if I went cheap shot
for cheap shot with you
who would end up
on the floor first?
If I matched you
white lie for white line
do you think that
I would die?

if you're gonna lead me on
take me somewhere fun
if you're gonna lead me on
take me away from here

If I sponsored every
mile that you run
away from me
would I run out of money?
if I broke a bone
for every broken promise
you would be just
a pile of flesh

if you're gonna lead me on
take me somewhere fun
if you're gonna lead me on
take me away from here

here's to the inappropriate bonds
the secrets that form between us
all of the nights spent hating all
of the things that we'll never admit
and the mornings spent regretting
all the stupid things that we did

you're an alien to me
here you come
with your false light
you come creeping in
the middle of the night
all I'm left with is lost time
I've been violated
in ways I can't explain
and no one believes me

here's to the unforseen devistation
that contact has cost us
all of the days spent as strangers
not to each other but to ourselves
and all of the mornings we wake up
wishing it was yesterday...

you're an alien to me
here you come
with your false light
you come creeping in
the middle of the night
all I'm left with is lost time
I've been violated
in ways I can't explain
and no one believes me

I'll never tell
you not to leave
you are a free woman
you are free like the wind
I'll never tell
you I love you
You should be able to feel it
You should see it in my eyes
You've got a mouth full of lies
I've got a mouth full of venom
Let's see who makes it out alive
You'll never play fair with me
You always have something up your sleeve
Just because you cheat,
doesn't mean you'll beat me
I'll never tell
you what I'm thinking
I'll never show my cards
It's not like me to be layed out
I'll never tell
you I miss you

she said,
you're like the dark
you are mysterious
I call out for you
and something else
answers me back

there are no friends
no lovers
just opportunists
under covers

There is emptiness
in content
Folly woven deep
within success
It isn't the darkness
that scares us
Its the light, or lack thereof
at the end.

she left me
like a continental divide
little did I know we were
sleeping on a fault line
I called out for her
but she's too far to
hear me now

there's no coincidence
no second chances
just opportunities
and circumstance

There is emptiness
in content
Folly woven deep
within success
It isn't the darkness
that scares us
Its the light, or lack thereof
at the end.

Oh I've been lyin
Not to you
But to myself
All those nights
I spend cryin
Not over anyone else
But for myself
You're always the one
That pays for everything
But I'm the one that
Ends up in debt
Oh I've been tryin
Not for us
But for my health
I've been biding
Time not for us
But for myself
You're always the one
That apologizes
But I'm always sorry

if my words escape me
like vapors
my thoughts betray me
like lovers

let the night get the
best of me
let tomorrow get the
rest of me

I want to feel the night
in my hair
I want to feel nothing
but your hands
whoever you are

if my intentions twist
like a road
my actions commit
me to follow

let the memory fade
like the sun
let the night take me
like a stranger

I want to feel the night
in my hair
I want to feel nothing
but your hands
whoever you are
whoever you are
whoever you are

so you go
but leave your key
you're not allowed
back inside of me
don't know why
I keep expecting
anything less obscene
knowing your cruelty
far exceeds any
hole inside of me
don't know why
I keep expecting
a ******* miracle
knowing the cancer
growing inside of me
when did I get bit
by this infectious madness
when did I turn into
a blood thirsty beast
how can you go on
knowing you did
this to me
how can you claim
to be the victim
knowing the disease
that you left
inside of me
I'll never be
rid of you
but I will
be over you
I will transcend
this addiction
that leaves me
screaming for you
I won't go
no I shouldn't
have to go
I don't know why
I let you make me
the trespasser
knowing that you
came here and
I haven't moved
I don't know why
I keep rationalizing
your dependency on power
knowing that you are
the monster I created  
so you go
you go
you go
before I throw
you out.

