All I meet are snakes trying to climb the ladder.

Burning softly
Trying to hold on.
You always said I was the one.
Yet 9 years in and everything we built has come undone.

Just takes a slip and text knock it off the wall.

Burning softly
Trying not to fall
Someday it’s too much for my chest
And I just want to let go of it all.

One day I might take what’s on my back, my pocket and grab your tiny little hands.
Escape the impending gloom.
But maybe we are not meant to be doomed?

I’d like to see how the plot thickens
Maybe there’s a happy ending I can’t help but wonder?
So I hold myself back, climb onto the bed and
Spend another night with you.
See how it all plays out with you.

They confuse me.
Why bother putting up false pretences?

Making me think you care when you actually don’t?
You can leave me alone, thank you very much.
I rather live by myself than live in your lies.


The fox that wears a veil.
I must say you did have me fooled.

It’s never enough
The nectar that is you
And like a moth to a flame I flutter to you.

Oh, you sweet thing
How I adore you.
No matter how many sips
I still long for you.

It’s never enough
Even when I have made you mine
You need to show me how much you love me each and every time.

Hold me at night.
Hold me tight.

Will it be the oceans that washes us apart?

Oh shall you always carry my heart?

I want to touch you.
I want to be under your skin.
I want you to love me.
I want you to wrap yourself around me.

Cover me with your warmth.
Until the coldness in my heart is gone.
Until I no longer feel lonely.

Because it is a sad thing to be Alone.
And Your flesh gives me strength.
Reinforces the belief that it is real,

Your love for me that is.

I have swam, sunk and risen afloat
In the ocean of life, where the days are dark
And the storm is sudden.

Easy does it, pour the water out the boat.
And harden your heart.

Because,
They can cut your wings.
But, you shall still fly.

Lilly,
my boy you hurt me.
but it must be
because I watered you with poison.

Through the hells, I burn.
But, through ashes I rise.
& through the flames I spread up
towards the skies.

And l want to drink all that his eyes has to offer,
a passage into his inner soul,
which is equally as beautiful.

It spreads softly, ever so gently, slowly.
It creeps, it slips, the pain in my heart.

Everyday I wake up and I die.
Everyday I pretend I don’t know what’s going on.
Everyday I push out the bad memories
Everyday, until I cry myself to sleep.

My soulmate.
Did you not say you were mine?
Was not your soul bound to mine with a chain and a red string?
If your heart has gone to another then go to her fully.
Don’t keep me chained to your side because you know I can’t leave you.
Because if this continues, I WILL leave you.

If I leave.
Just know that I loved and will always love you.
If I leave
Just know that it was the hardest thing I had to do in my entire life.
If I leave
Just know that I am dead.
If I leave
Just know that I am killing the sweetest memories of my entire life with it.
If I leave
Just know that I didn’t want to but had to.
If I leave
Just know that I hope you come and get me.
If I leave
Just know that I wish you all the best in life.
If I leave
Just know that I give you permission to go to her.
If I leave
Just know that you will never see or hear from me again.
Ever.
If I leave
Just know that I am dead to you as you are dead to me.
If I leave
Just know that I ******* loved you and couldn’t save you.
I couldn’t treasure you enough.

Once we were one.
Then two years ahead we were sometimes two
Four years in and I broke you into two
And I swear,my love, I never meant to.
I barely knew I was breaking you.
I let my insecurities poison you.
For the delight of always being right.
I got mad at you.
And at the present you no longer function like you used to.
Oh my love! my lovely love! oh my love!
I promise from onwards I’ll only treasure you.
I will shower you with raindrops of love!
And hope one day in your garden a rose grows!
So please look up at me again with those eyes.
Those eyes with the dazzling lights!
Those eyes that blind me with eternal love!

I seeked yonder for the grass I thought was much greener.
What was unbeknown to me, was I would fall into tragedy.
For the grass was not green there, it was pitch black and bare.
Through the depths of hell, I now dwell.
Can someone save me from this deep, dark well?

Your dreams are not unworthy
So do not give up on them.
They simply need a grain of faith
And you simply need to water them, faithfully
Sprinkle them with your efforts and watch them
One day grow fully, and they will, undoubtably.
If only you fight for it resolutely.

I left my dreams in the doorway
and they turned from ashes to dust.

Sorry I couldn't blanket you,
brother.
Sorry a million, billion times over.
My heart dies for you,
brother.
A million, billion times over.

Sorry I couldn't help you,
brother.
I can only lay here, drenched with salty rivers down my cheeks.
God, I am useless, help him please.
I'm sorry! I am sorry! I'm sorry!
I couldn't help you, my brother!

You are my flesh! my blood!
I will give you all!
But I have nothing at all!
I'm sorry I couldn't blanket you, my brother!

I'll do better.
Just hold on, my brother.
I will come to save you.

Shrink me and
put me in your pocket.
Fix me a roof in your heart.
Let my ambitions dry out
to dust outside the door.
I need no such thing, I need nothing.
Long as you hold me tight,
For every single night.
And never let me go.
That will be my nourishment.
My monthly fee.

Love you best when you are smiling.
Eyes bursting with joy.
Face radiant with pure bliss.
I only wish you would be this happy
Till now and forever.

Sometimes I think I can't stand it.
That shine sparking in your eyes
Its just to sweet for my heart to take.
I don't want to think of a day when that
Fades away.
Let it stay.
Let it stay.
Let it stay.

should I wear my heart on my sleeves,
my thoughts on my lips?

That he whispers,
So soft
Almost bitter
sweet.
Never ever felt like this.
With him
Happy, the only adjective.

Mum is the word.
Patience is the key.

Laying in a bed of roses,
He and me,
Laying in a bed of roses,
Me and he.
The flowers are our pillows,
Truly.
The clouds our
Serenity,
Let no woes shatter,
We.
Let no Devil tempt,
Me.
Lest separate
We be.

A pill of summer is he,
He who warms my heart.
A pavilion of sanctuary is he,
He whom I nest beneath.
An eternal bliss with he,
He who embraces me,
Until he cracks my limbs with love.