Why do I
Let these feelings eat me inside
Why do I
Fall in love to easy
Always put my faith in a girl
Only to be let down
I guess I got let down
Guess I have to write this out
Get these emotions out
Before I go harming myself
Before I go scarring my heart
It's a little too late for I'm sorry
It's a little too late
When all you've done is ignore me

Do you know how it feels to worry
Do you know how it feels to doubt yourself
Because every time all I think about am I doing
The right things
Am I saying the things you want to hear
I'm sitting alone in the dark
Thoughts invade my mind
I've really done it this time

Should have known
I was only gonna fail again
Girls out of my league
I should have seen
Where it was this would lead
Guess that makes me a fool
For trusting you too much
Should have known I would fail again
Yeah I should have seen this coming

Life's ****** up
Should have known better
Than to think I could find love
When I'm destined to be alone
I grasped a small light of hope
Only to be wrong again
Should have never believed
It could have been you with me
Should have never believed
I should have seen
You could do a million times better than me

Do you know how it feels to worry
Do you know how it feels to doubt yourself
Because every time all I think about am I doing
The right things
Am I saying the things you want to hear
I'm sitting alone in the dark
Thoughts invade my mind
I've really done it this time

Should have known
I was only gonna fail again
Girls out of my league
I should have seen
Where it was this would lead
Guess that makes me a fool
For trusting you too much
Should have known I would fail again
Yeah I should have seen this coming

©2017 Written By Benji James

Once in a lifetime
You'll meet that one in a million
And you can't help but drown
In such divine beauty and grace
Lost for words
with every move that she makes
Feels like I was falling deeper
This girl she was a keeper
Never thought I'd ever mistreat her

Oh honey can't stop
Crying over you
Straight from my heart
I'm breaking in two
Still, can't bear that I lost you
And memories of you
Are playing on repeat
All these thoughts
I can hardly sleep
Oh honey
Still crying over you

Everything fell,
went stone cold sour
Go through this situation
In my head for hours upon hours
How did we grow so close
Just to be torn apart
Words I should have left unspoken
We're put out in the open
And that's when we slid
into a constant fight
I'll never forget that night
Because I was so wrong,
And you were so right.

Oh honey can't stop
Crying over you
Straight from my heart
I'm breaking in two
Still, can't bear that I lost you
And memories of you
Are playing on repeat
All these thoughts
I can hardly sleep
Oh honey
Still crying over you

And it's here and now
I realise just how
much I messed up
If I could do it all again
You know I would
Let my insecurities
Get the better of me
Resulting in the hurtful words
I put you through
And I'll never forgive myself
for the hurt
I've caused inside of you
So much heartache
In watching your heartbreak

Oh honey can't stop
Crying over you
Straight from my heart
I'm breaking in two
Still, can't bear that I lost you
And memories of you
Are playing on repeat
All these thoughts
I can hardly sleep
Oh honey
Still crying over you

©2017 Written By Benji James

Let me love you
Let me love you stronger
Let me love you
Let me hold you in my arms

When you smile
The world opens up for me
When you laugh
The whole world takes notice
I just want you to know
That you have my heart
And I love you for always
As long you

Let me love you
Let me love you stronger
Let me love you
Let me hold you in my arms

When you love me
You love me completely
Your love is absolute
So strong is our love
I want you here always
Always to stand by me
I know our love is complete
As long as you

Let me love you
Let me love you stronger
Let me love you
Let me hold me in your arms

When life seems out of place
And I am lost in the storm
You always find me
And I am forever grateful
For the love you give me
Everyday when I need
It the most you are always
Right there waiting
With love so as long as you

Let me love you
Let me love you stronger
Let me love you
Let me hold you in my arms

When you love me
You love me completely
Your love is absolute
So strong is our love
I want you here always
Always to stand by me
I know our love is complete
As long as you

Let me love you
Let me love you stronger
Let me love
Let me hold you in my arms

You wouldn't know,
what it feels like,
Tearing apart your heart,
You haven't seen the darkness
my future hides.
You haven't seen,
passed all the lies,
I have a much darker side.

You look into my eyes,

trying to figure out what pain, 

lays tormenting me inside
.
You're still blind,

to the things, I have done.

They don't see the tears,

behind the laughter
,
the hurt I feel it's like no other,

It can't be fixed, by another.

All the secrets of my past,

just another memory 
in the shattered glass.

They don't see the reflection, 

That I've seen, 
I despise every part of me. 

It's hard to see
, maybe hard to believe
.
Right now I just want to feel numb,

Don't want to taste any more blood.

No more hurt, I've had enough.

Don't give me love. 

Just lay me down to rest in peace,

that is all I need,

I've seen all I need to see,

I've been all I need to be,

I'm ready now take me, please.

Let me lay down to rest at ease.

©2017 Written By Benji James

but one word pounded in my head
echoing in my mind
I have a headache
I feel sick
"No chance... I'm sorry..."
you're not
you don't know
the pain,
heartache..
but one word pounded in my head
echoing in my mind
*"Gone..."