you're like a clown
with that painted smile
you've always got
something up your sleeve
but you're tricks don't
entertain me at all

don't cry to me like
you have a conscience
don't lie to me like
I haven't already heard it

there's no morality in your manner
there's no sincerity in your banter

you're like a book
that I've already read
despite your cover,
I already know the end
and it was never a good
story to begin with

don't scan my face for
any signs of forgiveness
don't hold yourself like
you've got an ounce of respect

there's no justice in your retribution
there's no faith in your communion

don't speak to me like
we never knew each other
don't look at me like
I don't know what you're thinking

when you're caught in my stare
that's when I know I could
get the best of you
but you twist it around like a knife
and of me, you make the stupiest
woman in the world
I used to be the reward
I used to be the tug
at the beginning of the war
but no one wants
what someone else has broken
if you let me go
I hope you know
you will still see me
not like a ghost
not in a dream
I'm not really there
when I feel you looking at me
and I always wonder what
you're trying to see
but you look at me,
like you're so angry at
just the memory of me
I used to be the laughter
I used to be the happily ever after
now I'm the stick in your wheel
no one wants what's
already been used

Have your cake
And eat mine too
I'll watch you grow
Fat and soft
While I become
Small and hard

Death, comes to us all
For some, it rings
the doorbell
It brings
flowers like a
gentleman caller

Sometimes, it creeps
up on us while
we sleep
Snatches the life
Like a thief
in the night

For some, it is
The end that
justifies
the means
It is the cold truth
After the hot soup
of lies
in between

Others, it stalks
Like prey
Licking it's lips
As it gets closer
every day
It is a random
act of violence
Unprovoked,
Waiting in silence

But for all of us,
It is life's only guarantee.

I would rather you
of broken every bone
in my entire body
than that one
promise you broke
I would rather you
of ripped off my skin
than the one thing
you ripped from my hands

you were the flame
I was the cigarette
you lit me up and
I turned to ashes

I would rather you
of taken everything
that I have than
take me for granted
I would rather you
of spilt my skull
than split up our
little family

you were the flame
I was the cigarette
you lit me up and
I turned to ashes

My heart is beating
out of my chest
Try to speak but
I can't catch my breath
Oh, how I live for this

My eyes are trying to
hold back bricks of tears
Try to regain myself
But I can't get a grip
Oh, how I live for this

My dreams are memories
I can't escape to my secret place
My memories are regrets
I can't see the light in any of this

Was the time of our lives
when we first met?
Was that the best
we're ever going to get?

My head is spinning
like a broken record
try to stop it but
It just keep going round and round
Oh, how I live for this

My body shaking
like a leaf in a storm
I try to hold on
But you keep blowing me away

My dreams are memories
I can't escape to my secret place
My memories are regrets
I can't see the light in any of this

Was the time of our lives
when we first met?
Was that the best
we're ever going to get?

I love you so much
that I could never
take anything from you
I won't ******* you
so you can't run away
I won't cover your mouth
so you can't lie to me
I won't tie your hands
so they can't betray me

live it up
live it up
while you can
one day
I'll be gone
and she won't
let you get away
with ******

I love you so much
that I could never
let you be punished
for your crimes
I won't turn against you
not even to save myself
I won't put you in a cage
though you're a monster

live it up
live it up
while you can
one day
I'll be gone
and she won't
let you get away
with ******

(THIS IS REALLY A VERY PRETTY SONG<3)

there's something about
the way I move
that makes a liar
out of you
I know you mean those
words when they're
falling out of your mouth
but it won't mean a thing
by the time you get it all out

it's like a sickness
that you expel

I don't mind
watching you glow
when you say
that you don't care
it's the silence
that takes the toll

there's something about
the way you move
that makes a fool
out of me
I know you're running
around on me
I'll admit that I can't
resist the chase
but I don't want to
finish this race

it's like a sickness
that you expel

I don't mind
watching you glow
when you say
that you don't care
it's the silence
that takes the toll

yeah, it's the silence
that swallows
me
whole.

