A hankering  to be stung
My rib cage is the opening to the chapel doors
A beautiful blue corpse come hug me with your eyes
Willow branch teeth ,dreaming the moon is soft
A rebirth of midnight a sourvenier to keep

Smashing the bluebird to wear his color in my wounds
Feathers like fingerprints washed out to sea
Let his beak peck away my aortic
The rifle rests at my feet

Steeples of flesh in my nightdress
Unleashed wanderlust stirring up my sheets
Exhaling swirls of poetry
As the fire of you dips into my throat

Sparrows drinking from the creek
Heirloom ashes smudged onto the streets
Soul stacking grief

Bloodied paperbacks, stolen vocal chords
Anguish smelling of smoke stains
With barred teeth and chapped lips
Onyx eyes and pallid seamed skin
Sharp cheekbones with a hawk nose
Strong confident hands eerily familiar
You offered me the universe you offered it all
My house of bones is eroding away
The ocean of demons wants to set fire to my heartbeat
You as my muse should collect the galaxies
Rediscover the abandoned worlds that live in my head
Astronaut sunflowers echo through my chest beckon my youth
As grief is my lover
I've muted my lungs

This chemical has you skeletal on a downward spiral
This is not incurable it's repairable

Addiction is not wiser than me
I'm functional I have some control
Quit shoving meetings down my throat
I don't hate myself, or speak to God
Chewing patches, puking blood
Sheets wet with sweat
My ******* enemy eating away my face
Needle is dull, need my hell dust

I'm a fast talker, amazing lover
Poor loser, kiss stealer
Shoplifter, job quitter
Impulsive as hell, can't concentrate for ****

Mood swings and insomnia
Try some Lithium you'll fell better
Tremors in my hands, can't get my **** up
Stomach pains, dizzy as ****

Depakote this should work
Double vision, hair is falling out
Uncoordinated, moody *** *****

Tegretol
Saphris
Abilify
Kapvay, so much more but my mind is sore

I'm on top off the world I have it all
I'm perfect look at me
I'm going to become a famous poet, no a famous actor,
no a famous director

I'm useless,  ugly, fat unspecified
Nobody cares about me anyway

Look at me I 'm beautiful
I feel great today
Let's paint the living room its only 3 am

I want a lazy kind of love
Sleeping until noon you can rummage my mind
I'll unfold the sunlight for you
My fractured eyelids have dreamcatcher eyes
I'll carry the moon in my pocket, the lightening in my core
My poetic mouth will get us  through the nights
Unbound lips gather the earth

Pink champagne on ice
Fifty dollar room
Licking scars
Living Life

I want to brew you into a cup of Tea
With your baby's breaths and embryo nectar
Would you keep me warm inside?
This cold has never gone away
I still count your freckles, hold them in my hands
Every speck of earth I pray
My resilience has become leftover umbilical stew

I have threaded a thousand sorries into my spleen
My limbs are brittle as the galaxies ache
Unmeasurable stars have fallen from the universe
Bow shaped atmosphere rebirths the sun
Cosmic beauty with a sideways smile
Moon travelers chorus with unidentified sounds
You're my secret ingredient ,my windsock
I would reside on the outskirts of the solar system just to gaze at you
Cauterize my brain rocket it into space, I'm a lifelong lover of the stars anyway
Microscopic cells launched into the stratosphere

When I was a little girl, I  skinned my knees
I peel the labels from my beer
Bite my nails, flip my hair, lick my lips
What a ******* tease
Now skinned knees brings in money

The sea is tattooed with sunrise and sunsets
Boundless shadows frost the horizon
Silent church floors and breastfeeding mothers
Hickory hilltops with flecks of honey

Why did you try and save me ?
All I wanted to do is forget
Why did you pull me out of the tub?
Throwing away my pills, when I needed them to feel
Losing my clothes and your trust
I acted like a ***** for drinks ,never had to pay
This is a shame that will never go away
Let me silently submerge into stillness
I will not flail my arms or cause a scene
Nor will I inhale for life

Skin of linen and hair of marmalade
Seaweed eyes where lovers drift away
Lopsided lips trembling with unspoken words
Charcoal eyes patch my worries
Your winged eyelashes catch my dreams

Wooden mouths engraved with shadows of stillborns
Hairpins stir the wildfires that reside in my head
My spine is an abortive memoir that nobody wishes to read
Mists ablaze with unbound petals kissing the sea to sleep

Bracing myself against the bar I ordered another double Jack and coke
I crushed out a cigarette and crave yet another drink
Passing the time, as my plane has been delayed
There are few empty chairs as I survey the bar
Newspaper readers, and men in dress blues

A yellow sheath dress that defines the arch of her neck
Corkscrews curls of toffee brown hair disembarking down her back
Seductive curvaceous figure that floods my mind
This  face of porcelain, endangered my bones
I pull in a lungful of her air, musing the taste
Eyes that swam with storms of gray
  
Filling an empty chair at the bar
I observe this familiar stranger in the mirror
Becoming  aware of my heavy lidded crinkled eyes
I see a depiction of what I think may be me
Weather beaten skin, yet, I do recall those raven eyes
Running my fingers through my steel gray hair, that has stayed generous after all these years
I ordered her a drink and we begin to chat
Her manicured fingers unintentionally reach out and touched mine
She played with her hair and tugged at her ear
I wanted to dive into her core
Glossy lips and a slight gap between her teeth
She was hypnotizing
Her laugh was sensual with a throaty flow
Words were not spoken after that

