A boys Greatest Wish

I want to die,
and leave this bad world behind.
however i am no man to take the jump.
if i leave for a better place,
what would make me different.
What would make me stand out from
everybody else.

you see i crave for dead
a wish that could never be.
i am soon to be a father
a child that will need me.

The word "need" is what feeds me
the willpower to keep going.
to put on that fake smile to make
everybody think that i am the one,
who can pull throught this war.

A war that will keep counting its
deaths. a war that we cannot stop.
i want to die, but if i die i would be nomore
than a unmarked grave.

A Forgotten Sole

Ryan Devery
30/11/2017

When words fail you
silence smothers you
fears surround you
you borrow inside yourself

Just Remember
I am
Here for you.

When times break you
Routine boards you
Sorrow takes you
You blamed yourself

Just Remember
I am,
Here for you.

When the days seem
Longer,
And your smile seem everlasting
Eyes as wide as could ever be.

Just remember
I am,
Here with you.

She was a friend of a friend,

She was shy and had beautiful black hair, but the real beauty came out as I got to know her.
Her laugh was rare but well worth the wait,
Her eyes just simply empowered me,
She caught me looking, I gave a smile

Time went by and my mind just blew like a rocket going to space.
She's always on my mind but I'm scared.
I don't  get a reading from her, does she feel the same..?

I mustn't dare find out, as the question alone is enough to brake down our home,

I remember being told right from wrong when I was younger, but how can I understand the right from wrong when this generation is full of discrimination.

The discrimination against everything and anything a teenager does, we are told to follow in the footsteps of the ones. But how do we follow in the footsteps of each other if we are made up to follow in the footsteps of none other.

How are we to live in a generation that's full of discrimination against the blacks and the whites, the gays and the straights when we are all different to one and another but equal to each other.

Today I watch a boat leave a dead dog by the side of the river.. little did I know as I would arrive home to a text from the most beautiful woman my eyes could ever see..
A beauty that never had appearance in mind..  a beauty oh so real it made my heart skip multiple beats..
As my mind read the first couple words in her sweet but beautiful voice my heart simple dropped as I realise the dog that was dumped on the side of the river was that very text right before my eyes..
We couldn't here who we fall and feel connect too..
I keep seeing my future with her smiles cuddling me into a world of love and harmony.. I keep seeing her lips come close and drift apart.. little did I know...
That death dog was my warning sign..

I still see me and her getting together.. the butterflies go while in my stomach whenever she flys to mind...

Little did I know..
That death dog was my working sign.

Her appearance will change..
But her eyes will forever be beautiful..
Her body will grow..
But her soul will forever be beautiful..

To fall across paths with you
Was a blessing
A underlying beauty
Like no other..

Her soul was bright..
It could shine all darkness away.
Her eyes just glowed,
A flicker of light in the sky

She was just perfect,
An underlying beauty
Like no other..

1st August 2019

I wish I could die and walk away from this world I see, but death would be too good for me just like her you see,

If I go do not cry because I will be raising high, as death is only my biggest dream but death will not let me die.

If I go il leave her here and then Il wish that I, was just a little drop of rain one slash and il be gone

I am all but an addict,
Though I need to feel the connection,
I crave like a smoker craves a smoke.
Before you sit, and let the comments flow forth,
Just remember.
I am all but an addict.

My cravings are ones of a rich man,
Who needs not to expect.
But as time comes closer,
The fear may run it away

My heart is racing,
My legs are shaking,
Eyes are wide as ones could be.
As I withdraw
I withdraw for you,
As love is a drug that kills..


Ryan Devery 2017 19th of may.

Is it just me,
Or
Do you feel that too ?
Situation is horrible
But is it ment to be true?

I know I appreciate you
I feel you appreciate me to
The worlds is like a playground
All for me and you.
To run free

Time is a never an issue,
When its just me and you,
I kinda feel this connect.
Don't you feel it too ?

Words can speak many wonders
Action follow too.
When I really think about it..
I kinda wanna get to know you.

Nature queen, with a hit of a little more,
As beautiful as the song
of reggae she plays
I somethings come home and relisten.

To take my mind to you.
Just for a few,
I would do many things
Stopping my craving for kinda liking you .

At first we are just two people,
looking the same way.
Looking at one another the feeling
made me feel so gay.

Days weeks months and years went by,
the love was never grey.
But then there was that other guy
Who made me feel so afraid

Shaking shock and suprise to see you walk away.
Out the door and in the car,
It only took a day

You send shivers down my spine when you walk in,
Cause the butterflies to flutter like mad.
When you look in my eyes,
You burn right through me.
You are the sunshine when my skies are clouded,
The light when I can't find the good in the world.

I could be all that you need,
You are all that I want.
My stomach knots when you are next to me,
You make me nervous and giddy.

I smile at the thought of you,
Quake in your presence.
You have all control over me,
And you don't even know it.

Life is a paradox it's a mirror of confusion,


Present to the paradox  
Of a thousand conflicting truths
I inhale with a smile,
As life is a paradox,
It is a mirror too all its confusion.

People have hated themselves
because of their imperfections;
yet, will often love others
because of theirs.
I inhale with a smile,
As life is a paradoxs,
It is a mirror too all its confusion.

If everything right is wrong, go left, if everything left is wrong, go right,
You can't stay in the middle.
I inhale with a smile,
As life is a paradoxs,
It is a mirror too all its confusion.

Read me enough times
A paradox you will find
Hidden in plain sight,
I inhale with a smile,
As life is a paradoxs,
It is a mirror too all its confusion.

You can never, really tell when you will meet that person who you might spend the rest of your life with.

But in this generation, love and happiness is far fetch and mistake for.
And yes I used to think love, happiness and emotional feeling was far fetched, untell I met her.

It was only a few days that was need to be passed when I knew I wanted to be with her.

But do you remember as a child, having something you loved so much you needed it to over come new things? I want you to be my teddy bear.

But in the end if the connection is lost who's to say you cant get a new network to reconnect and revive ones feeling for her.

Not all Hero's wears a cape,

a hero is the person who brought you into this world.

A hero is that person who stopped on the street to give what they could to that homeless man.

A hero is that person who wakes up each day and has to deal with depression anxiety or self worth.

A hero is that kid who is told he will never get anywhere in life and regardless to what he has be told he will stand high and he will reach his goal.

As a child we grow up thinking that you need a super power to be a super hero but in the end a hero come in what is under the frown.

Kissing is a habit
******* is a game
Guys get all the pleasure
Girls get all the pain
The guy says i love you
You believe its true
But when your tummy starts to swell,
He says 'to hell with you'


10 minutes of pleasure
9 months in pain
3 days in hospital
A baby without a name
The baby is a *******
The mother is a *****
This never wouldn't have happened
If the rubber wouldn't have torn

Many people will stand around and stab you in the back.
Many people will hurt you for not going and doing something stupid.

But if life was easy and painless then everybody will end up going insane.
The truth doesn't mean anything unless the lies and statesman, are in order.

In the end.
you will be long enough dead.
So why not be crazy.
Why not have fun.
Why not try new things.

In order to see the rainbow of life,
You will need to go through the storm of death.