There is sunlight in your eyes
and it is a place
I wish I could
escape to.
It is warm
and I am cold.

There is sunlight in your eyes
and I know
it does not
live in mine.
This cave I hide in
does not have room
for you.

There is sunlight in your eyes,
in the world
I used to be in.
Nothing grows here
anymore,
but weeds
and a grey sad.
My hands are covered with it.

There is sunlight in your eyes.
You are alive.
I don’t know what that feels like.

I am torn
The dark abyss calls me by name,
body worn
and fragile
I am afraid
that I can resist no longer
despite this cage
and your love
I am crying
Happiness- a foreign stranger,
leaves me forlorn
and in danger
It is time
The child is born
She lights the darkness
then fades
so far away.