Sometimes your words scare me
Even before they leave your mouth
I fear something I don't want to see
Resulting my heart to plummet south

Have you begin to understand
The spell you have me under?
Falling in love is not what I planned
But I hold white flags that say I surrender

Now I know why people fear love
Because of all that they could lose
Thats precisely why I hug you so snug
To leave a mark, an impact, a bruise

Like the one you left on my heart
That will be difficult to ever erase
But I never want to forget that part
To which no one can take that place

Remember the next time you touch me
That it means more than you'll ever know
Remember that you were my first "we"
Remember I don't ever wanna let you go

One minute you were here
The next you were gone
I try hard not to shed tears
But I feel less of our bond

**** distance and the space
That separates our two souls
I miss your voice and your face
So much it's begun to take a toll

I need the truth and no lies
When you return will i feel pain?
When I look into your eyes
Will the love still be the same?

Promise me that it will
That the love will have grown
You'll be in love with me still
And return to all that I've known

Everyday it's nothing new
I force myself to make it through
I go to bed just to wake up
To be that much closer to your touch

How'd you get so far away
Did you ever think there'd come a day
Where you'd willingly look me in the eye
Pack your bags and tell me goodbye

I need you to come back to me
I ******* wish you could only see
How torn I am bc it's not the same
But you're the last I want to blame

Maybe our love can't be smooth
Maybe that's too easy of a move
Maybe it's all a test just to beat
Maybe that's all there is to defeat

One day we'll say goodbye to goodbyes
Have less of the lows, & more of the highs
We'll forget the past & just restart
One day when we're no longer apart

I was far from done exploring you
Actually I had only just begun to
I yearned to memorize your body
And to look beyond what I see

So far, behind your glistening eyes
And the weary, alchemistic disguise
I wanted us to be broken down
Understand each other without making a sound

Satisfaction is not someone I know
Whenever I'm close it decides to go
It's hard to move on from what could've been
But it's easy to take losses when you never win

I wish we had more time
I'm sorry I had to go
To think of our magic colliding
We could've been unstoppable

Wanted to be your baby
So much it drove me crazy
It made me dream of your strong hands
And what it'd be like if you were my man

You made me feel like a star
Your affection was the best by far
I wanted nobody else but you
I wanted my dreams to come true

I think of us being together someday
Call me a fool but you know what I'd say?
That I ****** up but I'm glad that you're mine
And how good things just take space and time

I didn't want the opportunity to go
But I honestly didn't even know
That you'd make me fall for you
It was all so refreshing and brand new

You made me feel things I never had
You made me forget that I should feel bad
But our love was tainted from the start
Though it was hard to run once you got ahold of my heart

I wanted you so much, I wanted us to be
Yet in the back of my mind I knew I should flee
The clock struck midnight and you never got my name
I should've known from the start, love is a losing game

Can you master a drug?
Can you abuse a drug so much you learn the insides and outs?
You know when the high will start and end?
The way it feels when it bends?
The tricks, the twirls it's plays inside?
To try to scare and make you cry?
Can you ever be one step ahead it
And leap before it does?