you were that laying back
sipping coffee,
sunday morning kind of love.

dwelling on things that i shouldn’t be
looking back at memories of what could have been
those smiles that i’ve seen
and when you used to call me queen
now my feelings are just statics on a screen

watered up eyes of
tears and feelings that only fell- for you
don’t you see how important you were to me?
if only you knew

i miss your summer hues
but now you give me snoozes and mutes

i really shouldn’t be thinking about you again
but i can’t stop myself from doing so
whenever i see you walking pass the corridor
i would shy away and ignore
but i would always see you at the corner of my eye
without saying a hi or bye
we crossed paths
but at least we are under the same sky

this feeling of sadness will always stay in me
the ache in my heart will never fade
and knowing of all that
i still carry hope
maybe, one day?
something will bring us back together again?
but for now, you’re just a lasting portrait in my heart.

i just want to be friends,,
jUst fRiEndS
IS THAT SO HARD TO ASK FOR
p l eE AassE e e
for once
listen to me
i beg you
just be m-Mm m Y yy
f r i e n d
i r eAl Ly misS yOu
please
don’t you see it
i really treasure you
please.. please—
come back,,

eating candies again
to keep myself happy
i popped one in
and another again
so oo oO oo   sw w eee ee ttt
it drives the bitterness away
give
me
more
more Ee e—
i finished the whole bottle
my body felt like it could float up to the sky
i felt so  h A p P y Y yyyY
i could die

i want to rewrite the stars
to you and me
forever and only

u could see the brokenness in me.
u could see the darkness behind this mask.
u could see that i tried, yet i fail then lying on the ground, given up.
u could see i was overwhelmed.
u could see i was trying to fight against the war in my head.

the pain,
the suffering,
i am hurt.
u could see that.
u wanted me to trust u,
u wanted me to open up to u,
u said u could help.

when i gave u the keys to this locked door,
u ran up to me,
u held me up when i fell.
u shooed away what was there crowding and surrounding me.
u held up the sword and told me to stand behind u, u wanted to help me fight.
but we fought together,
and it was almost over.

now i’m picking up shattered glass.
one pricked your hand, u bled,
but u continued.

i hoped u didn’t see the glass bead tears under those light.
the light that u brought into this darkness.
i’m really thankful that u helped me,
if only it wasn’t over so soon.
could u stay with me?
i want u to, please?
i... i—,, 92&/@/&/&
i— love you.