If I stand and fight
Would you turn and run
I waited my whole life
Just for that one moment
You wanna take it away...
Over my dead body
we love to hate each other
we hate to love each other
I watched you rip apart
our life we built together
I watched you take my heart
and swallow it like spit
I watched you run away
I never liked the chase
I watched myself die
so you could live a lie
throw them stones
but you can't touch me
say what you want
but you'll always want me
tie me up and crucify me
but I'll always be your savoir
if you never loved her,
you could never hate her
I watched you rip apart
our life we built together
I watched you take my heart
and swallow it like spit
I watched you run away
I never liked the chase
I watched myself die
so you could live a lie

A black hearted Queen, ripe with jealousy, asked for the heart of the fairest lamb in the land.
And all of the peasants, desperate and starving hunted her down like a plump wild bore.
But the princess was as clever and the Queen was cruel, and she gave her heart away...
She gave it to the most terrible monster she could find.
She knew that it would be safe, for everyone feared this monster.
It lived ina deep dark hole, alone but for the bones of maidens that threw themselves at it's feet.
A sacrifice in return for prosperity and protection.
The beast swallowed the princesses heart whole the moment she handed it over.
She felt her chest harden and become cold.
And she knew that the only satisfaction she would ever have was the knowledge that the evil Queen would never ever put her stained hands on her heart.
As time callused her softness and scarred her wounds, her mind wandered,and she wondered...
Did the price she payed outweigh the cost?
Is one monster ever any better than the other?
Never mind, the spell has been cast.
What's done is done.
Some fairy tales don't have happy endings.
And some endings just linger like a cherry that falls from  cigarette, burning a hole in your lap.

Tonight, there's nothing between us
We were never in love
There were no sleepless nights
Lying awake angry at each other
No words that were fashioned
into tiny little knifes

So come over here baby
There's nothing to be afraid of
I will never hurt you again

We call, we hang up
We get drunk, slip up
We get mad, take it back

We look thru each other
Like we never touched
We move thru the night
Like we've never spent it
how can you be so sure?
This won't last forever

Tonight there's nothing between us
I walk by like a lure on a line...
I've got your attention,
You don't want to get caught up
but didn't I cut you lose last time?

So come over here baby
There's nothing to be afraid of
I will never hurt you again

We call, we hang up
We get drunk, slip up
We get mad, take it back

We look thru each other
Like we never touched
We move thru the night
Like we've never spent it
how can you be so sure?
This won't last forever

I've got your eyes
You've got my smile
You'll be forever blind
And I'll remain silent
You stole my heart
I took a part of you
I'll be forever heartless
And you'll be incomplete

I can't hear this
Not tonight
I can't do this
No, not tonight
I can't see you
No, not tonight

I got over it
You went under
I'll always be high
And you're just low
You twisted my will
I pushed you away
I can't think straight
You're in outer space

I can't hear this
Not tonight
I can't do this
No, not tonight
I can't see you
No, not tonight

I dont care to know
where you roam
I'm walking the
bar district alone
I'm not your girl
I'm just a friend now
I'm not your world
you don't have
to pretend now
in my hands my
phone feels cold
will you call tonight
asking me to come home?
You're not my girl
you're somebody else
We shared our own world
but you kept it to yourself
I don't even remember
the straw,the last fight
the tug that tore us apart
turned day into night
I don't care whats
been done wrong
I don't want to write
this broken heart song
I want to lie naked
in your arms and
not feel exposed
I want to go where
the night takes me
but still feel close
I'm not your girl
I'm just another dead end
I'm not your homeland
There's nothing to defend

we're waging wars
with each other
by way of space
and silence

we took an oath
under our breaths
swore we'd forget
there's an undertow
and it keeps on
pulling us in

I see how you are now
and I'm so sorry
I gave you my heart
what's done is done now
we've got to play
the lesser cards

we're starting fires
in each others forts
thoughts like arrows
pierce through the armor

we took an oath
to defend our kingdom
but we broke our crowns
it wasn't supposed
to happen like this
love always wins...

I see how you are now
and I'm so sorry
I gave you my heart
what's done is done now
we've got to play
the lesser cards

**turning this into a hopefully very pretty song soon for "Ghosts of Punk Rock"

you're not a ghost
for that you would
have to be visible sometimes
you're like a demon
you possess me
to commit these crimes
I just wanna be your drug
Do all of me
As fast as you can,
Never get enough.

