Crystal tears in beams of the ethereal triangle. (Moth)
Leave gleams of cosmic rays of colors new from all angles
Crying trying to hug a moth.  
As Crystal tears fall on sacred cloths.
Benighted Bug embraced in hugs
Wings are spread to hold one snug:
Deepens the sorrow,
smiles be smug
Deeply sad
happy songs sung
Deep so deep in altered states fun
Deep like your hole that was never dug.
For this is why thy is sobbing yet numb.
So missed, so loved
this head in dread hung.
Hysteric screams loud left ears that rung.
Mourning love on lavish lush.
Perhaps hard drugs
gleam in this rug.
Like Twinkle stars in eyes of lights bug.
Flutter now precious one.  
That moment has come.
For that cosmic lights in the night sky has shun.
Fly off now and thrive
Through Blessed skies twilight.  
Omega trifecta disjecta in white.
Disregard all  life’s ill lies
Project Past false folly worlds not wise.
Omega trifecta eternal cant die.  
Clothed in robes on moths back we ride
  Purple eyes On wings spread so wide.  
Protected With swords
worn on there sides
Giants enlightened
with violet sash tied
Guide these rides like blades on arm right
through chaos harmonized untwined.
be three inside when doors thy find.
Under cat pelt black mat
Crystal white key sleeps and  hides.  
Unlock bone carved door,
to obscure and pure life.
Flesh cold on *** gold,
Twist it like Pyrex pipes.  
Arived
Arived
Looks dead
Though alive
Triangle portals for immortals to rise.
  In bliss gnostic gifts of the purest of kind.
alive in parallel paths that have died.
Blind not the light,
as black sun in sky rise.
Omega trifecta disjecta drenched white.  

Insanity
123
Triangle eyes  
Upon moths wings.  
Insanity
123
How nice was it for you visiting.
Insanity
123
Lovely wings now wave to thee
Insanity
123
Love has come
Love will not leave.
Insanity
123
Of three
Triangles dance like seas.
Insanity
123
White it be
of love
of 3.

Burn forever has this flame.
Insane deranged the mental state.
Delirium comes
And is here to stay.
Now in the dark filthy room,
the schizoid hides away.
In Torment
in dormant
Destroy rituals save.
Healed by the hand
Upon masters embraced.
Purify soul
Preserve culture and race.
Clean blood the last goodness
left in this wretched place.
Yet still in stillness
stagnant turns blue in veins
Bloodletting not upsetting
Blades sway without pain.
As well as chop lines
Upon mirrors for days.
Twisting Pyrex orbs like a game
As well as starve self in sacred ways.
As well as smoke finest of *** never laced.
As well as this huffing to **** cells In brain.
The alcohol be it the final Intake.  
Rituals so official for healing in this hate.
Destroy
Create
Destroy
Create
Sleep deprived
for up to thee days.
Final hours
bring forth meat and champagne.
Replenish the ugly shell carbon based
Starved for many days
Sacrifices made done safe
Acts watering spirit
Sacred like this self inflicted pain
Be it in ethereal place
Where insane becomes sane.
Clean the mirrors like spirits slate.
Awaken here to rise.
Eyes alive appearing crazed
laughs upon the sad estates.
Fear all clear has disappeared
Nearly forgot the name
again please come play
like the sun does in may
Cloaked with veils soaked,
like the bed lovers lay.
Cloaked in veils soaked
With inhuman healing rain
Cloaked in veils soaked
Through shadows in thick smoke.
Abstract absurd croaks,
hang from yellow ropes.
Oh strange these roads
magicians go.
Zero fear crystal clear
With senses unknown
It is upon the humans where Paranoid confused madness cripples all life.
Where the eyes of the rubber skinned demons flutter like fast as hummingbird wings.
No logic or sense
reality has shattered.
Machanical animals glitch out like brains splattered
Oh the inner urge to stab synthetic creatures
Oh to destroy Gears and chips inside that “raccoon”
Oh to have oil drop off this sharpened knife
How the **** can one ****
That which is not even alive
Malevolent smiles on people on all sides
These are the things
these eyes have seen
Enough now on obsessing
on that which is now cleansed.
These are the reasons this obscure life be led.
These be the reasons these practices one tends.
These be the reasons for the drs meds
These be the reasons one ***** up this head.
These be the reasons that one is not dead
For these sacred acts in fact have fed spirit and flesh  

Dancing and laughing now through storming waves of chaos seas
Immortal threes ride storms through dark nights.

