Soon you will realize that the inner critic grew a large tall trunk with thorny branches. Entangled your inners and is now playing monsters in your head. Casting its shadows of doubt, despair and hoplessness.

Thus be wary of the inner critic, and tread carefully in its waters. For what may seem innocuous can turn detrimental.  Shattering dreams and ambitions, leaving you in a never ending quagmire.

Their hearts begged the heavens for them to meet. But not a single hello came from him or her when they  finally met. Just Silence, shattering hopes of a besought desire fulfilled .

The ocean gives you love, peace and freedom all at once.

What an old soul you are,
Donned in leather that strikes tales of time
Cool tie and rocky shoes,
Leaves the girls smitten, caught in your gleam.
A presence that that feels like a rhyme
Is it your poise or charisma that draws them near? I ponder

Your mad hatter jokes weave laughter like art,
To what do I owe this delightful cheer?
A dance with you was never my intent.
With a glass down, I fix my flair,
Ready to strut to your grooves embrace,
“Shall we?” you say, each pun in sync,
A wink and a smile, together with a tip on the hat.

“Be mine for the night,” you say it with a smize
“If and only if we dance till the dawn breaks!” I reply
Laughter ensues and you pull me in,
Cheek to cheek, in this moment, we’re drawn.

Must be the wine, or is it the gentlemans pride, I ponder. You pull me in more and set loose for a little twirl.  We glide across the floor
Transforming the night.

The music spins and thrills. Slow and steady, we move on the edge
Glowing under the disco’s ball , letting the shadows sway
You pause and time stands still 
A grip on the guitar
with every strum you play.
A melody adored, an echo of the past,
In your music, it binds
Time gently unwinds
In the rhythm of your grace

The mind, a labyrinth of mystery,
A riddle for the essence of being.
Thoughts cascade, a torrent of wonder,
Ideas intertwine, forging new paths.

Guard it from  the sway of opinion,
Embrace the awe in every potential.
Never underestimate its vast greatness;
In the depths of your mind, let brilliance awaken.
Explore the corners of what’s yet to be.
Unravel the stories that linger like ghosts,
Unearth hidden treasures, the things you love most.
Unleash your greatness

We run from love's warm embrace,
Though our hearts yearn to be near,
We whisper a cautious no,
While longing for what’s clear.

In the dance of hearts and minds,
With missteps that leave us torn,
The princess lost her charming prince,
In the silence of love’s dawn.

A chance lost to the days.
In silence, we mourn the path
That led us far away—
A dream once held so closely,
Now just a shadowed sway.
In shadows we often tread,
We glance and hope for contact,
Yet fear the words unsaid.

So let us dare to speak,
To bridge the gaps we create,
For in the honesty of words,
True love awaits, not fate.

A flower in hand, I mastered the quintessence.

What if I told you, in whispered night,
That shadows of longing still dance in light?
In the quiet moments when time stands still,
I find echoes of you, a heart to fill.

Back then, we were dreamers, two souls in flight,
Chasing the stars, lost in our delight.
But seasons have changed, and paths drift apart,
Yet your memory lingers, a flame in my heart.

What if I told you, I wanted you then,
In laughter and silence, in now and again?
A truth woven softly in threads of the past,
A whisper of “what if” that’s bound to last.

So here in the twilight, I stand, ever near,
Carrying wishes wrapped tight in my fear.
What if I told you, in moments divine,
That wanting you now feels like crossing a line?

Like a wick in wax,
Ignite my soul,
Let’s dance in the fire,

Where passion burns
With every flicker bright,
Our spirits intertwine,
In this sacred light,
Your heart beats with mine.

Embers whisper secrets,
In the warmth we find,
A love that never wanes,
Eternal and unconfined.

Like a wick in wax.
Ignite my soul
And lets dance in the fire

In a *** of dreams, where flavors twirl and spin,
If you’re bold enough to stir, be ready for the grin.
Taste the broth, let your senses swoon,
Just don’t forget, dear Finder—lick the spoon!

Confetti rains with giggles loud,
Naughty gestures, cheeky and proud.
A peek-a-boo that sparks delight,
A vibrant pack, ready to ignite.

You’re a kaleidoscope in a dull gray scene,
With shades of mischief—bold and keen.
Life’s a party with you around,
In your colorful chaos, joy is found.

I stand on the road,
One foot ahead, where the wild winds blow.
A suitcase in one hand, dreams tucked inside,
A thumb raised high, with the world as my guide.

Eager for a cruise with a heart to discover,
Each mile a whisper, as I search for my lover.
With stars as our compass and the sea as our song,

I never knew our hearts were travelers,
fated to meet in the fleeting embrace of time,
yet racing through the moments of life.
You, sat by the window,( train in motion)
one hand on the pane, eyes tracing horizons.

And there I stood, luggage in hand,
lost in the warmth of your gaze,
wondering how I missed the whispers
of destiny in the rush.

The train pulled away from the station,
a heartbeat lost in the distance.
Tell me, beloved, will our paths cross again,
or are we but shadows in the twilight,
woven together in the tapestry of dreams?

Your worth is as Clear as every sunrise
And sure as every sunset. Count on it.

