I'm a guest in my own mind
Swallowing spoonfuls of fire
The devil found a room for me to rent
As my fetishes landed me in court

Thank for breathing
As tears drown my face
Cold bones now you are somewhere out in the universe
Did you regret closing your eyes?
I'm drinking to numb my brain
Helping me to accept my own way

Wilting erratic flesh
Digging into the earth
Whiskey dreams on a adderall tongue
Imprisoned, behind the air I hide
Trembling chest, purchased from the waste side

Follow me to the seaside
We can gulp the ocean air
Weave fireflies in my hair, so I can finally shine

My mind holds me at bay  
Crawling off this planet
I can't see in the dark
I will still love you as a ghost

Keep me at home
Swallow all my thoughts away
Watch my mind disappear
Keep my hands busy so I don't slash my face apart

Ordinary life
Sleepwalking born a ghost
Flickering faces may strike, but don't burn down
Razors in my throat
Stars don't shine
Cover me just for the night

God's spokesperson
Disarrayed hair, untouched nerves
A science teacher as well
David, Saul and Noah
Men I learned about
I trusted the words of the parish
Until the words " Gays are evil where spoke"

Plunging to the ground
Floating no device
Speaking without sound's

My journey went astray

You tore out my heart, and ate it like a sandwich
You cut and gut me like a fish
I needed you more than I needed growth
God's womb planted crab apple trees in me
I had begun to blossom
Unsettling my roots, as fathers branches grasps at me
You would suffocate me just to bring me back to life
His lust outweighed me
My corpse will still taste you
Gods bees will make his honey

He wrote plays and tears them up
Smoked to much and talked to fast
I would curl up on his chest as he spoke of old  English literature
I admired his mind and lusted for his knowledge
His skin was defined  every furrow told a tale
Deepset eyes with a whiskey tint

A pinwheel of desperation
Birds with leather wings sink into my skin
My suicide toolbox I wear as a party hat
Who decides what we want?
Who extinguishes the fire that burns inside you?
Afraid of touch, nothing to give
Words are weapons screaming at me
I'm living to die, dying to live
Can't catch a full breath
Just don't feel like me, pain obtained
I often wonder do words even come out?
Wrists bleeding, just a frail wallflower
I don't want to talk about it
It has been talked to death
I'm asleep inside my head
Staring at the stars I weep
Take my soul, take my secrets
I'll thrive on sorrow and heartbeats
I can't have anything sharp
Hide the pills she may overdo it again, once again
In the tub the water over my head, begging to drown
I'm found
Tried to end it all, makes me wonder what did I do wrong?
I did not even get a goodbye kiss
I'm in a mental health war
They say talk more
I disassemble my mind
Crying from hunger, sick of habits I can't break

My portrait so fine
Teeth made of veins and apple cores
Reeking of steel

A  wild ray of light runs blue
Wind kissing her *******
The beads of love
Curves of her back
Away in flight
Flowers beneath
I weep on her shoulder
Backwards into sleep

The freight train puts me to sleep
As hollow hands with closed fists fight
Lights cutting the sky
Sleepwalking through life
Poetry is my birthmark
My heart on my sleeve
Wrapped in flames in the distant city
Gypsy whiskey etching freckles across your face
Shadows grasping at my faith, stealing my breath away
Whispering screams settling me in

I gorge on the river bend
The liquid bones are opened wide  
I wear my skin to tight
Driving with a fork and knife in my hand
I smell hunger

The wars of love
Stripping my skin
Leaving me useless and afraid
I found my tooth on the clean kitchen floor
I miss filling your mouth with mine
With blood on my face we made love
You sepreate my flesh, blindfolding my mind
An incision seeping scars

People call me Crazy
I reply lonesome bones

My soul expires soon

Eye shadow Kisses
Strawberry sundae hair
Wind burnt cheeks
Melting ice cream
Secrets spoke into shells
Flowered dress rising in the wind
Peaceful eyes that felt like summer

Hide me in the sea
I will crawl out of my skin,  so I can finally breathe

Bleeding Blankets
A skeletal spectator
Splintered, ripped, fractured
What is the definition of consent?
What is the definition of countless?

