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Aug 2014 · 1.6k
You Have A Universe
imadeitallup Aug 2014
You have a universe
All to yourself
You are a God,
It begins and ends
With you.
You decide
If love
and
cruelty exist

You are immortal
Infallible
And gorgeous
Move like a dancer
As you
Float through
The space
Between you
and
The world

The stars are
In your eyes
Galaxies expanding
Beautiful madness
In your head
We all have
Black holes
That **** in
and
devour us.
Tried something different with this one.
Aug 2014 · 917
The Dream (by David Solway)
imadeitallup Aug 2014
I dreamed that you had ceased to love me—
not that you had come from other beds
back to mine, or gone from mine to others,
just that something in your heart had stopped.

I willed myself awake to find you still
beside me. It was just a dream, I thought,
yet when I turned to kiss you, in your eyes
I saw that you had ceased to love me.

I willed myself awake a second time
to find myself alone, as I have been
these many months, but did not know if it
was terror or relief I felt, and whether

dreams unfold the past or make the future
plain. I dreamed that you had ceased to love me,
and know when I see nothing in your eyes
I can't dream myself awake a third time.

-David Solway
This was so beautiful, I had to share this with you all. Writing like this is what I live for.
Aug 2014 · 1.8k
Speak of Fire
imadeitallup Aug 2014
You can only imagine
How it feels
How the oxygen
Leaves the room
Just before you
Are consumed
By heat, so intense
You cease to exist
And turn to ash
In it's presence
But you can never know
How it feels
The last breath
In a black lung
Until you burn
Only then,
Can you speak of fire.
Aug 2014 · 81.4k
I Am Stone
imadeitallup Aug 2014
I don't expect you to understand
Why I recoil when
You extend your arms and hands
Why I brace for impact
Within the trajectory of your touch
It is warm,
and I am cold.
It is wind,
and I am stone.
IF YOU STEAL THIS POEM, OR ANY OTHER POEMS OF MINE. I WILL FIND YOU, AND I WILL COME AFTER YOU LEGALLY. I AM SOOO SICK OF SEEING THIS POEM ALL OVER THE INTERNET WITH SOMEONE ELSE'S NAME UNDER IT. I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW YOU CAN LIVE WITH YOURSELVES. STEALING OTHERS WORK AND CLAIMING IT AS YOUR OWN. BUT ALL OF THESE ARE COPYRIGHTED SONGS. SO YOU BETTER HOPE I DON'T CATCH YOU. P.S. THANKS TO ALL OF THE PEOPLE FINDING AND TELLING ME ABOUT THESE FAKES. I APPRECIATE THE LOYALTY. :)
Aug 2014 · 653
The Strain
imadeitallup Aug 2014
It starts with a thought,
And you think almost nothing of it
There's poison working it way
From your brain to your heart
Pumping black blood
Through your veins
By the time you bleed,
It will be too late

She's not the cure,
She is the strain.

And you feel it in your bones
It won't leave you alone
And you chase the only escape
From the constant pain
And you love every sick second
All the terror and the tension

So you've got this nervous tick
And you just can't control it
That's her working on your last nerve
She's flirting with disaster
Her love like a pathogen,
By the time you have any symptoms
You'll have one foot
in the gave

She's not the cure,
She is the strain.

And you feel it in your bones
It won't leave you alone
And you chase the only escape
From the constant pain
And you love every sick second
All the terror and the tension
A lyric I wrote a while back...
Jul 2014 · 5.9k
Our Song
imadeitallup Jul 2014
She's waiting alone at the bar
She's lost in her own thoughts
If you don't see her NOW
She'll be taken like your last breath
And you'll be as good as dead

And of course it comes on
That was your song

She's dancing like you're not there
She's lost in the eyes of a stranger
If you don't grab her NOW
She'll be gone just like the wind
And you'll never dance again

And of course it comes on
That was your song

She's given you her last call
And if you're listening at all
You will see her NOW
She's leaving with or without you
You'll be history or a memory soon