You're name pops up
on my phone
***?!
Leave me alone
but...
I'd be a liar like you
if I said that
My heart didn't inquire
every now and then
where you've been

Don't get it twisted
Reading into
What I just said
It's not like I miss you
I miss being distracted
from the outside world
thinking it was just
the two of us

Let's not speak about
what we just did
Sometimes I think
You do things to me
Just to see
If you still can
To see if you're flame
Still burns me

I see we're falling into old habits
you don't want me, you just can have it
swore I'd never let you hurt me again
and here you are digging under my skin
please don't say you want to kiss me
please don't tell me how you miss me

so I'll do another bump
while you speak of love
that you claim doesn't exist
and I'll have another drink
while I try not to think
of all the things I miss

I won't fall again, no
I won't let you in, no
I won't pretend though
that we're just friends
so what do we do
when you can't let me go
and I can't let go of you?

I see the spark that almost burned me alive
and all I can say is that I'm not ready to die
I hate how you **** me away like the tide
no matter how far I come, I'm right by your side
I should be enjoying this role reversal
But I feel like before was just rehearsal

so I'll do another bump
while you speak of love
that you claim doesn't exist
and I'll have another drink
while I try not to think
of all the things I miss

I won't fall again, no
I won't let you in, no
I won't pretend though
that we're just friends
so what do we do
when you can't let me go
and I can't let go of you?

I know that this is the same game
that I'm so ******* tired of playing
it's the same words that betrayed me
maybe you love me as much as you hate me

If you think that
I will wait in the shadows
keeping my head down
my organs, my time
at your disposal
You are blind
In the worst kind of way

I have been the trick
up the sleeve of
dishonest players
enough to know
that darkness well
penetrating only the physical
powerless against the invisible

I refuse to be kept
as a secret, a guilty pleasure
no more will you
take me behind closed doors
pretending not to be
intoxicated in front
of your friends

You will never see
me on my knees
for your sins
Your sinister sermon
no longer whispers
in my ear
And the weight of
your demons
Has lifted from my shoulder

The mistress of your cruelty
no more,
The empire we ruled
The castle we shared
All ruins now
Tales of our torrid
love affair will be
greatly misremembered
You, wearing my crown
And I, wearing your ill repute.

She got her heart broken
Just like a child's toy
She is less of a woman
Because of a little boy
She opened another book
But it's the same story

sacrificial lamb
offer your neck
die for their sins

we aim high
but strike so low
we say goodbye
but we never go

She had her eyes opened
Like a flower in the night
She is left hopeless
Because of your vice
She turned around
To be stabbed from behind

sacrificial lamb
offer your neck
die for their sins

we aim high
but strike so low
we say goodbye
but we never go

She's waiting alone at the bar
She's lost in her own thoughts
If you don't see her NOW
She'll be taken like your last breath
And you'll be as good as dead

And of course it comes on
That was your song

She's dancing like you're not there
She's lost in the eyes of a stranger
If you don't grab her NOW
She'll be gone just like the wind
And you'll never dance again

And of course it comes on
That was your song

She's given you her last call
And if you're listening at all
You will see her NOW
She's leaving with or without you
You'll be history or a memory soon

And of course it comes on
'Cause it's the last song
You want to hear

The rain almost seemed alive as it scattered
from the trees and houses onto the hot ground.
It was cold.
The coupling of the two bore a thin, ghostly steam.
The night hugged her like a warm vignette.
She wore gypsy boots, a cowl hoodie, and a camera around her neck.
She liked the way the lights danced in the water.
As the steam lingered, as if hypnotized by the slick, black diamonds slowly dripping from the sky.
The music in her head, as does her voice, has no sound.
Not silent.
Not to be heard, to be played.
It is the only thing that moves her.
She almost seems happy when she's dancing in the rain.

you're drifting
away from me
I feel you ripping
away slowly like
a band-aid
I won't be your
anchor this time
I am just a wound
that you never
let heal right

you say it makes
you sick the way
my face lights up
when I say her name
And I can't deny
You've caught me
Red handed
Is is still a lie If I
Don't want it to be true?

