I want to kiss a girl
Atop a green hill full of
White Petunias

Old eyes gaze upon
Young faces. So in love they
Were, so young and dumb.

She was a killer.
Little did I know, I was
Just her next victim.

I’m gonna light your
Reputation on fire,
And leave you to rot.

I may not be your
First date.
I may not be your
First hug.
I may not be your
First hand to hold.
I may not be your
First kiss.
I may not be your
First set of eyes to stare into
I may not be your
First person to call up at midnight.
I may not be your
First shoulder to cry on.
I may not even be your
First choice.
But I want to be your
Last everything.

My relationship
With her will be like that of
The night sky and stars.

It's been a year now.
I hope you're doing okay,
Wherever you are.

I scream into the
Void, my throat hurts from crying.
I really loved you.

To the girl who broke my heart:
Thank you.

I know you're out there, somewhere
Having fun with that other guy
Who you promised me high and low was
"Just a friend".
Thank you for showing me
Who you really are.

To the girl who broke my heart:
I love you.

I really, truly do.
I love the way you can tell a bold faced lie
And then paint your face
Like you didn't do anything wrong.
I love the way you lied
Both to me, and to yourself.

To the girl who broke my heart:
You were right.

Yes, I really was mad at you all those times you asked.
Yes, I really did make all of those gifts by hand.
And yes, I really did keep track of every day we dated for.
I was taught to count my blessings
So thank you for all 464 days you spent with me,
I hope you count your blessings in the future.

To the girl who broke my heart:
Goodbye.

So long to all the nights I spent with you on the phone.
Farewell to every time I held your hand.
Sayonara to each and every kiss I left on your forehead.
And Hasta la Vista to every kind word I said to you.
Goodbye to you.
Goodbye to us.
Goodbye to
Everything.

The truth is that we
Were never really in love.
We only thought we were.