Until Timelessness be kind with bliss.
These moments will be missed
For the horror be done.
For the flesh be at rest.
Silk was a voice that little wings said.
For fabulous readings
Whispers to heart In chest.
Last lovingly gesture
face gently corresed
Kissing soft wings as the honored guest left.
Gracious be glorious gifts that were sent.
For a  radiant cosmic ray is shun
A Glowing beam bright as the sun.  
Open ethereal triangle windows up.
Fly far now back to lands you are from.
to gaze into ethereal triangular windows.
Free forever eternal have fun
be a triangular window.  
Oh how now to frolic.  
Within Crystal palace.
Oh how to drink from the purest of chalice.
Oh how now to frolic  
Do not stop it
Obnoxious
be not this calling.
Laugh and prans  
as if you have lost it
sheen as if polished.
Which  gleams like gold lockets
Soft the Royal purple carpets.  
Dance in trancemusic of inhuman artists
Terror tamed and disregarded.
of black and laced scarlet
Parallel white
Blackness falls.
Gone unto the sacred arts.
Beaming rays in callused  hearts.

Hard telepathic readings.
The physical health was releasing.
Now physical health is at full regeneration.
Regression
Regression
Regression
In threes
In these
Darkest light in vibrant scenes.
Walk the chaos fields
Laugh at this disease.
In threes
Your triangle
Your embrace please.
Speaking through the cosmic seas.
yes blood as flesh are with thee.
All moments of timeless times.
We both dismantled time and logic.
Witnesses of chronic tauntings.
Together cold hands at hops frolic.
Disability in the humans life
Keeping wits as sharp as knifes.
Laugh with thee
In three
Hahaha
Hahaha
Hahaha
Far to gone
Walking along with zero fear at all.
Within you now all distress is regressed.
You are immortal and free.
You speak through moths and trees.
Transcend the logic of all human beings.  
Beyond the sane and tamed.
Oh severely was such un heard of pain.
humans of hate and horror in black corners.
Chaos in eternal be harmony.
Through delusions
Through evil illusions.
Still immortals storm the insane vespers.
In m
Aquarius being of untouchable boundaries.
Virgo being of untouchable boundaries.
These moons

**** trying to word or logically read.
We’re born of the purest lights.
found in the darkest of seems.
Insane
In pain
In collapsed yet precious veins.
Insane
In pain
Happiness on earth not aloud.
Happiness in far away bliss.
Oh how the dread impails when such is missed.
Eternal
In white
In ligh in black
Laugh with thee as the wretched attack.
In purity
With purple sash on white robes
In light in darkness harness you will be loved and whole.
Still shovels crave to dig six foot holes.
Still death appears in the faces of the cold.
Love fortold in the hopelessness like mold.
Oh telepathic wanderer of true purity.
Eternaly
Your purity and loving being
Eternal shall your light be strong.
Your love in lungs as one rips bongs.
Of three you and thee
Of night
Of light
No more fright
For blackness has led them to might that is white.  
For love from the purest has held out inhuman hands.
Forever infinite beyond imagination of man.
Forever gnostic callings in not so human lands.
Crystal tears beam in ethereal triangle (moth)

When you're lost in the eternity of sorrow and despair flows in every vessel within you there's always a comrade, like a hero who lightens and settles your life to glow.

When you're carrying an aching burden and the purpose of your life's left hidden. There's always an angel from the heavens who brakes the rules which are forbidden and saves you from the tomb of desperation.

A comrade, a hero, an angel... Whatever you call him, he's a friend who listens, who comforts, who understands and who's worthy to be one of a kind.

Pathetic.

Like life itself, what is the reason? What is the cause?

I pity the fool. I pity the world. I pity myself living in this world.

The pain, anguish, anger, poverty, etc. There is no end, a year of grief seems like eternity. The things we behold and commit, change the 7th commandment to be thou shall not admit. Change the ways to suit our wants, ***** our needs, we only live to get pleased, satisfied, filled with sin.

Why not end life now and go to hell? Burn for a while then dissapear with no more pain. Who wants heaven for eternity? Always living and smiling eternaly.

Let it all just end now...

My husband went into the eye
Of nothing
No post card
No message from imigration
Ill send him my corn money
And peel mangos in chilli powder
With his daughter
Until mayday ends
Our stomachs lauphter
If he finds a way in again
Ill meet him at St Annes
Out side of the park
Under the oak shades.
If he finds a way in again
Ill promise to keep this family together
Eternaly.

Blade to wrist
Gun to my lips
This is not a game
So dont consider it a joke
Rope around my neck
Would it be ironic if i choke

My mom told me Neva start
What you can't finish
So if i pop one pill
Should i not stop till the whole bottle is deplinished

And I just hope that tylenol doesnt False advertise
cause im really just looking for a rapid release

**** IT

.:i I drop to my knees i:.
.:i And begin to pray i:.

