How can I judge you when I don't have judgement?

Reality can be scary when reality is your greatest nightmare.

Your teary eyes are so beautiful that I tear up.

Do not tell me what I need to do for you.
I will not do them on my time but on yours.

Lockets are beautiful.
I let you keep mine.
A gesture so kind and benign...
I miss it so much;
Missed the dangling on my chest.
But I gave it to you so at night you'd have rest.

Who are you to tell me how to dress when you look a mess?

Inspiration is when I find a way to create something out of nothing.

You heard my screeches of pain, but you did nothing.

Sometimes good things crumble down for some **** good reasons.

I'm scared of you but I can't stop loving you...

People tell me I'm desperate because I want true love...

When I'm in love...
It's like my heart can finally be free.
And my lungs inflate with new air,
Something I had never experienced before...

Echoing retreat of my own footsteps
Are the only noises that are present,
As I run away far from your doorsteps.
How may I live with your hurtful intent,
When I have been falling apart from you?
You follow me down my means of escape.
I think of the pain, but the love is true.
But I run away, covered with a cape.
A cape to camouflage my angst and fear.
Every second I run away from you,
The thought of you pulls me back in, my dear.
For I am in a zealous lovesick flu.
The memories of us race through my mind.
As I go farther, the settings change place.
My feet seem to be running in rewind.
Rushing back into the your gentle embrace.
Our relationship has been in stasis,
But now it’s clear you are my oasis.

Had a traumatizing experience;
But it's still all about you?
What is my worth anymore?
I'm scared,
Need comfort;
But it's still about you?
No, not anymore.
You never mattered more.
We matter equally.

Old friend, where have you gone?
I pray you come back home soon.
Finding you would be a journey I wouldn’t mind embarking on,
I used to see you each night under the moon.
Seeing you cry never really bothered me.
You were so beautiful when I rubbed the tears off your cheek,
Even if you never wanted to agree.
Gently rubbing your barely there widow’s peak.

I’m so sorry, old friend.
My parents didn’t want you here,
So our friendship had to end;
But it didn’t mean you had to disappear.
I’ve written you letters but you would never respond.
Rejection filled my heart, but I have forgiven.
All I wonder is if I had been conned,
But holding grudges, to me is forbidden.

Old friend, where did you go?
I miss you now, and I will miss you forever.
You scare me now, at your all time low.
I see you sometimes, and the sight of you gives me a shiver.
Nights without your sanity?
I’ll write you another letter, hoping.
That is the definition of insanity.
Looking for you when I will never find you; forever moping.

It’s hard to sleep when sleep won’t come;
Even harder when you know what you have done.
“I did not mean to make you cry,"
I say with a sigh,
“Can we just move on with our day?”
Our day goes by, perfect with nothing wrong,
Then here I come along ruining what we had going on.
It’s hard to see with all the smiles in the way;
How do you really feel about what I had to say?
“I’m fine; I’m just perfectly fine,"
You say with lackluster shine.
I know something is wrong so why try to hide?