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Tess Calogaras Oct 2015
My mind is a stuffed disease
through clouded eyes and

my face feels faint and shallow.
Quiet hands and drooling lids;
******
er.
Broken confidence
through months of solitude

hidden feelings that showed their presence 
between self doubt.

The way she smiles

or the way she looks at you
how every girl wants a boy to look at her.

I know she wants

me

to stretch hands;
titillating.
I swallow
nerves and puke.
Disgorged in my throat,

she sat.

Smiling up at me,

her face so hopeful,
her hands stretched 
like mine once stretched to him.

Away she walks beyond my mind
frisking her feet, 
nuzzled in.

I want to keep her.

Hold her against my chest
and live like primary school kids.

In single beds

with christian hands

looking for God
in paper notebooks.

That extended grip,
and I don’t know how to touch her
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Tess Calogaras Oct 2015
Heart on a pole,

losing balance,

her stance starts to slip.

Fallen sideways;

she starts to panic.

Heart on a pole,

please,
don’t let me

*drop.
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Tess Calogaras Oct 2015
Sometimes it can be hard to know her skin

the way she likes to hide

and never let somebody in.



But even so she's like roses,

and their fallen petals 

floating in the wind.



Caught in the zephyr,

my hands stretched to their limit;

and even with the tightest grip, 

they still slip through my fingers.

Interlaced the same stem,

Woman to woman

That old teenage *******.



Red lipstick smeared across our face, 

Her laughter in my mouth,

and God I love the way it tastes.
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Tess Calogaras Sep 2015
The night is a cold loose shawl that dangles over our shoulders.
It has a secret we are yet to discover
and it shows it through the clouds and the moon.
The moon is a wide grin,
a full circle,
a white and dusty pill.
It hides between clouds,
spying over the mountains,
watching from a far.
It thinks we will hurt it.
We cage the beauty
and mock the ghastly
and everyone that falls in between.
My fingers sink into screens,
falling forward like drips of rain into the concrete.
I am locked to my body
and it feels like a casket
and I panic.
A man plays inside my home.
I can hear his hands move skittishly against the guitar,
distinctly out of tune.
It rustles in the air like stretching leaves in the wind.
The music rapids through me like waves crashing to the shore.
and I bleed into the background scared.
In a crowded place,
I watch a lady dance
and hear the beads in her hair patter upon her bony chest.
Her smile is wide like a crescent moon.
Her silhouette swims out in front of her,
circling endlessly like leaves over departed souls,
soaring up and down;
Her arms flick against it,
She moves like a dying flower caught in the wind.
She is the sky.
She snaps and decays against the cool misty air.
The people progress around her,
they seal her secret with their working bodies.
They are like fleeting clouds,
and I was their moon
I have reedited from another poem I had posted on here awhile ago
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Tess Calogaras Sep 2015
Who awoke to a cold lonely morning

in the shade of unspoken words from 
yesteryears?

Laid upon your pillow which you drooled

among slumber and woke drench in old

*pity.

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  Sep 2015 Tess Calogaras
Tom McCone
cold into the streets, i found
no salvation inside last night, as
usual: the stone walls were
slick, and, through the tunnel
pack, i turned to the comfort
and disgust of suppressed life,
and decided not to climb. 'it
would be a shame to break
my neck, here', i uttered, in
the haze, to myself. clusters
of meaningless wandering thought.

before, i knew avoidance, like all
gods were lookin' down through
the world, and i could only curl and
hide my fears by inaction and the
movement of my fingertips over
nylon threads. same sad songs i
won't stop singing. think i'm the
thing drags me down, i'm the
only thing that i can't rid myself of,
and consonance comes round more,
these days, but hardly
all of 'em.

so, i spread feet under new and old
known and unknown streetlamps,
stared up at the cloud cover,
screamed at the tatters of the moon
aside stranger's houses,
shedding care.
but, all, and you, will be asleep or awake,
wherever my care's gone, and
it doesn't seem to be
here.

this city drains out of
my open arms.
  Sep 2015 Tess Calogaras
Lysander Gray
She wore mountains round her neck

           (“No, lower.”)

Peaked with scented minarets

           (Softer and sweeter than strawberries,
           grander than a psalm.)

In the gulch between words
I offered you a prayer
and you wounded me with a poem.

I watched you  move
like a summer night
to disrobe the cover
of your collected works
           -a landscape of fire and blood
            that beats a wardrum
            deep in my hungry river.

Your petals pressed against my lips
           to drown , to drown
                      gladly.

She wore mountains round her neck,
and I wore her ankles with a smile.
Memory
Present
Memory
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