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I prayed for light, He sent me sun
I prayed for moisture, He sent me dew
I prayed for beauty, He sent me flowers
I prayed for love, He sent me you

i miss you
as you are the sun
and i am the moon
who pass,
but never touch

those feet were walking slowly

head bowed to the ground

nobody understands

living in black and white

how does loneliness feel?

numb

              stiff

those feet are running

suddenly light radiates its colors

I'm stunned

       I can't follow, I can't keep the light

the loneliness, it's like night breeze

leaves and trees, the moon comes and goes

but those feet keep running away from me.

you were unstoppable
you were addicted
not addicted to me
but addicted to lying to me

you lied about your gender,
your story,
your background,
and most importantly
you lied about your feelings

i woke up one day
just to realize
how every single word
you have ever said
was never true

you didn't mean what you said
and i knew it
i felt it
but you kept denying it
you kept saying you were telling the truth

do you even know what the truth is?

i doubt that

i doubt that you are unhappy
i doubt that you are lost
i doubt that you are lonely
i doubt that you are insecure

now i understand
i was just a game
that you kept winning

and now i am the game
you will always lose