Wouldn't it be nice
to go back to the beginning
before the chaos revealed
itself in your eyes
back to when I only saw
gentle waves instead of
storms in your eyes

It used to be
That I would escape the world
Through sleep

Then the nightmares came
And now
I am not even allowed
That 'luxury'

Sometimes
you
get used
too much,
and you
confuse bloodstains
for watermarks.
It’d be easier
to pretend like
nothing’s happening,
rather than admitting
that, deep down,
You were hurting.
And you were always hurting.
One minute
everything’s going fine
and the next
you’re breaking down;
tears flowing from your eyes
uncontrollable,
unbearable,
unyielding.
You
look me straight
in the eye,
and I knew
the words
even as
they caught in your lungs,
“Am I okay?”
I shook my head
and said not a word,
as you leaned in close.
In the silence,
I wondered:
Who was consoling whom?
If I close these eyes,
it would feel like
all of those other nights,
or perhaps,
this was still the same night.
And all the heartache,
and truth,
and yearning,
were seeking moonlight
once again.

-D.C.

Ballad of a Dream

I hear the rain on my window pane
And I see your love that's hiding all your pain
I'm not sure anymore
What it means to be alive
But I know in my heart
It means you by my side
Because you're my shooting star
And you shot right through my heart

I hear your laugh before all the strife
And I see your eyes, they bring me to life
I'm not sure anymore
Whether I'm in love or just a fool
Then again what's the difference
But I've been happier ever since

Why do birds not just fly away
It seemed so easy for you
Why do I even stay
In love, in pieces, over you
I have to wonder
Like nieve young boys do
Are you alone on that greener grass
Are you in love, in pieces, over me too

I smell your perfume in my head
And I see your smile when I'm in bed
I can't get over
What we had
And I know that you
You felt it too
We were young, and we were dumb
And ******, we were in love

Why do birds not just fly away
It seemed so easy for you
Why do I even stay
In love, in pieces, over you
I have to wonder
Like nieve young boys do
Are you alone on that greener grass
Are you in love, in pieces, over me too


I'll wake up in the middle of the night
And I'll fumble around for the light
I dream of her
It happens every night
Maybe one day
I'll figure out why
And who the girl is inside my head
And why she haunts my every dream
Maybe I'm lonely, and she's my raven
Begging me, guiding me, to sleep