But darling, I cried as I watched the ocean waves gently kiss the sand, each crest revealing secrets of longing and love. The salty breeze wrapped around me like a familiar embrace.

With each wave that rolled in, I felt my heart break open, the water drawing out my sorrow and returning it transformed

In that fragile moment, I understood—just as the tides ebb and flow, so too do our emotions, forever intertwined with the vastness of the world around us.

Glitter on the grass, moon light glow.
Lake side view
Body splash Dancing waters.
Blankets and wine
Star-studded skies  
Petals & chocolates
Wedding vows on a corvette sun-rooftop.
Smooches and snuggles
Giggles and belly laughs
A night to remember
Tucked tight
Sweet melodies

Two hearts that beat as one, endebted to the journey of finding each others essences. Follow the currents that redefine our hopes and dreams. Relive the moments that weave the present into the future pediment. Forever standing as one.

Real steel
Stepping into the train
Smell of old leather wafts the air
Deja Vu slip through the mind
Sits next to the windowpane reminiscing
Couchette and crotchet-blankets
The night fall asleep

Dark subway tunnels
Black fumes and rigorous hooting
Departure and arrival
Screetching brakes
Roaring engines

Weekend gateways
Sundress and hats
Codroy and bell bottoms jeans
Suitcase and newspapers
Home and away
New skies and Fading memories

Into the dark of the night when our minds cruises through the infinite ebb of reality. We rise through the stellar heights feel the krypton energy activate, and evaporate through the outmost core causing a spectrum of fluorescent lights to radiate through the cosmic spheres.
© Sonia Ettyang

I walk through the shadows of the night  Under the glowing light
The mysteries of the moon mystify my mind
Shed light to my soul
Engulf my spirit to the core of the earth bringing me closer to my inner being
Fine tuned to the rhythm of the ocean

Darling, you and I are glitches in this matrix. And this love is the holy grail that's why fighting for us feels like world War III.

Falling back to the blank slate
dark night of the soul rising
Supersonic winds are whirling
Megastorms with shattering glass flying
Ooh I feel the acid rain pouring
I see the dust devils dancing
hurricane thunder's wrecking in

Wild Neptune tides are rising
Back and forth rising
Crushing drowning and burning
Neptune tides
Neptune tides

This is a tidal war
It's an etheric war in the pathless land
A battle of the titans
Loosing to the ******* hole
The open walls are closing in
But I see the oasis on the horizon
Beconing for my unbegotten soul
My spirit rises with rage
I slay the beasts and chain the demons
Take back my wings of freedom
And set my spirit free
© Sonia Ettyang
2019

Questers of truth
With mystical souls and mystery minds
Once in awhile need a rewind
Slowdown the pace
And seek for places and spaces that
reignite the spirit and water the soul
Seeking for places and spaces that speak peace and fill the mind with ease
Seek places and spaces that bring uttermost connection
A home away from home
A haven
© Sonia Ettyang

Once you realize an empty soul is one who has lost; not a fight but a war that rages deep inside of their being.  Then you'll cease to compromise the sanity of your mind and soul for their sake. For no matter how hard you try to help them refill their vessel they'll still be running on empty.
© Sonia Ettyang
December 2018

My apologies if you thought you'd play checkers with my heart. Surely you deserve a round of applause for the biggest fool in town.
© Sonia Ettyang
October 2018

Back and forth we've made rounds with this unrequited love. Shifting blames while stroking egos. I think it's time we let this go before we drive each other out of our heads.
© Sonia Ettyang  
November 2018

Their heartbeats danced together when they hugged each other for the first time.
©Sonia Ettyang

It all began when a gentle heart fell for a wild heart. And as their walls grew thinner it became more crystal clear that; them meeting was more of an alignment than a happenstance. They were indeed two sides of the same soul.
©Sonia Ettyang

You and I signed up for this dance, but darling we somehow forgot the moves. Hence our souls do what they do best speak fluently in silence
©Sonia Ettyang

His eyes spoke profoundly what his lips couldn't utter.
©Sonia Ettyang

Who knew the tiny electric sparks we felt when we first met, would light up fires so huge in our hearts that no one would dare fight let alone put out
©Sonia Ettyang

Each and every new dawn is a chance to weave a web of fresh new thoughts and create a new reality
For today is full of presents, pre-sent to you as a reminder that the future is held in the now moments
©Sonia Ettyang

Down memory lane is an old town house called the Past
Constructed with age old events
Painted with long held beliefs and furnished with yester memories
Hope any time you revisit the town you'll pass by with your head held high, beaming smile on your face
and a clear understanding of
that was then and this is now

The universe is our canvas we bring it to life. So go ahead and paint it with your favourite shades. Let it Radiate with light and explode with vibrance. May it reflect the beauty within
©Sonia Ettyang

