****** to the max, can't
bear to look your way
******* face, while in
My head our *** replay
Straight to voicemail, still my body answers to your presence
And when you leave, anticipation & jealousy all I'm left with
How is it I share my bed
Yet want you all to myself
How can you give me life and
Be bad for my health
The counterpart to my soul
Together now until the end
Just know, play me for a joker
I'm callin game over before then ~atiyaebony

You can't put her in a box,
the walls'll collapse each attempt
beneath her choice of locs to rock
Visions voices no relent
Of overcoming lifes struggles
Those with surviving
and those within
Ridin along while it plays out
She don't care to fit in          
She gon do it how she want
**** who & whatever she please
Shittin on every I'll wish
And she does it with ease

How do I stop the ****** voices from talkin.
This emotional roller coaster is a muthafucker.
Bout ready to get off. when's the next stop?
Feeling stuck in a pit bottom
How do I make it to the top?
Who can I talk to without passing the virus
That's eating me internally
Taking away from my being
Being able to smile, being able to provide, to support & encourage
My vision of the positive constantly distorted
It's a plague & it's contagious
You'd take cover if you knew better
But ignorance is the greatest.
How would you know when I've painted on a grin
Not until I open my mouth and escapes the Gin
Off my breath into your face
Then you'll understand a lil better
My mental state

U can see that something's on my mind
But I guess it's a convo you don't care for
To many lies to be uncovered
To many feelings unexplored
I get it. I have to move on
Knowing  that I can only trust my own eyes
Upon my ears where the tales reside
They don't give fuel to my heart
No vacancy on my mind.
So no need to be bothered
Or let it trip me up.
I have to work on the bettering of me.
That greater responsibility enough.

"Still feel the pressure of his touch
Legs clutched
Hearts racin
At the thought of
His face in
Between my thighs, no lie
A kind of fire I can't begin to describe
And so I must wait
I must wait for the both
Him and our wife
Out on a date" ~atiyaebony

Senses heightened
beyond space traveled
Eureka
You've found it
Nerve endings gathered
Awaiting his next move
Dont be alarmed by my counter
My response
To a feeling of a thousand *******
Countless knocks
Opening every door
Each window to my soul
Ecstacy spilling over
Releasing all demons
Letting go of all fear
No choice but to face it
And take in this beauty
Of these foreign places
I humbly surrender
My heart I'll sacrifice. My offer
& in return, all that I ask
Is that u keep bringing me back
On this trip through bliss
Tangled legs and hair  
I love us best like this

Attentive drums beat      
Sweet lullabies heard        
Deep feelings stirred
I listen

Grateful of your words
Tho drunkenly slurred    
I swallow the attention
And listen                                            
                              
Lil déjà vu true
Still a belief in you                
Trading a piece of me
I listen

Something's different tho
Chances u ask for no more
Giving me shoes to run
I listen

I feel so lost at times
A constant loss of words
when trying to explain the hurt
inflicted by the cruel in this world.

Land of the free, home of the brave
With watchful eyes on your pockets  
Your mind they plot to enslave
But that's all I have,
that you can't take,
My knowledge of who I am  
what I want to make of my name.
Lock me up behind bars.
Rob me of material possessions. Bestowing a feeling of helplessness, their only form of weapon.

So many thoughts firing shots to the dome.
None random. I've had these feelings all along.
Dealing with them all alone.
To you, another sad love song.
To me, they are the reasons why I am.
The one you claim to know but barely understand.
So halt in the judgement,
your kind so easily seems to pass
I'm 10 steps ahead of the petty
Traps laid for snakes in the grass.
I'm on that ***.
Whippin it around the curves
Unbothered by life swerves
Thinking you know what's best for me, you got the nerve.

Over this temple he reigns as King
I drop to my knees and kiss his crown
******* obediently with every call
of my name
Worthy of worship so profound

Craving space.
Not the distance but the place
Where galaxies exist
And stars collide
Higher than the sky
From a **** of my pipe
I Fly

I say bless to the righteous minds
I pray you choke on your judgments,
never  leaving your lips
Yes knowledge, a turn on for sure
But stronger connections are formed
When based on where the heart is

I say Ashe to my enlightened people
And may Echu be with and within you
But cast stones at the glass of my home
& may the force be reversed against you

So say peace when we cross paths
Regardless of preference or class,
the energies you disperse will be returned
Love humans for being human
but all you're entitled to is the chance at life
Respect must still be earned

My mind wonders too often to a place beyond here ~atiyaebony

Trading wants for needs
Compelled to complain of have-nots
Instead I thank the heavens
for what I do have
My sight to look out
among clouds & trees
My hearing of my babies
laughs and screams
My voice to tell them
how much they are loved
The use of my arms
Overwhelming them with hugs

These simple things
So often overlooked

A second to reflect and a deep
breath is all it took

Internal struggles to contain the ugly. The ugly inside, where revenge and jealousy reside. A longing beyond intense, to be liked and wanted. Do u know the feeling of being constantly haunted? By the desire to be normal? Killed by the strength of your pride. Realizing, along with hopes for the future,
your faith in love has died.

He said he like my profile pic
Asked could we talk for a bit
But I know
That convo
will only be short lived
Flood of compliments leading to
"C'mon girl. Just the tip"
Passport stamps show I been on this trip
A reg in Deja Vu
The trouble the dance
of my hips & lips gets me into
My smart wits. I know I get it
Immature *******, they dig it.
But that noise
My conscious telling me to **** it
Sorry brutha but
you ain't sayin much that I like
I am flattered. Peace to you
Goodnight

In comparison to his love
I'm feeling so unworthy
How can someone love u more than you do urself
Lord please help me
The heat of his touch got me feeling
Like a newborn, no colic
How does he find those spots
Help me solve it
Standing alone. His kiss is unmatched
To these sensations I'm a ******
Everyday a lesson on lovin him
The way that he deserves it