And of course it comes on
'Cause it's the last song
You want to hear
This is a "frankensong". It started out as several separate lyrics that were so obviously about the same thing. So I put them together...And this came out.
Jul 2014 · 6.2k
howling
imadeitallup Jul 2014
Her wolf was circling.
The ***** didn't even know...
she was being sized up
by an apex predator.
She elegantly contained this
knowledge of future bloodshed
within her own head.
Never letting that *****
out of her sanguine glare.
She remembers only echoes
of noises that accumulated into words.
Annoying,
ENRAGING,
words.
The wolf pounced out of her control,
but not outside of her desire.
The ***** made a beautiful corpse.
That angered her.
She walked away with a villainous
smirk on her face, and a tumor
of darkness growing inside of her.
The wolf trotting along side her.
Trying something new with this style. :)
Jun 2014 · 1.6k
Bride
imadeitallup Jun 2014
She was more pure of heart than she let on.
More beautiful than she believed.
The sun itself would be envious
of the light in her eyes.
She was a lady of many hats,
all of which she wore elegantly.
But there was an emptiness within her
that's gravitational pull was so intense,
not even the heaviest of hearts were safe.
She, with the smirk of a fox.
She speaks my thoughts out loud,
she faces my worst fears,
she wanders like I do...
"Run away with me", her eyes scream.
Her mouth whispers "If only".
Simultaneously giving and taking hope.
It was a tear in the universe,
a glitch in time, a crack in faith.
This was not supposed to be.
Not now.
For her the wedding bells toll.
For I the silence of singularity.
I watched her eyes start to shimmer,
and flood with confirmation.
She caught herself, and smiled.
"We will meet again...someday." She shouted,
as she disappeared into the crowd.
It was time for the father, bride dance.
As she walked away...I thought,
"I am quite possibly watching part of my soul walk away."
"Of course, I would meet someone who is perfect for me on my wedding day" She said. xxxx
Jun 2014 · 686
Old Flame
imadeitallup Jun 2014
You're name pops up
on my phone
***?!
Leave me alone
but...
I'd be a liar like you
if I said that
My heart didn't inquire
every now and then
where you've been

Don't get it twisted
Reading into
What I just said
It's not like I miss you
I miss being distracted
from the outside world
thinking it was just
the two of us

Let's not speak about
what we just did
Sometimes I think
You do things to me
Just to see
If you still can
To see if you're flame
Still burns me
Don't you dare come back.
Jun 2014 · 5.1k
Old Wives Tale
imadeitallup Jun 2014
If you think that
I will wait in the shadows
keeping my head down
my organs, my time
at your disposal
You are blind
In the worst kind of way

I have been the trick
up the sleeve of
dishonest players
enough to know
that darkness well
penetrating only the physical
powerless against the invisible

I refuse to be kept
as a secret, a guilty pleasure
no more will you
take me behind closed doors
pretending not to be
intoxicated in front
of your friends

You will never see
me on my knees
for your sins
Your sinister sermon
no longer whispers
in my ear
And the weight of
your demons
Has lifted from my shoulder

The mistress of your cruelty
no more,
The empire we ruled
The castle we shared
All ruins now
Tales of our torrid
love affair will be
greatly misremembered
You, wearing my crown
And I, wearing your ill repute.
A little writing experiment. :)
Jun 2014 · 567
Rain Dance
imadeitallup Jun 2014
The rain almost seemed alive as it scattered
from the trees and houses onto the hot ground.
It was cold.
The coupling of the two bore a thin, ghostly steam.
The night hugged her like a warm vignette.
She wore gypsy boots, a cowl hoodie, and a camera around her neck.
She liked the way the lights danced in the water.
As the steam lingered, as if hypnotized by the slick, black diamonds slowly dripping from the sky.
The music in her head, as does her voice, has no sound.
Not silent.
Not to be heard, to be played.
It is the only thing that moves her.
She almost seems happy when she's dancing in the rain.
Tonight, tonight.
Jun 2014 · 3.1k
Criminals
imadeitallup Jun 2014
Just one bat of her lashes, and every neuron in my brain was conspiring to steal her heart. So I became a thief. I become a lot of things in an instant, the way a chameleon changes colors. Her heart was reduced to a jewel, courting became a heist, and possession was just the *** afterwards. She was nothing more than a crime. A terrible thing that I committed.
Inspired by a night with an unavailable soul mate.
Jun 2014 · 813
Territories
imadeitallup Jun 2014
Can we
just be
friends?
No, can
we *really?

until someone
comes in and
you're my
territory
again

I'll **** her.

