Remember when we walked hand in hand in the rain?
We stopped dead in our tracks,
Looked each other in the eyes and kissed?
Kissed underneath the crying, muggy, sky.
You were my first,
But I was your last.
From your first real experience,
To your last hurt one.
From always looking each other in the eyes without looking away,
To not taking a glance in the hallway.
From said I love you’s,
To silent I hate you’s.
From crying tears of joy for having you,
To crying tears of brokenness for losing you.
From cuddling you,
To cuddling just the jacket left with your scent.
Remember when I told you I’d never leave you when you feared that most?
I held you until you were still like the air surrounding us.
Until your beautiful hazel crystals cleared.
I held you until you were okay again.
You were my first,
But I was your last.
From the first person you went to for help,
To not crossing your mind once, that I even exist to you anymore.
From hugs and kisses after school so you could go home,
To ignoring and building distance so we don’t feel the hurt.
From being held together so close, the air doesn’t breathe between us,
To so much space it’s
suffocating.
From being excited to share the time we’ve spent together,
To throwing it aside and never believing it was even there.
From laughing at nothing and crying because it was too much,
To nothing at all and crying because the pain was too much.
……..
Remember when we walked hand in hand in the rain?
We stopped dead in our tracks,
Looked at each other and kissed?
Kissed underneath the crying, muggy, sky.
……..
That was only in a dream,
I had,
Once upon your lullaby.