You're breaking
down on me
Like a vehicle
Leaving me stranded
So far out of
my boundaries
I can never come
back from this place
I won't fix you again
But I'm too invested
to just trade you in

you say it makes
you sick the way
my face lights up
when I say her name
And I can't deny
You've caught me
Red handed
Is is still a lie If I
Don't want it to be true?

You step to the left, I step to the right
Been stepping on each other toes all night
We used to move together like fluent tongues
Dancing instinctively to our own song

But winter's chill took over our bodies,
Froze our hearts and devastated our minds
We used to play on the same team,
Used to pass the ball to you when
I was surrounded by the enemy
But you dropped the ball...

You shut down, and a explode
We somewhat expected this meltdown
Kept a blind eye to the unstable core
Until we reached a critical point

Summer's heat drenched us in regret
Now we're drowning in our own skin
We used to walk together,
The world was so alive and so were we
And I watched everything die
along with you inside of me...

This once fertile land, is now a cemetary
What once was alive and beautiful
Grew feble and sickly with times decay

But oh, like a tree in the fall
You and I will be stripped bare,
But oh, like sweet spring
Life will return to our putrified limbs

I'll admit, it was selfish of me
to keep you just so you couldn't
be with anyone else
knowing myself, I couldn't face
the fact that I might not be
good enough for you

But I can't stop tapping this vein
It's the only release from this feeling
Like I'm a rock, tumbling down a mountain
I'm going to hit the ground so hard

When I remember, it's the only time
that I can touch you again
I can see you, I can feel you and
it's more than I can stand
I would ****, I would do anything
not to feel this way ever again

But I can't stop tapping this vein
It's the only release from this feeling
Like I'm a rock, tumbling down a mountain
I'm going to hit the ground so hard

You're never going to catch me,
You'll always have your hands full
I can barely remember what
it's like to be with you
I wish I could let it settle,
get up and brush it off

But I can't stop tapping this vein
It's the only release from this feeling
Like I'm a rock, tumbling down a mountain
I'm going to hit the ground *so hard

While I sleep
She cheats
on me
While my eyes
are closed
she cries
to nobody
She's sorry
but she's not
sorry
for me

a heart cannot be open
until it's been broken
all of my lovers hands
still touching my skin
I am an oracle
you come to me
expecting miracles
tell me who do you pray to
now that you goddess
has abandoned you
tell me who do you pray to
now that your goddess
has been proven fictional
no blessing ever came
without a deep sacrifice
the pieces I am missing
are lodged in someone else
I am a galaxy
you search me
for signs of life
tell me who do you pray to
now that you goddess
has abandoned you
tell me who do you pray to
now that your goddess
has been proven fictional

you're gonna shut your mouth
and listen for once, I'm talking now
don't act like you don't owe me
a few precious moments of your time
the goodbye you robbed me of,
deserves to play out as it should
And I'll admit, it will never be enough
I'm just too angry and confused about it

I know it's futile
To fake this smile
I know it's obvious
how I really feel
I know it's foolish
to waste my breath

you're gonna shut your mouth
and face your victim one on one
don't act like your innocent,
everyone knows what you've done
the things that you stole from me
can never be replaced or found
And I'll admit, I don't want restitution
But I'd settle for some sweet revenge

I know it's useless
to cry over this
I know it's obvious
that I'm still burning
I know I'm better off
but I feel so lost

This is my silent confession...
I don't know if I have
what it takes to be a woman
And walk away from you now
I miss the way you
would beg for me stay so
you could wake up next to me
Now there's nothing
left between me and you
But this invisible thread

And it pulls me
back and fourth
Like a pendulum
But I don't have the time

This is my silent confession...
I don't know if I can
live the rest of my life
Knowing you were once mine
And we'll always wonder
If we would've listened
If we would've shut our mouths
What would've happened
If we could've slowed down
If we never got lost in the crowd