Let me
teach you
a lesson
about addition
and subtraction
you can take
anything away
but attraction

*I'll **** her.
Everyone has an inner crazy *****. ;P
Jun 2014 · 8.1k
The Girl Who No One Knew
imadeitallup Jun 2014
It's true, what they say
people are mirrors
I look into your eyes
everything is backwards

What you see,
eyes and lips
hips and thighs
dirt and twigs
curves and lines

If my proportions
are enough, but
not too much
then...
I have your attention
and maybe
If I press my clothes
burn my hair
paint my face
maybe you will
like what you see?

What would I see?
If you never told me
I was beautiful
When I cover up
brush my hair
across my face
then...
would I know?
could I see?
The girl that's dying
inside of me.
Jun 2014 · 978
This, You DID Inspire.
imadeitallup Jun 2014
I guess I'm a liar.
That I never walked through hell
For a devil with the face of an angel
I never took the blame for her sins
My pain didn't inspire my writings
It was all you.
Though we never spoke or met
I stole your pain, I guess
'Cause you're the only one
Who ever felt the backhand of love
Thank you for creating the feeling,
Of both drowning and falling
Of both burning and freezing
Only YOU know.
What it feels like to be wounded
And to bleed all over the world
I never had a relationship with
A megalomaniacal, evil *****
I guess I just stole it.
Memories of brutality without shame
How did we ever feel before you came?
Along and taught us this new word,
This uncharted concept for which
No one has previously heard.
Get over yourself.
It's just a word
And mine is better than yours.
Try to compare my honest, hard work to your UNRELATED swill again, and I won't go so easy on you next time. :)
May 2014 · 69.8k
The Blame Game
imadeitallup May 2014
Blame it on
Your absent father
Your addict mother
Your unexpected children
Blame it on
Anyone, and anything
So you never have to
Take responsibility
For your own actions

It's the whiskey
That hit me
It's my own shards
That tore me apart
It's a malevolent God
That lied about love
'Cause you don't do anything

Blame it on
My fragile psyche
My insecurities
My "impossible" needs
Blame it on
Anyone, and anything
So you never have to
Take responsibility
For what you've done to me

It's the cigarettes
That stole my breath
The weight of my expectations
That broke my trust
The spinning of my own wheels
That drove me into madness
'Cause you don't do anything
Everyone has a **** like this in their life.
May 2014 · 3.6k
Dissection
imadeitallup May 2014
If only I could bore
Into your skull
Hotwire your thoughts

If only I could crack
Open your chest
Steal your heart back

If only I could tap
Into your spine
Turn that noodle to stone

If only I could slice
Open your belly
Show you what guts look like

If only I could tear
You another hole
Would you put my love there?
Just a fun, cheeky little rant. :p
May 2014 · 1.8k
Life's Only Guarantee
imadeitallup May 2014
Death, comes to us all
For some, it rings
the doorbell
It brings
flowers like a
gentleman caller

Sometimes, it creeps
up on us while
we sleep
Snatches the life
Like a thief
in the night

For some, it is
The end that
justifies
the means
It is the cold truth
After the hot soup
of lies
in between

Others, it stalks
Like prey
Licking it's lips
As it gets closer
every day
It is a random
act of violence
Unprovoked,
Waiting in silence

But for all of us,
It is life's only guarantee.
I wrote the first draft of this when I was about 14. My imac died, and it was lost forever. Recently, I got over being so angry about it. And rewrote it. And it couldn't of turned out better. The universe gives and takes in ways we don't understand..
May 2014 · 8.7k
Dragons and Unicorns
imadeitallup May 2014
I love it when
you stumble over
your words 'cause
I made your heart
pound so hard
your voice skipped
like a record

