She has no interest
in talking to me anymore.
Like a broken toy,
used, and tossed
onto the floor.
Forgotten and thrown
under the bed;
played with then put away
because to her,
I am dead.

And to the world
I am dead.
I breathe,
but with no purpose.
I do exist,
but without meaning.
I am awake,
yet there's no focus.
And I sleep,
but there is no dreaming.
I am dead.

And she has no interest
in talking to me anymore.
And it's all my fault.
I wish this life
would just grind to a halt.
I destroy everything good
that ever happens to me;
And it's only the sweet promise of death
that can set me free.

I am dead.
Or rather,
I wish  I could be.

if you wake every morning
and do nothing to make your life better
it will not get any better
if you wake every morning
and do something to make your life better
then surely no matter
how bad life might seem right now

it will get better

She stood;
chin raised,
facing moonbeams.
The light only
gifted me half
of her face.
It was enough.
I could understand
why the night
held on to most
of her beauty.

Save me, for I don't want to fall in love,
but yet I have with you.

Save me from my self abuse,
the cuts show the truth.

My hearts breaks when I see you,
save me, help me forget you.

It's to late,
I've fallen for you.

No one can save me,
not from myself at least.

For my mind knows I'll hurt,
but my heart doesn't care, except about love.

Save me from this world of doubt,
and keep me locked about your heart.

Tell me you love me,
for I love you dearly...

I love you
but I'm afraid to love.

I'm afraid to fight,
for what I want.

Save me,
and take me away.

Don't let me fall,
don't let me hurt anymore.

It changed me
  The way I see the world
A saw the sacred scrolls
The woven numbers
Layered beneath reality
It Left me a touch of strange
a hint of madness
But greater understanding

Home* is where you feel safe and secure
And feel like you belong.

It doesn't have to be a place nor someone,
It could be books — reading for all I know.

As long as you're happy with it,
I'm glad to see you smile.
As you deserve it,
To be **happy once in a while.