I thought I could save you from the your own demons
That lingered behind those empty eyes
But if I knew then what I know now
I should have ran and never looked back
As everything felt wrong right from the start
The love bomb
The mind games
The death stares
All those were red flags!
But I lied to myself
I lied to myself that me and you were destined
I lied to myself
That you were the chosen one, yang to my yin
I lied to myself
That you were my mirror and I was staring at my reflection
But you were just a mirage
Putting up a charade while you mimicked me
Took down my walls and entrance gain
I was so lost then but now I'm found
If you ask me I know better now
As for you, you'll never find what you're looking for
No amount of love on this earthplane can rescue your fallen soul back to light
For you need no saving, all you're after is your next source of energy, a chain of supply is what your ego craves.
Just know you can hide but never ran
Your Mr nice guy masks will soon fall off
Everything will lay bare and that void within will show
©Sonia Ettyang

A warrioress needs a warrior
To match the rhythm of her wild heart and run wild with it
Ignite her flame and set fire to her soul, let her untamed spirit fly free

Together they transcend in love
Swirling like  a whirlpool galaxy
With a million stars shining
Exploding like supernova
Soaked up in stardust
Gracing the infinite space
Higher and higher
In divinity
©Sonia Ettyang

Greetings from the otherside,
Hope this letter finds you well
You know it would have been easier if you were one of us.. Maybe we sit down and have a one on one
Perhaps you could also have a gist of what it feels like to be swept of your feet without prior notice, you know?
Anyway I'm guessing your quite busy on your mission, collecting hearts with a bow and an arrow
What a love spell you got going on..
Strangers become soulmates
Friends turn into lovers
Even rivaling kingdoms unite all in the name of love
But I bet you are aware it's not always a bed of roses
Actually you already know some of us have had it rough one our end
We've experienced the darkside of cupid, as I would call it, some prefer the term "alien love bite".. but boy oh boy It's one hell of a ride ey?
From misguided minds, bleeding hearts, to fallen souls and
Shattered spirits, I mean all in the name of love you say huh?
So tell me, if it's not you then who is really sitting at the two ends of the table playing chess with with our hearts or rather who is really pulling the strings?
Maybe just maybe, you should try and reconsider a revision of this contracts so that way we could all settle scores
And make this game of love a win-win
Just hoping next time while you gamble with our hearts and aim for the perfect shot
Pause for a second or two and consider whether it's a miss or a match
For love's sake
Thanks, until next time

Like a rose
Let your essence bloom with glory and splendour
Keep your insides soft and supple
Embrace your thorns, for they keep you guarded
Allow your petals to droop and wither whenever the seasons change
Let your leaves soak in the summer sunshine
And your roots drink the heavy rainfall.
Nourish your being and grow back again with much grace and vibrance

Cloudy skies
Heavy downpour
Cold breeze
Swaying trees
Misty window panes
Traffic lights
Hooting cars
Gushing gutters
Drenched trench coats
Soggy feet
Colourful umbrellas
Crowded shelters
Empty side walks

The city skips a few hearbeats
And comes to a stand still
Soon as the pounding rain stops
Everything returns to normalcy

But rainy days call for
Steaming cups
Slouchy sweaters
Fluffy blankets
Snuggles
Cuddles
Novels
Notebooks
Gramophone tunes in the background
Enjoying a little piece of heaven
While the day is washed off
Setting stage for a clean fresh start
©Sonia Ettyang

Life can give you lemons
Life can give you berries
Will you enjoy the bitter sweet taste?
Will you focus on the bitterness of the lemon ?
Or will you get lost in the sweetness of the berries ?
Well, it's a choice we make everyday
learning to enjoy the tasteful blend of sorrows and joys
Laughter and cries
Happiness and sadness
Whatever is served
We learn to make the best out of it and quench the thirst

There are those in life
Who have given their best
Shot their best shot
Jumped their longest stride
Walked their longest mile
Ran their longest race
Climbed their highest peak
Although somehow they still haven't reached their destination
Haven't found their happy ending
But they still put their best foot forward
they rise after every fall and keep pushing
Until one day the find their answer
Until one day they turn dust into gold
Until one day they become the light at the end of the tunnel
They beam like a lighthouse
and show the world who they are made of, made of stardust
They shine bright like gemstones on the midnight blue sky

To be a star you need to embrace the darkness

I lay down this dead roses
Out in the open field
Watch the petals turn to dust
And vanish in the wind
Make a heart felt wish
For a soul I once thought I knew is dead and gone
Sank deep into the abyss
So glad I could catch a glimpse of whats left of your sunken soul
And now I loosen my grip and set you free
May the waves carry the weight of your burdened spirit  
Forever hold your peace
©Sonia Ettyang

I've been here before
I have seen this before
It feels like a labyrinth
A meandering path
Every finishing line is the beginning of a new life line
Round and around
A never ending maze, a never ending path
A cycle that keeps repeating itself like a rhyme
Merrily, merilly, merrily, merrily
Life is but a dream
Life is but a dream

Somedays it feels like a night mare
Caught up in a dream where I'm the only one awake
Somedays it feels like I'm running blind trapped in a changing maze
Somedays it feels like I'm a bird floating in the atmosphere
with a happy go lucky vibe, just going with the wind
Somedays It feels like I'm the sun
My head is held up high and my soul is shining bright
Somedays are great
Somedays are vague
But everyday I'm here living
© Sonia Ettyang