I don't chase perfection
I won't waste my
precious life chasing
dragons and unicorns

I love it when
you check your breath
and fix your hair
when I go
powder my nose
'cause you don't know
that I'm in love
with the man
behind the mask

I don't need a prince,
a crown, or a palace
All I need, all I know
when I lay my head
in your lap, I am home.
May 2014 · 1.1k
Distant Light
imadeitallup May 2014
I can't reach
consciousness
untethered
falling deeper
into darkness

and they try
but I just can't
I don't know why
It feels wrong
to love anything

but I remember
smiling and dancing
sweet salty September
oh, everything...

I can feel it
drawing closer but
not close enough
I need it now
something to believe

and I try
but I just can't
understand why
what I think
isn't what I say

but I remember
laughing and crying
through each endeavor
and our love dying
in my arms

I loved you like
the sun loves a star
so distant and mysterious
but we can't exist
in the same galaxy

and we try
and we live our lies
but we always have an eye
out for that distant light
May 2014 · 847
empire into ashes
imadeitallup May 2014
it's not about
who's right
or wrong
who lost
who won
'cause when
you're gone
I feel so
hollowed
why can't I
help myself?
I want to
crush you
but I love you
...
It's not about
who ****** up
or who got ******
who lost it all
who lost the torch
'cause when
I'm gone
you're just
a shell
why do you
always run?
you know
I will not
follow

is this how
it will always be?
you vs. me
used to be us
against the world
how did we
ruin the perfect thing?
we reduced an
empire into ashes
over a text message
...
I treasure this little lyric <3
May 2014 · 1.8k
Elle est un Démon
imadeitallup May 2014
her eyes turned black
her voice went flat
she stabbed me in the back
when I turned to run

she's a demon
she's a demon
I love your
darkness
pour it on me
like molten lava
baby, scorch me
I need to be clean

she stopped me in my tracks
stopped my heart just like that
she pulled it out of my chest
while I was sleeping in her bed

she's a demon
she's a demon
I love your
darkness
pour it on me
like molten lava
baby, scorch me
I need to be clean

D'exercice vous
serait blasphème
mais il vaut mieux pour moi
to exercise you
would be blasphemy
but it's best for me
I need to be clean
this is a really cool song I wrote on the ukulele for my "Ghosts of Punk Rock Project". :)
May 2014 · 5.3k
iktsuarpok
imadeitallup May 2014
here's to the inappropriate bonds
the secrets that form between us
all of the nights spent hating all
of the things that we'll never admit
and the mornings spent regretting
all the stupid things that we did

you're an alien to me
here you come
with your false light
you come creeping in
the middle of the night
all I'm left with is lost time
I've been violated
in ways I can't explain
and no one believes me

here's to the unforseen devistation
that contact has cost us
all of the days spent as strangers
not to each other but to ourselves
and all of the mornings we wake up
wishing it was yesterday...

you're an alien to me
here you come
with your false light
you come creeping in
the middle of the night
all I'm left with is lost time
I've been violated
in ways I can't explain
and no one believes me
fun little poem that I turned into a song.
May 2014 · 1.2k
Aeipathy
imadeitallup May 2014
violent
beating
our hearts
bleeding
together

go ahead
and run
for your
life
you know
I'll find
you again
but I can't
promise
I'll be
the same
person when
that happens

torture
stonewall
captive hearts
breaking
apart

so we
meet again
but now
we're standing
on opposite
fences
and I got
the feeling
I'm staring
down a barrel
you've got me
in your sights
but do you
have the guts
to pull
the trigger?

vacancy
strangers
familiar hearts
begin to forget
what it felt
like to not be
empty
Not quite sure if this is a song or poem yet. I just wrote this earlier this morning. :)
May 2014 · 517
Worship
imadeitallup May 2014
just wanna be
without you
even for just
a moment
don't want to be
all about you
this isn't living
this is worship

what will it take
to liberate
you from
my bones?

leave me alone
leave me alone
leave me alone

I carved a great
divide that
split the world
in two halves
and everytime
you breathe
you exepell
things that
poison every
-thing

what will it take
to wash
you from
my brain?

