teardrops rolling down my face saying its the last time that i would cry but no every time it gets me though the least i’d cry it hits me the tears still drip by it hurts me i think i would give up cause no one was there to stay by my side
bring me back to those times when people were truthful when true love existed when people don’t just come and go the mask we are wearing now getting thicker everyday hiding the genuine within us just so to fit in we change ourselves to a complete different person please turn back look at what u have done to yourself remove that mask of yours
saw u walking with that other girl smiling so happily i think its jealousy so don’t mind me u talk to her every single day yet u throw excuses at me maybe it’s not just jealousy its just u not making ur priorities
lets get drunk and drown all our worries i want to forget everything i don’t want to be sober, i don’t want to see the reality i’d rather live in a state of mind that i want to be u were my drugs that made me happy u got me addicted to u and it’s hard to quit but i should just let go because it’s all over.
i am just the worst person you could have met one moment im kind to you another i talk behind your back lie to you be mean to you im fake and i know that yet u don’t your kind innocent pure soul YOU think that i am..well good at least and i don’t want to make you feel upset but i did eventually you should start realising that i am bad i am no good and you should not talk to me even if i treated you like the worst you still continued talking to me i am the worst please you don’t deserve to be treated like that by me.
sorry if i caused u unhappiness u always seemed unhappy with me unhappy of what i do u don’t seem to show it but i know it and why why are u so unhappy it’s okay u can leave any time u want i already told u but u still stay and i don’t know why its okay for people to leave in my life because it seems so common to me that it is nothing already just leave please i don’t want to see u so unhappy
there is no us anymore i wish i could go back to the times that us existed but without u us won’t exist and without me us will be broken trust heart all smashed to million pieces broken picking up those pieces stitching them back to the right places hoping that they won’t leave a scar hoping that it would look the same hoping that u would come back
unanswered questions i’m sorry i really want to tell u everything but i just can’t bring myself to i want to tell u my misery my pain all my sadness but i can't trust me i really want to and i’m always sad knowing that u don’t get those answers u want but i’m scared scared that i might break down in front of u scared that u will change the way u look at me more in a pitiful state i don’t want that i like how it is now
As i first saw the beauty, i walked in. The garden flowers so fresh everything seems nice but the horror lays within, i sighed.
Oh the peacefulness as i strolled slow paced, not needing to look back but once i do i’m never coming back.
What happened, why is time passing away so fast, like we are running through a never ending garden filled with thorns.
Scraped my knee as i fell and i screamed for this to stop. Help me, please save me from this maze i can’t seem to figure out this place. Guide me out or give me a map, i want to come out from this mess.
The rain pours down, i laid on the ground. No one there for me in this lonely town i cried... But no one seems to hear me, i cried... Someone please help me.
u say to share my burden with u but why don’t u do that too u are troubled, living in fear why don’t u tell me i see it in your eye every time u talk to me it says help me please i want to help u too don’t always say that nothing happened don’t contradict yourself if i were to share my burden with u, u are to share yours with me because we are together as one and not alone u shouldn’t just care about others start thinking for yourself and please take care of yourself don’t hurt yourself u know that i love u right? u don’t want me to get sad right? so tell me everything i will be here for u
only the first few pages scribbled with thoughts it was five years ago yet u only wrote that much but through those i already saw what went on im sorry i didn’t see that earlier im sorry for not noticing i thought u didn’t know me yet i was wrong i didn’t know u u were suffering so much yet keeping quiet the whole time why didn’t u tell me anything not even one thing u told me u should have let me know earlier u should have told me something now its too late i can’t do anything i teared up after seeing what u wrote im sorry for not noticing what was going on
you warm up my heart like sunshine in the cold you look at me and oh; I want to love you so
there goes my heartbreak running after me you pulled me in and said I would be free
when I cry all day and night until dawn breaks and night falls until the stars light up the dark sky you will be there you will be there for me
pulling me into your warm embrace warming up my ice cold fingertips and kissing your soft lips seemed like the sweetest thing everything seem to stop at that moment as if the whole universe froze and gave us time for more— for more— time for me to pick up the courage to say to you I love you
the cold wind was blowing against me it was cold my body was ice his fingertips running across it as if he was melting the coldness of my body and my body became warmer he wrapped me in a blanket and in his embrace he didn’t want me to get sick i could take care of myself i... can if one day he wasn’t around... i would... still survive i could. but i didn’t want him to even go don’t let go of me stay here and love me.
