Sara Leal: Poems

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Sara Leal Dec 2015

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What will happen when I'm not enough for you?

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#you #me #enough

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Sara Leal Dec 2015

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... no...
I can't find myself anymore.

**I don't know who I was to being with.

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Sara Leal Oct 2015

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There's a depressive side of me?
No.
That's how I'm.
When I'm not like that,
Is when I'm really pretending.

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#depression #me #pretending

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Sara Leal Nov 2015

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You were not "everything to me" after all.

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#you #everything

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Sara Leal Jan 2018

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When you look me up close you see nothing.
That's what I want people to know.
Nothing about me.
That's how it should be.

Better not knowing, than knowing and judging.
English Version.

#me #people #knowledge

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Sara Leal Sep 2015

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I know what I want*.
And no, I don't want you.

#you #me

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Sara Leal Jan 2018

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I'm tired.
Not tired enough to die,
Just tired enough to quit.
Quit of everything I have,
Because I have a lot of stuff,
That should hold me to life,
But it doesn't.
I know it will hurt if I don't have them anymore,
A lot.
But pain is what keeps telling me "I'm **** alive",
When I don't want to.
Does that change anything?
Do I change anything with my existence?
I know I do,
But I'll keep deceiving myself,
Because they are not the changes I wanted.

Some refletion of how I feel right now.
English Version.

#pain #me #existence #death #depression

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Sara Leal Oct 2015

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I don't understand myself at all.
I don't know what love is anymore.
I lost notion of time.
I can't find myself in your words.
I don't know what to do,
What to think.
I don't know who I love anymore,
Or who I should love.
What it's love after all?
Just an empty word?
Just a lie?
Just a feeling?
Or is it a person?
A person you care about?
A person you want to be with?
A person you can't forget?
A person who makes your heart pound like crazy?
Like your heart is being stolen by that person?
It's that what love is?
Could it be what I feel love?
How can I even answer myself?
What's the best for me?
What's the best for him?
How should I think like?
Who am I?
Who is he?
Does he know how I feel?
Does he feel the same way?
Is this complicated to be in love?
I guess, it is.
But it's still beautiful anyway.

English version

#love #questions #you #me #answers

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Sara Leal Sep 2015

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"You're loved."
Can I ask why?

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Sara Leal Mar 2022

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It's hard to look at myself
It's hard to think about myself
It's hard not to hate myself
And I don't wanna cry
But the tears fall before I can even wipe them away
I wish someone could understand me
Or worship me shall I say?
What the hell do I want?
What do I need to have to feel any different from this?
Love is ****
Happiness is not enough or even limitless
The world is cruel
And I don't know what I'm becoming in all this
I really don't perceive myself as a good person
Am I victimizing myself?
What am I doing?
I don't know where I began
I don't see an end
It's really hard you know?
What am I even doing?
I don't wanna die
But what am I living for?

#loneliness

We are both demons

Sara Leal Sep 2015

We are both demons

This is not one of those stories about a demon who loves an angel.
We are both demons,
Demons can't love.
So what do we do now?

English version

#love #demons

Why it's so hard?

Sara Leal Sep 2015

Why it's so hard?

I don't miss you.

I don't want to see you ever again.

I don't want anything of you in my life.

I forgot your name.

But I still love you and have memories of you in my mind.

Why?

Why* is it so hard to delete everything?

Why?

Because it happened and it's there,

And there's nothing I can do to delete it.

And the fact that I know it makes me frustrated,

I feel like crying.

Because I don't know what went wrong,

I don't know why, the simple why I still love you.

But not how I did before,

Because now it seems that it grows everyday.

And I would like to know,

Know why.

But I already know that this is one of those questions that don't have an answer,

Neither for me, or for him.

English version

#questions #answers #me #you

Wings

Sara Leal Oct 2015

Wings

Wings.
I was supposed to have wings?
If I was then I probably have a problem.
Because I don't have them.
I never did.
Can I still be called an angel?
A fallen angel.
That's the name I received for not having wings.
Wings.
I wanted to have them.
Tell me,
How does it feel to fly?
Without pain?
Without problems?
Without tears?
Without scars?
Without a broken heart?
I want to know,
Because that's all the things my mom felt.
I was born like this because of her.
Without wings.
She broke her wings before I was born.
She suffered so much.
But she just wanted to prevent me of suffering like her.
Well,
I'm sorry mom.
But you failed.
Without wings I'm even worst than you were.

English version

#mom #me #suffering #wings

Words; Thoughts

Sara Leal Nov 2015

Words; Thoughts

Words** can **** you,
But thoughts can actually make you suffer until you wish you were dead.
So would you prefer to die by words,
Or thoughts?

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#words #thoughts

x Big Teddy Bear x

Sara Leal Dec 2015

x Big Teddy Bear x

Big Teddy Bear,
This is for you.

Big Teddy Bear,
I love you.

Big Teddy Bear,
I'm addicted to your voice.

Big Teddy Bear,
I want to hug you until I'm dead.

Big Teddy Bear,
I would wait forever for you.

Big Teddy Bear,
I'm insane.

Big Teddy Bear,
I hope you know everything about me.

Big Teddy Bear,
I look forward to our future.

Big Teddy Bear,
Don't leave me, please.

Big Teddy Bear,
Heal me from your scars.

Big Teddy Bear,
Hold my hand.

Big Teddy Bear,
I promise.

Big Teddy Bear,
I won't let our love end.

Big Teddy Bear,
Don't send me away.

Big Teddy Bear,
I may be crazy.

But **Big Teddy Bear,
I love you so much.

English version

#love #me #big #bear #teddy

You

Sara Leal Oct 2015

You

I want you.
All for me.
Only me.
Only for my benefit.
Only for my enjoyment.
Only because I saw you,
And I liked you.
You were the chosen one,
To suffer by my hands.
Get used to it.

English version

#you #me #suffering

Yours

Sara Leal Sep 2015

Yours

My reason is yours,
My body is yours,
My life is yours,
My smiles are yours,
My hugs are yours,
My kisses are yours.
But my heart is not.

English version

#life #heart #kisses #smiles #reason #hugs

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