leave me alone
leave me alone
leave me alone
more of an exercise than a poem.
May 2014 · 2.8k
tell a soul
imadeitallup May 2014
I still miss
the first boy
that I really
loved
none of
you know
cause I'll never
tell a soul

do you believe
in distance?
inches and miles
are just fiction
we are together
it's a kind of
covalent bond

I still miss
that entire summer
the love and
the inevitable
heartbreak in the end
nobody knows
cause I'll never
tell a soul

do you believe
in distance?
inches and miles
are just fiction
we are together
it's a kind of
covalent bond
An electro feel type of song I wrote a while back. :)
Apr 2014 · 1.9k
It Isn't The Darkness
imadeitallup Apr 2014
she said,
you're like the dark
you are mysterious
I call out for you
and something else
answers me back

there are no friends
no lovers
just opportunists
under covers

There is emptiness
in content
Folly woven deep
within success
It isn't the darkness
that scares us
Its the light, or lack thereof
at the end.

she left me
like a continental divide
little did I know we were
sleeping on a fault line
I called out for her
but she's too far to
hear me now

there's no coincidence
no second chances
just opportunities
and circumstance

There is emptiness
in content
Folly woven deep
within success
It isn't the darkness
that scares us
Its the light, or lack thereof
at the end.
This is very cute and short when played. :)
Apr 2014 · 1.0k
death star baby
imadeitallup Apr 2014
yeah, you're beautiful
you're a dying star
you're just burning up

knowing
doesn't make you
wise
surviving
doesn't make you
brave
what makes
the man
are the things
he'll never quite
be

yeah, you're beautiful
you're a dying star
you're just burning up

loving
doesn't make you
kind
honesty
doesn't make you
true
what would've
made the difference
are the things
you'd never
do

yeah, you're beautiful
that's all you are
it's all you are.
I wrote this little bit this morning while watching BBC. :)
Apr 2014 · 516
buried
imadeitallup Apr 2014
looking at you now
I don't see how
I couldn't see through
your veil of lies
I look into your
cold dead eyes
and I don't want
to love you
I want to
bury you

oh, it makes me crazy
thinking about how
you got away with ******
but I'll tell you this,
if you ever hurt her
again
just know that I know
how to keep a secret
buried

saying it aloud
it seems crazy
to me now
how I love you
in spite of the way
you brutalize me
what does it
say about me?
that I can
bury anything

oh, it makes me crazy
thinking about how
you got away with ******
but I'll tell you this,
if you ever hurt her
again
just know that I know
how to keep a secret
buried
This is another poem turned into a song. One day I'll release the song ;)
Dec 2013 · 772
desolate road
imadeitallup Dec 2013
the first time
that I felt
your gravity
our worlds
collided and I
was devastated
but I stood
in the ashes
and I had
faith in...
you, me
this, us

I begged you
please please
don't go
down that
desolate road

now I don't
know who
you are
and I don't
recognize
myself
don't know
what this is
I can't even
remember
what we
were like

I begged you
please please
don't go
down that
desolate road
if you do
you'll be
going alone
I song I wrote for Ghosts of Punk.
Sep 2013 · 522
between you and I
imadeitallup Sep 2013
I know why
you stand so far
away from me
cause there's
someone in
between us

she can't be a ghost
cause you never let her die
all of this time
you kept hope alive
and it's killing everything
between you and I

you can't  kiss me
goodbye with her name
on the tip of your tongue
you can't see me 'cause
she's caught your eye

she can't be a ghost
cause you never let her die
all of this time
you kept hope alive
and it's killing everything
between you and I