this is the her version there’s a him version already posted weee
her body, it was cold to the touch. my warm fingertips ran across it tracing every inch of her. she was cold. i pulled the blanket and wrapped it around her. pulling her into my warm embrace. i don’t want u to get sick my dear. please take care of yourself. i wonder how u would be like if i wasn’t around wasn’t here for u to take care of u u were like a little child that i had to care for a child of my own but i love u ur silky hair that falls on ur shoulder that smile of urs even though it hides the fear i will still love u even if u don’t love urself i will love every inch of u
this is the erm him version there’s a her version too
hot red cheeks hands touching them as it blushes even brighter and redder getting closer and closer until our eyes met your fingers traced my lips as you move closer and closed your eyes your hands pulling me in to embrace me tightly I closed my eyes gently and our soft and delicate flesh touched I could feel you smiling as I open my eyes a tiny little to peep whats outside I saw you smiling brightly with closed eyes pinning me to the wall I felt your heartbeat thumping through your chest as mine did that too hugging so closely together as if we are never letting go of each other
if only i was my old self i didn’t need to worry much just had homeworks and tests thats all the new me the changed me the messed up me that now knows everything loneliness fear trauma and everything else that changed the light into darkness changed the happy me the pure innocent me the old me.. that was carefree
i see that u are tired u seem troubled u had ur own things to worry about yet i add on more u could carry the weight that is what u always say but one day u will break down too it’s too heavy and u can’t carry it by yourself u will finally see that i am here here for u so pass me ur worries give them to me i will share ur burden so don’t be afraid to think u will drag me down i will help u suffering alone is painful u shouldn’t so i will be here for u
not everything is just smiles and laughters not everyone is always happy stop acting so happy i know some part of u is sad is hurt why won’t u open it up to me i will comfort u i will care for u u are not alone i know that u always laugh and all but are u really happy or were those fake laughters all those tears that are inside of u are they drowning u tell me something please i really care for u
i never felt so useless in my life u suffered all by yourself i thought i could help u but when u said i couldn’t carry your problems and even said yourself would burden me u didn’t have anyone physically u said u cast your problems to God but u need someone don’t u however u often think u are a burden to people then how about myself i told u my problems yet u quietly helped me n suffered yourself without telling me all these time i thought that i could help u but when u said i couldn’t i... i couldn’t take it.. u could take my problems so why can’t i do it for u
Everyone have their own problems but they seem so happy...
is happiness fake?
feels torturing to smile feels like a burden to live to cut a smile on my face something’s wrong with me with this fainted heart it’s... so... confusing what is wrong with me? my frail heart can’t carry this weight just... wait... for me i... will be there soon.
the carnival rides sitting on the sides swinging from left to right going the highest ups and the lowest downs turning and twisting so swiftly as the chilly wind blows ever so slightly knees wobbled stars seem to be around me the whole world seems like its spinning going round and round and till i fall down collapsing to the ground everything seems so dark can’t seem to see anything in the dark someone please wake me up from the dreams as i continue sleeping
life is full of ups and downs like a roller coaster! accept it and don’t run away from it.
eating chocolates trying to be happy telling myself that there are many fishes in the sea u are not the only one i need there are many others that can be the one that helped me like u did the one that cared for me when no one else did the one that loved me like u did
don’t bury your emotions deep down to a place u can no longer find it. don’t just ignore them don’t distract yourself away from them.
u know i loved u and it hurts me seeing u like that. please take care of yourself, im already no longer with u. no longer being able to share the burden with u.
when u told me u had a mental breakdown, i... i was sad. even though i’ve already let go of u, i will still care for u. so don’t make me worry please because now im no longer with u. i don’t know what’s happening to u, and yes i know i’ve loved u. but i will always be with u
wishing the one i was hugging was you wishing the one i rested my head against on was you the one that held my hand the one that fingers ran across my hair the one that held up my head and kissed... it was you sorry it wasn’t* it was all my imagination but i wished it was sadly wishes don’t come true but i loved u
waiting aimlessly for a text a text from you... i guess you are tired of me ignoring me not talking to me looks like you have given up on me always having to put up with me are you unhappy? please tell me don’t just leave me giving me high hopes then bringing me down you know that i love you right? or maybe you are doubting that but please don’t leave me i need you i want you and i... love you
as the light keys of the piano drift smoothly and swiftly across my fingers i played as the melody sings the piano keys seemed heavier by the second as i played softer and softer the voice became louder and louder the melody disrupted
living in this lie even when i know the truth i don’t want to wake up to... this reality keep me in this dream no... nightmare i don’t care even if it was to live in this nightmare i am already living in i don’t want to wake up to more...
erm i don’t know what to write after that so to be continued?
walking down the dark corridors turning behind every few seconds scared of what was going to be behind fear that i go through while waiting sitting alone in the classroom dull dimly lit seemed so eerie the four walls of the classroom that seemed to cave in u have no idea blasting music in my ears hoping i won’t hear anything any whispers closing my eyes hoping i won’t see anything any shadows hoping that u would come quickly and keep me company laying my head on the table eyes closes earpiece on but every single small noise i hear i awake feeling scared or hoping it was u at least...
a treasure chest filled with gold. is that all we need? we go through so much just to get that money? instead of wasting time finding that treasure, why not find a hobby or spend time with your loved ones, feel love and happiness. money will never satisfy us.
a lasting portrait that sways in your head like the pendulum in a clock swinging every second it was tormenting you and— i lingered still. even though i’ve long left it seems like my heart was still there my mind trying to cut off strings of attachments my heart clung onto both of us saw each other at the corner of our eyes again. yet we look down and walk away not even giving a smile but a “bye” you didn’t know your feelings and up till now u still don’t but i did. —from the very start i knew. but yet knowing you, like i knew myself i still expected a nicely wrapped gift when u had let me down.
from another perspective/ replying to @childofgodyay (carelessly)