We get a room, without an exchange of words
Ablaze with spilled arousal
Floating my fingertips across her luminescent chin
Sweeping my tongue on her lips, claiming our mouths as one
Easing and tracing her milky neck
Removing that yellow sheath dress
As her fleshy peaks became firm, I feasted
Working down her voluptuous form
At the mouth of her arousal
I circle and explore, her scent is addictive
Creamy and soft inside the majestic valley
As I lap and savor she gasps for air
Whimpering as I gratify
Raising  her hips every time I engorged on her spot

Clenching my jaw as my velvety shaft is explored
Her lips and tongue trail up and down
Caressing the underside and flicking the tip
As she dips the whole length, into her heated mouth

Frantically we're suddenly grasping onto one another
As you enter my womanhood I rise and sink
Whimpers escape through clenched teeth
You clutch my hair and I feel your whole length

We are unheeled lovers with dust on our hearts
I rise and sink as your fingertips **** my mind
As  you sprout inside of me,I hope you did not spill any love
Instilling your secrets and dreams  

Our flesh stamped together
Landmine of bruises where lovers have hands of stones
Seduction flares in the stomach of old lovers
You spasm and tremble making up for the lonely nights

At the age of eight you blew out your candles
At the age of eighteen you blew out your veins
At the age of twenty eight you blew out your brains

Johnnie was not much of a talker in fact at times not much of a walker

He seldom caused humor, but he has brought death

Dressing in scarlet and Tuscan sun colors

So neat and straightforward or so I thought

Underneath it all was a facade

Removing my clothes and stealing a kiss

I knew the risks, but yet, I allowed myself to taste

I yearn to swallow the amber nectar's spice

Tremulous stars on the raw moon, kissing the grief away
My absent lover ran toward the Northern lights
I begged him to stay, I will paint visions inside your head
Azure coils with bands of seafoam with orchid shine
I can inflame ,swirl and glisten
We can find the skyline and live upon the atoms
As my paint brush bristles faintly float away

Antique brain and, willow trees fenced inside my mind
Wearing my conscience like a cinder block around my neck
Speaking eloquently from a smashed mouth
Wandering through life's hallway, burning out the night

My lovers womb became chiseled with scorn
Beneath photographs and circle kisses
You had nestled another in
Under your sternum interlaced with valleys of cartilage, your ribs became a landscape
I had journeyed across your spine
Baptizing the hollows of your delirium, ending up with warm bruises
On sleepless nights when clouds where corpses, I held on
I had been your eyes when whiskey, would not allow you to see
Decomposing mentally, metastasized into my existence

Accomplished fingers stroking the strings
Vibrating the air, adjusting the stiffness
Ribs of willow securely placed between my knees
Enbowed and concaved
The amplification like ,embroidered words  
The flawless cello harmonious
As I grieve the instrument ,  I weep

A widow's vine with wool lips and arrow teeth
A stranger to whom, I no longer  know
You once loved literature and putting words to print
Now I'm stifling unconsciously, in silence painting our home with strain

Dandelion hair
Firebird eyes
Angel limbs
Barefoot in my wedding cake
Holding on to make-believe

Drowning in small town talk
Coming undone in everyone else's eyes
With paper cuts on my mind

You nose-dived into my mind, through layers of affliction
Removing the knots from my heartstrings
My lips quivering
Freebase powder flowing loosely,across my disguise
I have perfected impersonating whom, I use to be

Pitifully shuffling into a pointless destination
Trembling limbs stained grey from old habits
My purpose of life is decaying, following a map with no lines
Speaking with  liquid eyes, unable to face  the truth
These walls are so bare, our bed is stamped with your smell
Sleep has become minuscule and when it does come the dreams rattle me so
I'm lacking oxygen and I could give a ****
The smell of jasmine will not escape my nose
Everyday is a scar and you're just a ghost  that haunts my spirit
I'm back to my bottom shelf selection
You're cordially invited to my scrutinize my demise

Biting my nails at the age of three
Peach fuzz is what you called it
You sick *******
Why is it I'm the one living inside a grave ?

My sock monkey in my arms
Still have sand in my  bathing suit
I see red but  not sure from where
I try and bury myself ,but I can't hide
The waves today were the ones I wanted to carry me away

The birthing ground is overcome with disease
Plucking poetry from the sea
Whiskey fed shutters pounding against me
My flesh spasms
My arms spread wide out following my track marks
You'll be so proud of me
I will let you love me

I don't need  to love me not tonight
I placed my fear of death into a jar
We can float upon the magic dust
A night we will never forget
I see footsteps in your eyes
Put on your bird tongue
With your beak , peck away at my yellow teeth

We were  street light drinking
Stretching our years not our tears
Putting down roots to make our home
Sticking to church pews stained with sin
As shadows were traced in a golden inkwell
Grasping the map just to hold me down

As the indigo moon chimes against the trees
Mother nature tells her story to me
Freckles etched across her dusky face
Wearing a flowing sundress standing barefoot on the stones
Hair with cornsilk weeds radiating in the breeze
A gap between her teeth and rosebud lips
With sun bleached eyes and a far away stare
Barriers of sea glass form along the kaleidoscope  shores

My weak voice visited me today
It took me by surprise, it had been so long
You pull me to your trousers
Your sprouting and squirming
Firm and aggressive
Bucking your hips ,mouth ******* me
You tighten your grip on my neck
As you smolder my visceral, it will never be admissible