One last time
I had to look back
I had to have
My very last glance

She was my mother
And I loved her
Earnestly
Faithfully

I know
She fed me
I know she cared
I know sometimes
She wished I wasn't even there

We could hold the grudge
For as long as you seek
But Momma,
Aren't you supposed to love me?

I desire your blessings,
I yearn for your fondness,
Momma how can you not see?
Your daughter is not what you believe,

I have become a waste
Somebody's worst day
But you don't even bother
If I leave or if I stay

They say,
"Hold on little child,
Someday you'll finally find,
Your true love,
And you won't have anything to hide."

They say,
"This pain will go away,
You shall have a reason to stay,
In this world,
You'll one day find your place."

They say,
"If you don't look around,
And if you can't hear the sound,
You'ld stumble,
You'll fall right back down."

Oh they're so cold,
And oh they have their show sold,
But hey wait,
Isn't it too late for me to be told?"

I don't know anymore
If what say
Is what I mean

I don't know how
I try every time
But I fall right back

I don't know why
I have to dream
Everything I can't have

I don't know if
I have lost something I had
Or have I gained

Another wish of mine
Just drifts away
I have become a destruction