And it haunts me
Like a guilty heart
pounding in my head
Eventhough I cut it out

I'll sing this song
for you
I'll give you my all
but I don't want to
everybody says
I'm still in love
but thats not it
I'm just so addicted
that I can't quit

strike the bell
call the match
it's all gone to hell
this can't be fixed

I'll bear this cross
you for sinns
I'll fall on my knees
that I don't believe
in any of this
everybody thinks
that I'm a martyr
but I don't have anything
worth dying for

blast the sirens
call the time of death
you can keep trying
to save me but
I've already ascended

it comes and goes
like breath from my lungs
been holding my fists at my sides
holding onto this anger so tight

there's nothing there,
your eyes are playing tricks
nothing is haunting you
but the memory of this
what you heard is not
what you think you heard
it's just the wind blowing
I never slammed that door

it comes and goes
like a fever from my skull
been trying to sweat it out
but it just won't break

there's nothing there,
your eyes are playing tricks
nothing is haunting you
but the memory of this
what you heard is not
what you think you heard
it's just the wind blowing
I never slammed that door

you want space?
i'll give you the universe
just you and your darkness
if I'm the black hole
******* you in
than go and find life
beyond this system
soon you'll see
your world revolves around me
i am your center of gravity
your world is dark
and cold without me
you want time?
i'll give you my whole life
just you and your precious hours
if I'm the bomb
ticking away in your hands
than drop me and run
soon you'll see
your world revolves around me
i am your center of gravity
your world is dark
and cold without me
if I'm that star
off in the distance, pulsating
make your way to me, quickly
I am waiting
I am fading

You can only imagine
How it feels
How the oxygen
Leaves the room
Just before you
Are consumed
By heat, so intense
You cease to exist
And turn to ash
In it's presence
But you can never know
How it feels
The last breath
In a black lung
Until you burn
Only then,
Can you speak of fire.

should've been the bigger person
and walked away from you right then
should've never folded my hand
and just let you win again

feelings aren't like chess pieces,
you can't stratagize and move
them wherever you want
don't know what game you're
playing but count me out
mark my words, that one day
you'll be sorry for the way
you disposed of me

should've been the stronger person,
and just took your right and left hooks
should've never tapped out
and shown my weakness

hearts aren't like diamonds,
you can't wear them around
your finger, take them off
throw them in a box until later
don't know what you value me
at but I know that I don't
shine like I used to

should've been the bigger person,
and let sleeping dogs lie before me
should've never kicked the hive
and expected to get honey

I never gave anything more of me
I never tried so hard to fix something
But like quicksand, the more I fought
for this the more you consumed me
Swallowing me like an ice cold glass
of water in the desert

I woke up before you did,
Left without saying goodbye again
I've got to wash your scent off my skin

Sleeping in the bed we used to share
Was like lying in my own coffin, dead awake
I closed my eyes and let darkness take me
Take me anywhere...

I never fell for anything or anyone
I never really hit any walls but
I crashed into you like a wave
breaking against the shore
I am salty and cold in your mouth
and you are dry and hard
against my skin

I woke up before you did,
Left without saying goodbye again
I've got to wash your scent off my skin

Sleeping in the bed we used to share
Was like lying in my own coffin, dead awake
I closed my eyes and let darkness take me
Take me anywhere...

Do you think they notice?
That you and I are like magnets
I feel you pulling me in and
it's a force that I can't resist
It's what we are

Sleeping in the bed we used to share
Was like lying in my own coffin, dead awake
I closed my eyes and let darkness take me
Take me anywhere...

