plays

The way a sculptor
Can see the final sculpture
       with every cut of their knife

The way a painter
Can see the waves of the ocean
        with every stroke of blue
                  on a blank canvas

Poetry is visual
      Poetry is art
            Poets are artists
       They write **from the heart

I don't know what I'll do,
Just the thought of you,
Makes me smile,
Like never before,
I know the joy & pain,
Blood rushing in my vein,
Send my heart,
Rushing like a train,
Flying high like a plane,
Intemperately insane,
A good feeling, a relief
Like the new beginnings,
Of Autumns falling leafs,
Hold on tight,
It's worth the fight,
If I don't make it out alive,
I'll sacrifice myself, my life
So that you can survive,
Your a gift to my life,
Love drop that razor knife,
If the unexpected occurs,
I'll follow you to heaven,
But please prevent that,
My only I'd take my hat off,
You won every face off,
All women lost, for me
Can't you see, I'm a Gee
In this ugly corrupt world,
If we never make it,
And be together, me & you
Know our love was so true,
Stuck like glue, blues clues
Putting pieces to a puzzle
We created & dedicated
To our lives of inspiration
Two spirits manifestation
Through divine elevation
& Patient preparation, you
Helped me soon felt me,
Thank you, one of a kind
Picking me up lost & blind,
Your eyes I got lost in them
Couldn't stop staring at them,
did you even notice?
You never paid attention,
But trust & believe I did,
Two young little kids,
Loving one another,
We were young, had so much fun
I think if you had noticed,
Maybe you'd know I wasn't
Lying, how could I be?
The whole world could see,
I think, I couldn't even blink,
How silly makes me smile,
It's okay there's a reason,
Changes in the season,
God knows why, I cry,
I let you fly,
if you come back it was meant to be,
I came back so many times,
In hard times I tried to make you mine, j
Just wanted to be your Valentine,
Your best friend you can come for anything, I'll do anything, I failed didn't want to listen, You kept walking away, told me stay away, Hurting me that day, wanted to be my last day
Just another sad day, my skies always been Gray oing our separate way,
I didn't think you noticed,
I liked you a lot, I liked you so much,
The way you made me feel, it felt so ****, Real, I was rejected replaced with another, With Crayon, you moved on dated, and went, Along for so long, I went wrong,
My life was crashing down,
Going directly underground,
Felt like a funny clown,
Nothing was working,
You didn't even notice me,
Guess you forgot about me,
Ignored me, like I didn't exist, time passed & it was you that I missed, I felt stupid, I felt dumb, I felt numb, I couldn't move on, It went on & on, until I gave Up, you're a permanent scar, my wishing star,
It's okay it's okay it's okay..

You'll always have a piece of me, even if you treat me like trash, garbage, waste, dirt, the worst thing ever, my love will remain forever

PS, Heart Broken

Can the people around me

smell my f l e s h

(rotting?)

Are they afraid

of the d e a t h

(behind my eyes?)

I have been this way

for a long

long

time

but I will smile

as my lungs **c  o l  l a p s e