I used to think the sun only shone
When you were near.

Well, that's a load of crap.

Lately, it only rains
When you are near.

My eyes have raindrops too.

I loved myself so much more
When you were near.

You were supposed to love me.

Love never used to hurt like this because
You were near.

Why can't it be like it used to be?
Why couldn't you just trust me?

What am I
When our lips are miles apart
And the words
you whisper
Are not for me
What am I
When you run your fingers
Through the hair
Of an unknown beauty
One of many
What am I
When you give me wings
To fly away
but cut them off
As you please
What am I
When your eyes are blind
To the pain you cause
When you call me love
What am I
My love
What am I to you

Take it
All of it
Like dogs to a bone
Tear me to pieces
Leave nothing behind
Keep it all to yourself
And fight for the scraps
Of what's left of me

Cut deep
Slice me open
Drain out life
From my open wounds
Try and capture it
Bottled fragments of my being
Ignore the screaming
I'll be silent soon enough

Severe me
From mine
Till every limb's detached
And you can have one each
And maybe then be satisfied
Having finally destroyed
My form for your own pleasure

Not enough
You will find
The taste of me will linger
But what you have wont last
Long enough to sustain the hunger
You'll need more
Soon enough

So leave behind my bones
And take to the skies
In search of another weary soul
Circle wide and be patient
As their knees give in you will witness
Their spirit escape them too

She is like a tree
Strong yet as you wander
The depths of her soul
She is fragile

She was beautiful
But nobody gave her love
Her rosy cheeks and lips were wasted
Her youth was gone and tainted

He came into her life
and swept her like a raging storm
She fell in love
But he cut her

He cut her
Like any man would cut a tree
And she was never the same again

tiny
white
round
i hide them under my tongue
my mommas learned to check
so now i gag them up
tiny
white
round
they said it is s'posed to help
but all they do is pull me down
alter my little reality
tiny
white
round
bitter to the taste
but now i've given in
into their watery embrace
tiny.
white.
round.
no longer.
myself.

regret*
regret is the entity that only wanted my body

my body; my body; my body

once a battlefield
oh the enmity that still lingers in my bloodstream

i had learned to love that battlefield
i planted flowers on my scars and pretended i had never known the definition of pain

when i met regret he had on the most beautiful mask
it was made of crimson skies and caramel clouds
he called himself infatuation
and slowly without knowing; i let him de-root my flowers and pick at the scabs of my healing wounds

for the longest time i called the numbing pain in my mind *my fault
because how could infatuation harm me, he was beautiful

beautiful things are the cause of happiness,
he made me happy,
i think

,,,it was not the crimson skies and caramel clouds that derailed my mind for the last time

it was an unexpected storm,
it never stopped ******* raining,

his name was,
**regret

I wish I could give you the moon and all the stars, every day.
I wish I could dance with you in the rain every morning.
I wish I could give you the universe and everything inside it.
I wish I could give you more than anyone has ever given you.
I wish I could make your dreams more than just dreams.
There is nothing in this world that you don't deserve.