I've been smoking like I'm on fire
I've been balancing like I'm on a wire
I've been sleeping like the dead
I've been tripping over what's left unsaid

Your love is like a slap in the face
I can't stop it from turning into hate
It's the difference between medicine and poison
And I won't take it again

I've been drinking like I'm dying of thirst
I've been laughing like it doesn't hurt
I've been wearing the night like a veil
I've been trying like it's not going to fail

This love is a gun to my head
hands in the air, waiting for the end
It's the difference between medicine and poison
And I won't take it again

I can't swallow this
It's too big
I can't spit it out
I like the taste of it

My love is like a backhanded serenade
don't want to lie in the bed we've made
It's the difference between medicine and poison
And I won't take it again

I still miss
the first boy
that I really
loved
none of
you know
cause I'll never
tell a soul

do you believe
in distance?
inches and miles
are just fiction
we are together
it's a kind of
covalent bond

I still miss
that entire summer
the love and
the inevitable
heartbreak in the end
nobody knows
cause I'll never
tell a soul

do you believe
in distance?
inches and miles
are just fiction
we are together
it's a kind of
covalent bond

Can we
just be
friends?
No, can
we *really?
until someone
comes in and
you're my
territory
again

I'll **** her.

Let me
teach you
a lesson
about addition
and subtraction
you can take
anything away
but attraction

*I'll **** her.

I'll sing this song
for you
I'll give you my all
but I don't want to
everybody says
I'm still in love
but thats not it
I'm just so addicted
that I can't quit

strike the bell
call the match
it's all gone to hell
this can't be fixed

I'll bear this cross
for your sins
I'll fall on my knees
but I don't believe
in any of this
everybody thinks
that I'm a martyr
but I don't have anything
worth dying for

blast the sirens
call the time of death
you can keep trying
to save me but
I've already ascended

Blame it on
Your absent father
Your addict mother
Your unexpected children
Blame it on
Anyone, and anything
So you never have to
Take responsibility
For your own actions

It's the whiskey
That hit me
It's my own shards
That tore me apart
It's a malevolent God
That lied about love
'Cause you don't do anything

Blame it on
My fragile psyche
My insecurities
My "impossible" needs
Blame it on
Anyone, and anything
So you never have to
Take responsibility
For what you've done to me

It's the cigarettes
That stole my breath
The weight of my expectations
That broke my trust
The spinning of my own wheels
That drove me into madness
'Cause you don't do anything

Watch me walk away
I get lost in the darkness
I like the way it covers me
I like the way it changes me
I search the night for
what was stolen from me
I roam the streets looking for
something to occupy my mind
I get lost in it
I get lost in it
We dance in our underwear
fall out of love
We wear last nights mascara
out to the club
We don't care
We don't care
Watch me dance anyway
I get lost in the crowd
I like the way we move to the beat
I like the way we forget the world
I search all the faces for
someone to captivate me
I have a lot of suitors but
No one takes me away
I'm so lost in it
I'm so lost in it
We drink to silence the voices
ghosts of lovers past
We live as if everyday
is our last
We don't care
We don't care
We don't care

I dreamed that you had ceased to love me—
not that you had come from other beds
back to mine, or gone from mine to others,
just that something in your heart had stopped.

I willed myself awake to find you still
beside me. It was just a dream, I thought,
yet when I turned to kiss you, in your eyes
I saw that you had ceased to love me.

I willed myself awake a second time
to find myself alone, as I have been
these many months, but did not know if it
was terror or relief I felt, and whether

dreams unfold the past or make the future
plain. I dreamed that you had ceased to love me,
and know when I see nothing in your eyes
I can't dream myself awake a third time.

-David Solway

It's true, what they say
people are mirrors
I look into your eyes
everything is backwards

What you see,
eyes and lips
hips and thighs
dirt and twigs
curves and lines

If my proportions
are enough, but
not too much
then...
I have your attention
and maybe
If I press my clothes
burn my hair
paint my face
maybe you will
like what you see?

What would I see?
If you never told me
I was beautiful
When I cover up
brush my hair
across my face
then...
would I know?
could I see?
The girl that's dying
inside of me.

this is the last
drunk phone call
I'll make
I won't waste
my breathe
ever again

your voice
comes through
the phone
and claims a
stake right
through me

And I know
that I am
yours again

this is the last
drunk phone call
I'll answer
I can't let you
keep pulling me
back in

your name
shows up
on my phone
and I feel
like my heart
is about to
stop

And I know
that I will never
be yours again