16 years of a bad relationship with my father.
2 years of agony while my mom was in love with a bad man.
2 years of questioning my sexuality and being in love with my best friend (until we drifted apart and never spoke to each other again).
18 years of trust issues.
Too many years of hating myself.
Despite all of this, I'm learning to love me a little more and fell for another.

I’m letting go
By letting God
Do what must be done
Because by grace
And through faith
Our words,
Actions,
And love
Will be for nothing
But the good

it's hard to see
but it's there
the dim glow of a spark
waiting to become
a mighty forest fire

others try to put it out
but i will always
try to be the oxygen
that keeps you burning

I built walls around
my heart
made of cement and steel.
You brought the hammer and chisel and the saw.
You freed me from the prison
I built so long ago.

I don't know
how they expect me
not to love you.
Someone so rare,
so wild
a mystery that'll never die

late nights by the fire
sipping on hot chocolate
under a fort of blankets and pillows
drunk on laughter and
high on love

we danced in the moonlight
          (i apologized too many times for stepping on your toes)
we ran through sprinklers and
wished upon shooting stars
you kissed me like never before
you held me like you were going to lose me
i could feel your heart beat as you drifted to sleep on the floor
i love you more than the sun loves the moon
i'm never in the dark when we're together
your passions burn like the sun
you guide me in troubled times
you carry me when i can't stand
i got lucky when i met you
my heart hasn't been the same since