I won't watch you
look for her in me
I don't want your heartless
body lying next  to me
I'm not sorry that I
won't be that girl

she can't be a ghost
cause you never let her die
all of this time
you kept hope alive
and it's killing everything
between you and I
© Ghosts of Punk 2013
Sep 2013 · 969
gospel (edited)
imadeitallup Sep 2013
so tired of your excuses
and the truth is,
you're a liar and a coward
and you're never gonna learn

sing it like the gospel baby
I don't have a prayer
you come to me when you're broken
expecting some kind of repair

truth is, I'm not your savior
but I don't wanna come
down from this cloud
I called you a devil
said you never loved me
just didn't wanna be dethroned

so tired of playing someone else
and the truth is,
I'm too good of an actor
no one sees my real character

play the victim with conviction
get away with the perfect crime
you come to me when you're on the run
expecting me to be your safe haven

truth is, I'm not a fortress
but I don't want to be abandoned
by you rats on a sinking ship
I called you weak
said that you've been taken over
but all along, it was me

play me like an instrument
we'll make the most brutal music
cause we've got the same song
stuck in our heads
and we pretend we don't
know it by heart.
written for my project "ghost of punk" :)
Sep 2013 · 1.1k
Oath
imadeitallup Sep 2013
we're waging wars
with each other
by way of space
and silence

we took an oath
under our breaths
swore we'd forget
there's an undertow
and it keeps on
pulling us in

I see how you are now
and I'm so sorry
I gave you my heart
what's done is done now
we've got to play
the lesser cards

we're starting fires
in each others forts
thoughts like arrows
pierce through the armor

we took an oath
to defend our kingdom
but we broke our crowns
it wasn't supposed
to happen like this
love always wins...

I see how you are now
and I'm so sorry
I gave you my heart
what's done is done now
we've got to play
the lesser cards

**turning this into a hopefully very pretty song soon for "Ghosts of Punk Rock"
Sep 2013 · 430
fools gold
imadeitallup Sep 2013
I thought I had a fortune
I wrapped my arms around it
but it crumbled like the dust
it always was
if I keep digging
if I keep digging
will I find something?
I keep digging
I keep on digging
my own grave
I thought I had an empire
I stood before countless faces
but they all were blind like the mice
that they were
if I fall asleep
if I fall asleep
will I wake in a dream?
if I keep telling myself
if I keep telling myself
will it become true?
Aug 2013 · 574
encore
imadeitallup Aug 2013
have you ever woken up
screaming?
have you ever wanted to
tear everything you love
into pieces?

nothing satisfies me like
it did
there's a mouth watering
craving that has
borne its way right
through me

you take
it all
you fake
a fall
you wait
for
an encore
but I
don't
play
anymore.

have you ever stopped
dreaming?
when you find out
nothing is what it seems
and it never stops
bleeding

nothing touches me like
it did
left a wound so wide
and so deep it never
closed again

you take
it all
you fake
a fall
you wait
for
an encore
but I
don't
play
anymore.
Jul 2013 · 642
makes a liar
imadeitallup Jul 2013
(THIS IS REALLY A VERY PRETTY SONG<3)

there's something about
the way I move
that makes a liar
out of you
I know you mean those
words when they're
falling out of your mouth
but it won't mean a thing
by the time you get it all out

it's like a sickness
that you expel

I don't mind
watching you glow
when you say
that you don't care
it's the silence
that takes the toll

there's something about
the way you move
that makes a fool
out of me
I know you're running
around on me
I'll admit that I can't
resist the chase
but I don't want to
finish this race

it's like a sickness
that you expel

I don't mind
watching you glow
when you say
that you don't care
it's the silence
that takes the toll

yeah, it's the silence
that swallows
me
whole.
Jul 2013 · 838
how I became a sociopath
imadeitallup Jul 2013
she called me in a panic
begged for me to answer
So I did...
And we sat in silence
oh, I remember that
crazy free fall feeling
just waitin' to hit the bottom
and I seem to recall
the worst part of it all
when you spit in my face
told me I'd been replaced
all I wanted..
was to feel something
but you never let me.

