the rain is
pouring down
outside
in here we are
safe and warm
you're sleeping
I'm getting closer
to you so you
won't freeze
holding you
in my arms
you take a deep
breath and as I
study your
angel face
I can't help
but feel home

Don’t think that
your words can pull me
closer to you

Don’t think that
your smiles does
the hard work

Don’t you dare think
I would’ve stayed just
because of how you made me feel

Your breathing on my skin
your lips on my hips
if tomorrow never comes
don’t stop
your hands in my hair
I’m gasping for air
****** me if you dare
in this bed that we share
even though we are lying
it feels like we’re flying

My ears still hurt from
all the lies you used
to whisper

Where do you go
when home
isn't home anymore?

where do you go
when he
isn't yours anymore?

where do you go
when she
won’t be your friend anymore?

where do you go
when they
don't believe in you anymore?

where do you go
when everything
seems lost?

Listening to your breathing
makes me calm
even if you go faster
I feel safe in your embrace
as the stars light up
our bodies tonight
all I see and feel
is you
an eternal bliss

Every night
I look up at the stars
remembering how it was
how awful I felt

Every night
I look up at the moon
remembering your sweet face
that was never really mine

Every night
I look up at the dark clouds
remembering all the tears I shed
how I was drowning in sorrow

Every night
I look up at the sky
remembering being consumed by your darkness
and how it almost killed me

Once a day I picture you
in front on me
feeling you next to me
letting you know that I care
how worthy you are
of simple happiness

Once a day I try to find
your eyes, but your hands
always finds me first
pulling me closer
like a tsunami

Once a day I feel that these
butterflies explode into fireworks
because of the way
you say my name

All the memories
moments I’ve had
are all fading to black
exchanged for sadness
and slowly forgotten

I wanted to stick with the others
but it was when I fell off
I learned how to fly

Moonlight sparks my heart
but it's not like the fire you start
whenever you
say my name

I felt it in the air
this cold, grey weather
it was the same as last year
when I was happy
shook it off because
it made me tense
because now I can finally
smile without you

The energy that night,
made it all seem so right

At midnight you had to say it,
I sneaked out for a bit

The rain was poring, 
Bare feet, ignoring 

Most of the conversation were giggles, 
hearing your voice, say it, I felt tickles

‘I just need to tell you that I love you so much,
and I can't wait to see you'

It was the most beautiful lie,
to bad we had to say goodbye

Seems like I forgot
what it feels like
to live

what does it even
mean to have fun, I
dont know

how does a true laugh
feel like, I seem to have
forgot

It's difficult to look
at happy faces, when
your life is ruined

I used to daydream
every time I had a break
I was back in wonderland
where I would find my happy ending
finally be happy
feel home, like I belonged
but lately I’ve been empty
waiting for you to knock on my door
and wondered where
my wonderland went
but when you come home
I’m back
and this time
it’s real

I don’t mind
getting lost
in those eyes
in your existence
******* away
by your charm
catch me
with your
gentle hands
getting lost
got a whole
new meaning

I glanced at you
it felt selfish
I didn't wanted to stare
so instead I glanced
I couldn't help but smile
because I can't believe
that you're mine

Heavy rain
thunder outside
as a new day begin
smelling your skin
kissing your chest
It’s here that I rest
seeing your smile
wake up
makes my burning heart
turn into a wildfire
I cannot control
I know you feel it too
your heart beats faster
as I keep kissing you
grab my back
hold my hair
and kiss me
good morning

if you ask me
what I do to get better
i'm going to say
absolutely nothing
because doing stuff
made me sick
broke my heart
destroyed me
so now I'm
taking a break
and healing in peace

woke up
in your embrace
with the sun yet to show

spend the day
on lips filled with lust
our hearts filled with love

feel asleep
with your scent around me
home has never felt this good

home is where the heart is
I’m finally home
and that’s wherever you are

I didn’t know
until you said it
how it felt
to be loved

I didn’t know
until you did it
how it felt
to be broken

I didn’t know
until you were gone
how it felt
to be lost

I didn’t know
until you didn’t matter
how it felt
to be stronger

I don't really fall in love anymore
I feel dead on the inside
it's been like this for some time
give it a try if you dare
but don't get angry with me
for not trying
I might just be too broken
to trust anyone again
cut me some slack
and if not
you probably
aren't the one for me

I dream about being in love
the longing for wearing your lips
the holding and touching
hands traveling to discover
every single part of you
while breathing in the same
sweet strawberry air as you

I dream about being so consumed with you
that all that never really mattered
fades away as the
pink cotton candy clouds appear
a love so deep
I almost can’t believe
that you’re only a dream

every time
someone
comes around
I fall
even when
I know
it will never
work out

every time
someone
wants me
it's too difficult
there's always
a distance
between us
yet I fall

If I gave you my heart
are you a hearteater
or a heartprotecter?

If I gave you all of me
are you a destroyer
or a builder?

If I gave you the world
are you the devil himself
or an angel?

Waking up slowly
in your arms
it's dark but
I sense your smile
gentle eyes
as you look at me
run your fingers
through my hair
no words
just movements
I lean in closer
taking a deep breath
before I kiss your chin
before you can’t
control yourself anymore
taking control
'kiss me' you said
no time to answer
before our lips met
I guess you’ve missed me
cause I’ve never had such a
passionate kiss before
I’m awake now

I hate how
I let you treat me

I hate how
okay I was with everything

I hate how
I put your needs above mine

I hate how
you made me feel

I hate how
much I loved you
even when you didn't deserve it

It was on a Monday afternoon
determined and scared to death
I didn’t want things to end
at least not like this
but you gave me no choice
I've never been happier
when I was with you
but i'm more than just an option
It’s over now, I left before you
sitting on my living room floor
silent, empty and alone
tears running down my face
what a relief but at the same time
I’ve never felt this lost
wanting to call just to hear
your voice
find comfort
but we are no more
I let you go now
go be with her