When the others leave
The voices swallow me

Making love is nothing new
A secret lover once said to me
As he quickly walked out the door

Lady melancholy tiptoed delicately through a coast of pearls
Abroad this foreign land,unearthed a valley of intruders
A excursion into the map of my mind
Borderlines swaddles width and magnitude
Interconnection deficiency
Mothers peace fearsome journey
Discovering  hidden truths
Rituals, rites and symbols
Opened by lighting the temperance of truth

I'm waiting desperately
To have a human connection with life

I hate you
Please don't leave me

Swimming eyelids,  fracture my sleep

My ribs,a trap door to my mind
Woven weakness's, cage my hope
Bones of men fight the sunlight
I kissed the moon with cracked teeth
Comets weeping, undone
Snow drops,a psychedelic Violin
Swimming home in a cosmic orb

Filling cups with generations of pain,
Refusing to drink it anymore
Segregation, deprivation, invasion
I'm barely breathing
Scrap me from this earth
As I taste it

The music child tasting the sound
Tucking myself into this moment
As Jupiter lies under my bed
A slender moon brushes my cheek
Pine cone fingers made of blood root sap
Lace fireflies collect their thoughts in the silver maple trees

Hamlet my lightening rose
Summer on my lips
I tunnel and tangle inside you
Drinking from the basin of your youth
Earths saliva scribbles upon my dust
Cosmic beauty with a creatures face

Sweltering groins in the church pew heat
Dolorous gospels outcry
Lines of blackberries spread as the morning grows
Daylilie's hanging on for dear life
Men's brows wiped hastily
Silence that deafens a room
In this temple of my homestead

I'm on the edge
I'm tired
I'll grow wings and go
Blue lips and cold hands don't faze me anymore

Poetic scars kissing my quiet sugar thighs
Ash blood hair with lungs full of gasoline
The streets has wings filled with pockets of disease
Sidewalks are notebooks recording my thoughts
Homesickness leaves bruises on my feet
Retracing lovers tears from the corners of my mouth
Petal tongue made of feathers making lovers sigh
In this muted ghost town  
I'm suffocating with the void of communication
Plucking strings and church bells my nerves doing flip flops
Murals swooning the train station amidst the shallow shores
A drinking waltz climbs my eyelids
As I pour you down my throat

Sea salt hair with windchime charms
Fireworks in my chest the solar system in my  hip pocket flap
Tobacoo coat stained green with stones from my throat
A daughter of the North with toothpick heels
Sunken ships and bruised lips as I curse your name
Scar you with my thoughts
Regurgitate our  indifferences in this Melancholy sea
Stardust loveless and lost
I weaponize your words

An unspoken sorrow is embroidered against my chest
I'm drowning in questions and floating, unsure  of how to swim
Her winged eyelashes catch my dreams
My spirit trembling with voiceless gestures
Dandelion hair and sapphire eyes
Overcome with disease my arms spread open wide
I would live beneath your bones to take the pain away
At birth you grasped at cords to stay alive
A tiny bird blindly stripped of wings and other things
Oxygen deprived in this battlefield of life

Spiny trees dissect the doctrine
Yellowed skulls howling
Graying cheekbones shimmer
Stale jars of smoke gurgling
Pock marked bird skin gasping
Lips of sea grass soiled
Palettes of black and blue astray

Hairspray sweaters
Slit wrists for the center piece
Body parts in the bathtub
Lead in the water pipes
Paper spine of mine
******* my egg -shell skin
Sharp scissors and church grounds
Wringing hands, sunshine fireflies
Spilled milk on summer days

He died you hated him
He beat you ******
Mean *******
Mom gave you his compass
Always come back son
If she only knew you would never return

Street lamps burning waiting for the morning swell
Lovers closing curtains from the moonlight gold
We pressed and folded dandelions today
Bitter lemonade secrets spoke
Pathways of gardens laced through
I hung on a thread, eating kitchen knives for dinner
As sadness wrapped me into a familiar blanket
Wandering around with button eyes
Trying to ******* own soul

Unspoken sorrows tangling the language of blood
Collar bones hollow in the whispers of  my lungs
Vocal cords made of linen afloat

Dust off the death of hunger  
I will be a beautiful corpse

A flea market ring set my heart ablaze
Twisting around my finger like a hurricane
**** preaching to my childhood
Writing grocery lists on my hand
Leaving red kisses on long cigarettes
Playing a mouth harp listening to Simon and Garfunkel
Living by the words and touched the sound of silence myself
A love affair with the sky
I didn't  fathom mourning
It was a journey of my own