Explicit

She said she was okay
And you believed her?
Let me tell you what's wrong with her
She's tired
That's exactly what she is
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She's tired of caring too L I T T L E, and not caring at A L L
She's tired of H O L D I N G it
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She's tired of being
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She's tired of being J U D G E D for EVERYTHING she D  O  E  S
She's tired of all her F L A W S and I
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She's tired of getting her hopes U
She's tired of being treated like *******br>She's tired of trying to be H E R S E L F
She's tired, and you want to know how I know all this?

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Love…
What is it,
Is it pain ?,
Or is it beauty...
L- Lots of love given,
O- Overly obsessed with your significant other,
V- Very much in love with them,
E- Extremely committed to your lover and never give up on them, never abandon them, never stop loving them,
Love is the way you cherish someone,
Love is beauty,
Love should never cause you pain,
Love is a rhythm,
Love beats a tempo,
Love beats slower, slower, till it dumbs down,
Loves dumbs down
It…  fades away,
Like skys full of stars,
When the fireball rises,
All the shining souls disappear into…
The black oblivion, their parents shoved them into this hell
All we see is the shining, but deep down Love is broke,
Like the child with the divorced parents.

waiting for death
like a cat
that will jump on the
bed

I am so very sorry for
my wife

she will see this
stiff
white
body
shake it once, then
maybe
again

"Hank!"

Hank won't
answer.

it's not my death that
worries me, it's my wife
left with this
pile of
nothing.

I want to
let her know
though
that all the nights
sleeping
beside her

even the useless
arguments
were things
ever splendid

and the hard
words
I ever feared to
say
can now be
said:

I love
you.

the best often die by their own hand
just to get away,
and those left behind
can never quite understand
why anybody
would ever want to
get away
from
them

I dont want to apologise, not to anyone.
About anything.
I just want to tell myself that I'm sorry.
And will always be sorry.
For all the pain, the unbearable pain I've forced myself to go through.
For all those sleepless nights, filled with unbelievable thoughts.
For all those voices I let myself listen to, those lies I myself created.
For all those moments of missing out, because of truths that I decided was real.
I want to tell myself that I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that I've been so mean to my body. To my face.
Telling it how much I hated it.
While during this whole time, my own face. My own body. Was the thing moving me forward. Getting me through. Getting me out.
I'm sorry that I have been so hateful against myself for no real reason.
I'm sorry.
I hope that someday I will be able to forgive myself for that.
That is my only apology.

We are together,
But I wish we weren't.
I hate you,
For making me,
Love you so much.

I'm not helping myself with my decision
Even if it is the best
I want her but I don't
I only want to be friends but
She really makes me want to kiss her
With that smile and that gleam
She just makes me want to
Explode in happiness
So I don't want to lose that because
Relationships don't usually work out
I don't want to lose our great conversations
Her stories that I could never write
Drawing her characters and bringing them to life
She's so amazing and
I don't want to lose her
Luckily I'm not in a position to be with her
Though that almost makes it
Worse

Sorry Mommy, I'm not the better daughter
I'm sorry, Daddy, I wasn't what you wanted
I'm sorry I'm not good enough yet
I'm sorry I for everything I never said
I'm sorry I'm a overweight, I'll fix it I swear
I'm sorry I'm cutting, but I need it to keep me sane
I'm sorry I smoke, but it's my replacement for air
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm crying
I'm sorry
There's no point to this
I've already ruined everything
I'm so, so, so sorry
Sorry.
Sorry.
I know it doesn't help.
Sorry.
I'm so sorry.
I can't make up for what I've done.
But I am sorry.
I'm sorry I was born
I know you didn't expect me
I'm sorry I wasn't born a boy
I'm sorry I acted to much like you
I'm sorry I made you hate me
I'm sorry I'm annoying
I'm sorry I'm not perfect
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for everything.
Whatever you don't like about me
I'm sorry it's there
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I cry so much
I'm sorry I'm not pretty
I'm sorry I left
I'm sorry
Sorry.


I'm so sorry
I don't know what else to apologize for
I'm sorry you have to spend money on me
I'm sorry I don't know what to be sorry for
I'm sorry I said I hated you
I'm sorry
I'm so sorry
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I'm not useful yet
I'm sorry I don't make all A's
I'm sorry I don't get math
I'm sorry I don't like science
I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry you don't love me.
I'm sorry I want you to.
I'm sorry
I'm so very sorry
I'm sorry I don't call you Mommy anymore
I'm sorry I don't call you Daddy anymore
I'm sorry
I'm sorry you have to be my parents
I'm sorry I'm not good enough
I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.
I know it's not enough

Sorry.

i hate you,
i hate the way that you beat me when i come home late
i hate the way you yell at me when your wrong
i hate that you are always mad
i hate that you think you are superior to me
but i love you,
i love that you love me
i love that you gave me life
i love that you support me in everything i do
i love that you would give anything for me to be happy
but despite all of this love and hate,
i can't be your favorite daughter
i can't pretend to love you when at times i can't like you
i can't support you anymore
and most of all
i can't continue to live with your suffocating, pestering, raw, unperceptive demenor.
i'm sorry