i've forgotten what it means to be well
is it to be happy?
or to face the reality?

to the walls
you cling
scared you'll drown
if you reveal
your sin

so it crawls deeper
until it haunts you
deep
within

bitter
you remain
alone
you face the pain

so you want to be a creator
a somebody
a dream maker
but all i see
within myself, a faker

a life together
built on hope
that we are
forever

our bodies
tainted by time
our love a
treasure

you left this earth
a year
to the
day

a life cut short
a love
here to
stay

memories
i will
forever
hold

of days and nights
laughing together
in the house we grew
old

i live my life
as you told
me
to

but i
lie awaking dreaming
of one more sight of
you

sat on the periphery
but i can hear you clear

eating up the words
you force through my ear

all i want is to fight
against my failing will

raise up my hands
and rid myself of ill