Everything that is true morphing Before my very eyes Waves of emotion The world dissolves Into a temporary state of nothingness A blissful existence Wandering between reality And a dream A newfound awareness Of subtle beauty A world of peace
You with your new love And me with mine I love him I do and I know you love her too but I can’t help noticing Your all too familiar eyes The way they crinkle at the corners And sparkle at my sight Theres a slight warmth in your stare Subtly revealing the emotions You’ve trapped deep inside Our eyes meet For a fleeting moment a silent conversation longings for the past Flames dancing The mouth’s sly grin Your eyes softly whisper What I always hoped was true They say you remember They reveal you still care Memories flood from the past Time stands still And just for a second I felt like we were back Back when love was new but as soon as it began The moment was gone And I was left staring At your now apathetic eyes ****** back into reality the wistful realization The painful truth Our time had passed We each have moved on So you turned to your love as I turned to mine and with one last glance our eyes whispered a silent goodbye
It felt so good To slowly watch As you slipped from my mind Faded out of my life As I gradually let go Of you, Someone I once begged to stay now glad to watch go And even though it hurt It felt so good to finally forget Now free to be happy And live my own life And no matter how much you meant No matter how much I loved you I'm finally at peace And this is not to say That I have forgotten Because I will always remember The beauty The pain The love that we shared Yes I still love you But I’ve learned to let go
A year and six months Since the last time I saw you Your sudden appearance long overdue you look so much older Your hair is so long Your eyes somehow colder You ask me what’s wrong And what can I tell you What could I say I guess that I miss you I wish that you stayed I guess I forgive you For breaking my heart For all you put me through So I send my regards To the man I once knew because you are not the same and neither am I only life is to blame so this is goodbye
Oh my love, tell me why things didn’t feel right to you you look at me its like you’re looking right through Theres a look in your eyes I can’t place anymore it’s like you don’t love me like you did before Darling the sun is setting on you and I my heart is broken by your solemn goodbye shadows are settling on the place you left all that remains of me is just a silhouette my soul is empty I am hollow for I know you will be gone tomorrow
I once believed the beauty of the fall Lies in the purity The ease and simplicity of loving the right person I believed this wholeheartedly Until I fell only once And it broke me I Fell so hard and deep For the right person The most perfect one Everything was so natural So beautifully simple But I fell too fast I took a leap of faith I jumped off the edge Into the terrifying unknown I was in freefall As I watched him slip away Into the blackness Like a shadow Without a trace It was too late I was already falling Spiriling so fast towards nothing Slamming into the emptiness Shattering into a million fragments the fall broke me it broke my spirits My idea of love Now, Theres something about falling That just doesn’t seem worth it
I have a deep fear One I cannot get past A fear that controls me Making me distant Preventing me from moving forward. I’m afraid of love Of making connections Of being vulnerable again. I’m terrified of opening up Of showing people my heart Terrified that they will leave As so many have done before. I'm alone and broken left with only fragments Of my shattered heart Unable to pick up the pieces. A brokenness caused by the very person I once trusted to protect it. I need someone Someone to sweep up my shattered mess Someone to love me. But my fear prevents me From letting people in From asking for help Because all I’ve grown to known Is the cruel pattern of abandonment. I’m desperately longing To create something of substance So that my heart can finally mend To fill this emptiness but I can't-- fear trumps desire As I meet new people people I want so badly to trust people I want to love. Fear hardens my heart each time Stone walls to protect the remains Of my brokenness. The terror of falling in love again Trusting people with my fragile heart Being vulnerable separates me from these beautiful people. The fear I’ve created for protection Only causes me pain.