gravity
its certainty is puzzling
the way it attracts something
towards its center

it holds me down
until i drown
in worlds where words
can't lift me up no longer

gravity is certain
but i'm a skeptic
so i stand here
where my feet don't adhere
to the ledge of the 25th floor

[i want to test it]

I made many mistakes but loving you was never one of them

- I'm sorry I left first

- Every time I think of your face a part of me disintegrates, I don't know whether this is a good or bad thing yet

- I never loved anyone as much as I loved you, please never forget that

- You've changed me, and I don't know if it was for the better, but I'm not the same anymore

- I hope you know that I was ready to run away with you at any second

- You were the first person that made me feel like I belonged somewhere

- You're probably still confused to why I left you, and it's better that you don't know. But, I want to make it evident that you were my first home. Now, I need to move.

- You will always be a part of me, and I hope I will always be a part of you

- You'll always be my petal

- I'm sorry all of this is a little bit too late

Go on,
shout your sorrows
and fury to the midnight sky!
With all the respect due
the stars shall live on to whisper
and the moon shall glisten
through with the vesper
You are but a celestial body
Inert to your orbit
The First law is true
but the axiom is all you
And, there exists only presence or absence

Daytime sleeping; Nighttime thinking
What's so extraordinary about the daytime?
The night is much more fascinating.

Sun that's sweltering and ablaze; but,
Moon's godly, mysterious & ageless.

What's not to adore about nighttime?
It's, its' mystery & danger that compels you; full of its magic if you know where to look.

Night creatures everywhere come out to captivate.
Early birds everywhere come out to pull through.
I'd rather be a night creature full or life and adventure than an early bird full of doubt's & regrets.

This is a war
Of crowds drunk
With their fists pounding in the air
One ominous heartbeat
As they turn their ears away
From deafening music
Of undiscriminating souls
They turn it to the real music
And turn it to rock and roll

To all the little girls and all the little boys about to say good night
I bid thee sweet dreams and have a safe flight

That on this starry evening wherever the oceans of the universe flow
That you hold tight onto the unicorn reigns then just let yourself go

That you let yourself run free like an animal, run wild!
Let yourself BE free. be creative. explore. be a child.

For when you wake up this moment shall be gone
And your days as a child will merely be once upon.

My mind is loudest
When The world is quiet
So I cannot sleep

So I dream out loud
A dream of me dreaming, of
Me falling sleep

a brief moment of clarity
a moment of grace is all it takes  
to truly surrender

the hard part is to keep surrendering
a day at a time, but not as hard as
living in the hell of my disease

grateful to be free just for today
and to be trudging
on this "road of happy destiny"

The thought of his lips touching mine
The closed eyes
The heart beat
Being one
Two different soul

The thought of his hands on my waist
Tickling fun
Naughty words
Dancing night
Two opposite poles

The thought of him on top of me
Sweet pain
Silent moan
Sweating along
Two musical notes

The thought of night with him alone
Racing tides
Jumping nerves
Thousands of miles
Getting short

The thought of him not letting me go
Wistful thinking
Raining wishes
Decided by fate
Time is at stake....