now you love me
now you're sorry
now you finally see
now you want me
I'm sorry but I
-I feel nothing

she said "c'mon
take a chance on me"
well, I did...
and it cost me everything
even if I wanted to
I've got nothing left to give you
and I seem to recall
that you "never loved me at all"
what's wrong with you?
that just can't be true
all I wanted...
was to feel something
but you told me to forget it

now you love me
now you're sorry
now you finally see
now you want me
I'm sorry but I
-I feel nothing
Jul 2013 · 445
empty hands
imadeitallup Jul 2013
I look down at my hands
try to feel again
what was once so heavy in them
but it's long gone
and the worst thing ever
watching the one
who loves you pretend
to love someone else
I don't dream anymore
it's too dangerous
to wake up with
the thought of us

if I don't ever listen
why are you still talking?
if you're gonna leave me
why aren't you walking?

look me in the eyes
and tell me that
I won't cry because I
know you're lying
I couldn't take another hit
never thought that
I'd ever raise my fist to you
we've crossed these lines
there's no going back
we're both in dangerous territory
which one will make it out?

if I don't deserve better
why did you fall apart in my arms?
if we're meant to be together
why did I have to become someone else?

all these questions...
we already know the answers.
Jul 2013 · 424
favorite tee shirt
imadeitallup Jul 2013
you are a
crisp white
tee shirt
I want to
hang you
in my closet
and only
take you out
to show
my friends
how good
you look on me
in a manner
of course
in which
I don't seem
to care
maybe I'll
throw you
on the floor
when I meet
some random
girl at a bar
you never know
you never know
until you're
lying there
watching them
so before
you treat me
like an object
remember
how bright
you are
how nice
you are
to me
and any day
you could fade
and I could
give you away.
imadeitallup Jun 2013
we were left here
empty and ready
to fall into decay
used to be so much life
and in the dark,
there were bright lights

the home we built
caught on fire and
burned to the ground
there's just a skeleton
a naked foundation that
used to hold our dreams

we were torn down
condemned to demolition
we tied the knot to
the chain on the wrecking ball
we crumbled
under...

the roads we pioneered
are long overgrown
but we still know
the way by heart
a rhythmic pounding
from my very bones
Jun 2013 · 423
I wanted to feel the night
imadeitallup Jun 2013
if my words escape me
like vapors
my thoughts betray me
like lovers

let the night get the
best of me
let tomorrow get the
rest of me

I want to feel the night
in my hair
I want to feel nothing
but your hands
whoever you are

if my intentions twist
like a road
my actions commit
me to follow

let the memory fade
like the sun
let the night take me
like a stranger

I want to feel the night
in my hair
I want to feel nothing
but your hands
whoever you are
whoever you are
whoever you are
Jun 2013 · 747
youinsideofme
imadeitallup Jun 2013
I know why I woke up angry
can kick you out of my life
but can't get you out of my dreams
still trying to believe that
you would actually do this to me
I just don't understand a move you make

do you see me sometimes
when you close your eyes
it is worth being hurt
or fighting for?

I dance like a woman possessed
trying to shake your memory
but everybody sees
you inside of me

oh the things that go unsaid
that bounce around in
my head like a bullet
the last thing I needed
was another hole to fill
why didn't you just shoot to ****?

do you see me sometimes
when you close your eyes
it is worth being hurt
or fighting for?

I dance like a woman possessed
trying to shake your memory
but everybody sees
you inside of me
Jun 2013 · 739
i didn't think
imadeitallup Jun 2013
I didn't know when
you were giving me a light
that you would lead
me into darkness
I didn't think when
we were making out
I was making the biggest
mistake of my life

should've left me
before I loved you
believe me
I never wanted to

I never knew while
I was falling in love
I was falling into
the deepest hole
how could I know
you wrapped your arms
around me just to
stab me in the back?

should've killed me
before we built our life
believe me
I just wanted that night

can't hate you
for what you didn't do
can't blame you
for what I should've done

should've never
lit that cigarette
that ****** burned
my fortress down.
imadeitallup Apr 2013
I've faught wars in your honor
for causes which I did not believe in
I've always been your right hand
now there's nothing left to defend

now that the world is against me
where are you?
where are you?
now that I'm the last one standing
where are you?
where are you?

