Drop the knife
Put away the gun
Don't take your life
Soon there'll be sun

I know all too well
How hard you must try
Not to scream and to yell
How much you want to cry

I know your secret
I feel just the same
I promise I'll keep it
I won't set it aflame

It burns like a *****
When you take a shower
The pain makes you twitch
The red blooms like a flower

Don't try to hide it
Don't feel ashamed
They'll throw a fit
People will be blamed

Don't be upset
It's not your fault
Don't cry just yet
Their whispers will halt

I know it's addicting
I've done it before
Truly it's restricting
Hiding it's a chore

It feels like heaven
When it goes down your arm
Nine, ten, now eleven
It all works like a charm

I know it works well
I've felt it too
But it's a path down to hell
Only stoppable by you

"It will get better"
I say this to myself
Say it letter by letter
Now to yourself

Don't cry tonight
Wait for the sun
Put up fight
The battle has yet to be won

Drop the knife
Put away the gun
Don't take your life
Soon there'll be sun

I’d rather write than speak
My pen is always responsive
My ink doesn’t judge my mistakes
My paper doesn’t argue
My lines never cross me
My sentences never disappoint
And my words will never leave me

their first
and last mistake
was thinking that she was a flower
or anything fragile or gentle
though she looked like silk and velvet
she felt like broken glass and iron
and it cut deeply into your skin
your mind
your soul
spilling your blood as she went
perhaps rainstorms and romantic lullabies
are more your kind of fairytale
but you'll never again deny her power
her dark and wondrous power
like lightning across the darkest of clouds  
the fire and brimstone of Tartarus
the grey and wild lashing of the ocean

You should be thankful,
For whatever he had overcome and went through,
He still have the courage to tell you his thoughts,
For he is brave to face his fear and stand for people who faces the same thoughts.

You should be grateful,
For he is willing to sacrifice his sleep, to make you happy even just for a while,
For he fights for what is right, for your right even when he is weak.

You should feel honoured,
For he looks at you, like he had never looked at anyone,
For he tells you things I longed to hear and dreamt of.

You should feel happy,
For everytime he mentions you, he smiles with eyes disappearing into his cheeks, lips curled, touches his ears.
For no matter what, he promises to be there for you even when he finds it hard sometime.

You should feel lonely,
For when he is away from you,
For every mishap that occured, nights spent apart, phone dim with no sweet texts received.

You should feel bad,
For the time you think you are alone, when he is there for you,
For forgetting to remind him that he deserves all the love in the world and that you are always there for him.


Lastly, you should feel sad.
For when the time comes, things will no doubt change over time,
For knowing that you have to leave him one day, or being left by him as final goodbyes are being said while leaving the world.

- ponder

I will forever remember
Those beautiful deep brown eyes
That you thought were so plain.
But darling, you could not see:
how could you possibly see?
The way they shined in the sun
breathtaking hues of mahogany
Melting into golden rays
Circling an eclipse
your “plain brown eyes”
truly aren’t plain at all
they are a stunning mixture
of every color known to man
The most beautiful sunset on earth.