You're an apparition
A ghost
You keep on switching
Behind the curtains
In the dark
I hear you moan
I feel your spark

The shambled emotions on the side walk
Singing songs with our eyes cause we’re dirt poor
And talk is cheap but I guess yours is free
And you never leave when you’re next to me
And I can’t help but push you away from here
Tearing paper skin with crocodile tears
Try and leave a mark, leave a scar
But it’s wearing thin, I bruise hard
The casualties of history
Oh treat me like you don’t know me
And if I die do not mourn me
Yeah if I am dying don’t resuscitate me

I have so much love in my heart
But don't let anyone love me
I take and take and push away
I bruise, I break, I bleed.

I crush the souls of those I meet
To get my daily feed
A dose of poison in my veins
Is all the love I need;
Heart breakers and hell-raisers
Can never love for free.

Why do I fall so easily?
Why does nobody satisfy me?
These questions seem to fill my troubled head
I push away before I'm hurt
I too have felt pain of the worse
Because with love and lust comes fear and greed.

I just wanted you to know me
I just wanted you to love me
I just wanted you to feel me
I just wanted you to hug me
I just wanted you to touch me
I just wanted you to breathe me
I just wanted you to keep me
I just wanted you to believe me

I just wanted you to want me
I just wanted you to haunt me
I just wanted you to pray for me
I just wanted you to hunt me
I just wanted you to **** me
I just wanted you to kiss me
I just wanted you to see me
Now I wish you would just leave me

you have
every right
to be
disappointed
and i have
every intention
to die

I find serenity
In the faith others hold
In a being larger than us
Who we cannot see at all.
I wish I were able to conjure up a life
To lead others to salvation
To give reason to hard times.
I find healing
In others wisdom that others hold
In the words of forgiveness
When I fear I'm growing old.
I find hope
In the growth I see around every soul
In the plants and the earth
It makes me feel whole.