I've brought you back the heads
of those who challenged your crown
I have always been your weapon
now there's nothing left to defend

now that the world is against me
where are you?
where are you?
now that I'm the last one standing
where are you?
where are you?
Apr 2013 · 309
sing this song
imadeitallup Apr 2013
I'll sing this song
for you
I'll give you my all
but I don't want to
everybody says
I'm still in love
but thats not it
I'm just so addicted
that I can't quit

strike the bell
call the match
it's all gone to hell
this can't be fixed

I'll bear this cross
you for sinns
I'll fall on my knees
that I don't believe
in any of this
everybody thinks
that I'm a martyr
but I don't have anything
worth dying for

blast the sirens
call the time of death
you can keep trying
to save me but
I've already ascended
imadeitallup Apr 2013
no, I won't
answer the phone
no, I'm not
gonna have this fight
but I...
wanna rip out your heart
show you how black it is
I wanna call you out
and leave you stranded

if you want to make me jealous
you're gonna have to do better
better than her

no, I won't
fall for your charms
no, I'm not
the girl you left behind
but I...
wanna spit in your face
when you say you miss me
I wanna turn my back
when you really need me

if you want to make me jealous
you're gonna have to do better
better than her

baby
you can do
better than her!
imadeitallup Apr 2013
oh, the sudden trauma of it all
out of nowhere we hit a wall
I'll stumble away from the wreck
and wipe the blood from my head

I'll be okay
Just wake me
up please

for it was not love, but *****
that brought us together
now almost 2 years have passed by
you're crippled, and I almost died

honey it was spite, not loyalty
that kept you next to me
and now that it's too late to
avoid this ****** twist of fate

I don't give
a **** but I'll
take one

for it was not love, but *****
that brought us together
now almost 2 years have passed by
you're crippled, and I almost died
Apr 2013 · 499
broken up
imadeitallup Apr 2013
I wonder
will I ever
understand
why you took
what you took
from me?

did it ever
occur to you
that maybe
I just want
an answer
so I can
move on?
I loved you
so much
oh why?
because your
black heart
can't see in the dark
the gold you
struck to create
that spark

so tired of
feeling low that
I just want to
be high
all the time

I wish that
things were different
but they're not
should've told
you all of this
when I had
the chance
instead of
drinkin and wishin
I was dead
but I won't
waste my last
breath

I'm tired of
feeling what
you won't
come now,
who's the
broken one?
Jan 2013 · 1.1k
old habits
imadeitallup Jan 2013
I see we're falling into old habits
you don't want me, you just can have it
swore I'd never let you hurt me again
and here you are digging under my skin
please don't say you want to kiss me
please don't tell me how you miss me

so I'll do another bump
while you speak of love
that you claim doesn't exist
and I'll have another drink
while I try not to think
of all the things I miss

I won't fall again, no
I won't let you in, no
I won't pretend though
that we're just friends
so what do we do
when you can't let me go
and I can't let go of you?

I see the spark that almost burned me alive
and all I can say is that I'm not ready to die
I hate how you **** me away like the tide
no matter how far I come, I'm right by your side
I should be enjoying this role reversal
But I feel like before was just rehearsal

so I'll do another bump
while you speak of love
that you claim doesn't exist
and I'll have another drink
while I try not to think
of all the things I miss

I won't fall again, no
I won't let you in, no
I won't pretend though
that we're just friends
so what do we do
when you can't let me go
and I can't let go of you?

I know that this is the same game
that I'm so ******* tired of playing
it's the same words that betrayed me
maybe you love me as much as you hate me
Dec 2012 · 566
the line
imadeitallup Dec 2012
you're always on my nerves
to think of all the lines you crossed
and the one line you could never walk
just thinkin of how you did me wrong
and dancing away like you're having fun

oh how times flies
when you're blind
you don't think of
the days and years
you're missing
just the one who
stole it all away

you're the reason why I can't go home
you burned it to the ground
should've never let you light me up
I'm haunting the streets the a ghost
well, at least I know that I'm dead

oh how times flies
when you're blind
you don't think of
the days and years
you're missing
just the one who
stole it all away

I wish that I could cut you up
and use you like my favorite drug
you're the worst kind of addiction

oh how times flies
when you're blind
you don't think of
the days and years
you're missing
just the one who
stole it all away
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