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 Aug 2014 Bernhard Tischler
Mr X
I know its difficult to stop and let the rush in our lives take a halt for just a moment.

I know its equally difficult to stand out of our destined tracks and sit in one of those beautiful stations clouded and beautified by the fog in our own thoughts.

But believe me, to stop for just that one moment,  
Is  Beautiful.
Over the years,
I've built up my walls.
My mind is a rose garden maze,
and all this haze
will soon disappear.
My mind will finally be clear.
Let me just tell you that my mind
is a beautiful place.
My thoughts deep within,
will change the way you see this world.
You'll finally realize
this world isn't so bad after all.
Sometimes,
you must open up
to see things more clearly.
A sign says stay away
Don't fall, don't stay
You'll drown in her cesspool
Those glinting eyes
Reflect a mirror a world beyond
A world you'll get hooked to
Her loving like wine
When she gets in to your blood stream
She'll taste like divine
She'll spin you like crazy
She'll adore you till your dizzy
You could want nothing better
So euphoric you'd not want it to stop.

But when your eyes open
You'll see the mess
But you will not be able to escape
So inebriated and intoxicated
You'll keep coming for more
Trusting her just once again
Wanting to touch ecstasy  
You once felt, only she could take you there
Now so out of reach

It's a whirlpool in which you'll spin
At the same time float
You'll feel like your drowning
But the end is not near
Worse than quick sand
This cesspool is filled
With the mess of her abuse
Her past so overwhelming
Yet you'll find her so giving!

The owner of the mess
Is clueless herself
She yearns to get out
But she too is hooked
Her emptiness is so endearing
You'll want to rescue
The pain is part of her
Or she is part of the pain
Is yet unknown.
Just something!
Today you were born.
Thank you for being here.
For being alive.
Making it through another year.
It does get better.
I promise.

I can’t say I Love You.
Because I don't.
But there is someone who does.
Perhaps more than one.
It’s okay if it’s just mom.
Or dad or brother or sister.

If you cut please don’t do it again.
I will tell you what I told my sister.
Put the blade to your wrist.
Hold it there.
Don’t move it.
Keep it there ‘til you aren’t upset anymore.

If you think about ending it all tonight.
Or possibly tomorrow.
Don’t.
All the events that led to this “solution”.
Write it all down.
And burn it.

If you have a broken heart.
Don’t pick up the ice cream.
Or any weapons.
It isn’t worth gaining weight.
Or the physical scars.
Curl into fetal position and cry a lot.

Don’t cry for too long.
Get up and look at yourself.
Say “It will get better.
I won’t cry for the same reason”.
Repeat until you believe.
Promise me.

If you lost someone dear.
Don’t hold it all in.
It will become too much.
Like waiting too long to ***.
The mess is horrible.
The smell: pungent and nasty.

Seriously though.
Mourn but don’t get stuck in the moment.
There isn’t a time frame for healing.
But don’t let grief to be the only emotion left.
Stand and move forward with them in your heart.
The ones still here need you.

If you are happy.
Truly happy.
Not with the material things.
But with your state of mind.
With your values and virtues.
I applaud you.

Don’t let them slip free.
You have strength so put it to good use.
Lift the others who deserve it.
Don’t waste your time with idiots.
But I can’t force you to do anything.
Do what you will.
Writing isn't my forte.
There is a forest old as hillsides
tall, majestic, dappled shades
fall on ground beneath the silent
gnarled defenders of the glade.

There they stand in ancient splendour
many souls have passed their way
often used as welcome shelter
from the heat of summers day.

Sweet the air they breathe in chorus
our life's breath their lungs provide,
soaking up our daily poison
so that we may live and thrive.

You seas of men intent to clear them
citing progress, peddling greed
tearing roots from precious mooring
laying waste to nature's seed.

**** the beauty of a landscape
displace creatures for your need
rupture fragile ecosystems
scar the earth and watch it bleed.

To you I ask a simple question,
as I see the land bereaved.
What need has man of all this progress
when he can no longer breathe?
i'm needy, i'm restless
don't know where my head is
got bruises and whiplash
every move's got a backlash
i can't tell you, i'm thinking
i'm constantly sinking
on the edge, see your face
but things just aren't the same
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