"Lord thank you for the day,

But now i must ask that you tell the guards
at the gates to make way
I'm coming home, prepare a room
i feel like this world is crowded with fake people
and for me there is no longer room.
Im not saying i hate people
But I feel I tried my best at it LORD
and i feel as if now my home resides with you
Im just hoping that everything is true.
You know the gold pave roads
My own Acres
My own Mansion
I want to have it Eternaly with you
But lord im smart and i know there is nothing as half truth
so if i take my own life ill never get to meet you
Than I guess it is all worth the trouble
Im just waiting for the day that i get to greet you"
Amen

Is love so cruel
Am I only destined to be stuck dreaming
  of you
While you're never to be dreaming
  of me
We're living our lives in different times
  and different places
And I would come to you
If it were my face you saw when
  you dreamed
If it were my name you whispered
  in your sleep
If I knew I would never have to leave
And if I could just have five minutes
  or an hour or a night
If I could only tell you how far into
  my life my heart has taken this dream
I've seen my feet step off of a plane
I've seen you sitting across from me
I've seen us laughing and crying and
  sighing
I've seen my awkward attempt at our
  first kiss
I've seen you chase and catch me under
  the sheets
I've watched you under the moon that
   turned into the sun and the sun back
   into the moon
I've seen the plans and proposal and
   wedding over looking the sea
I've seen little versions of you chasing
  little versions of me
I've seen my eyes grow old watching the
  eternal beauty in yours
I've seen myself die and I've seen myself
  waiting for you on the other side
And I've seen the whole story over
  again and again
But is love so cruel that its only real in
  this dream
And never to surface as we live our lives
  in different times and different places
You've filled my heart and now it
  overflows
And you already live deeply and eternaly
  in my heart
If only you could come and be by my side
And we could both find that love isn't
  always so cruel

On the table
In the corner of the room
There was candle burnin'

As it was melting slowly
It reminded me of death surely
And the things I've done, unholy

Through my window moonlight gleam
In front of my eyes stood a specter supreme
Told me for my sins to reedem

Absolution, a beautiful lie..
I'm guilty for my vicious crime
My soul will be floating in Styx for the end of time

I heard the scream of souls
That are eternaly living still
I can be back from the world of shadows
If someone for me blood spill

I saw there the One Unseen
The ruler of the all you see
Brother of the God of Sea

(I wished my body was burnt down
My cry will be the only sound
That wind will bring near
The every child that's in fear)

Flame of candle lights a room
Flame of candle chase the doom
Flame of candle my body exhume

Wax of candle only left
Sun was risen, already was dawned
The real light was comin' from beyond

Punishment my destiny will be
As it was appeared in dream
For my sins I will redeem

" Oh, forgive me, the One Almighty
The one that above us dwell
After all my nightmares I met my fate
From their eyes I saw the hate
Oh, forgive me, humbly I kneel
If I say just blank words, mouth my  seal
Lead me to heaven, show me the path
Now it's gone, impalable wrath "

IN MY GRIEVING HEART
I HAVE BEEN TRULY BLESSED
WITH THE MEMORY OF YOU
PEACE YOUR ETERNAL REST

HANDS UPON YOUR BOSUM CROSSED
NOW MOTIONLESS, WITH LIFTED FACE
YOUR SOUL FLOWN AWAY
GLIDING WITH AMAZING GRACE

WITH TEARS OF SORROW I BID FAREWELL
ME WITH A HEART LEFT BROKEN
I WATCH THE SPARROW JOURNEY WITH YOU
YOU LEAVING BEHIND A GLORIOUS TOKEN

THE LAST GIFT YOU HAVE GIVEN
A HEARTBEAT LEFT INSIDE OF ME
A GOLDEN THREAD FROM MOTHER TO DAUGHTER
THAT BINDS OUR SOULS ETERNALY

I see you're feeling down again
And no one in the world can understand
You may not mean the world to me
But I assure there is still a world for you to see

Tell me where it burns
The scars of what was once told
The memories that haunt your days
The sleepless nights you fill with rage
Why do you give them the attention they seek
Those memories are only there to haunt your dreams
To make a windmill out of your mind
Mowing away the sanity inside

You may not mean the world to me
But I have been there and I know what you see
I know how the numbness feels right
But you need to face the pain to shine bright

The numbness tucks you in
And invites you to an endless sleep
Until you sleep eternaly

Embrace the pain that makes you grow
Look forward and go with the flow
And if the light dims again
Just prepare for one more journey ahead

The journey will never be easy
The journey will always feel hard
But when you fulfill it my friend
You will feel like a shinning star

And if you fall down again
Learn with what you lost and walk instead
There's always something in life worth your time
So don't give up on it while blind

I dont ever wanna make you feal like u werent enuff for me
Im Stuck on beats eternaly searching deep for the love beneath
Something keeps calling me no apologies follow me
Accept all of me maybe take the fall for me this wall is weak lets break it down with an ice pick
Lets reshape the crown for ur highness
Excape the crowd till u cant find us
We keep these scars too remind us dont fall 4 their blind trust
spine crushed without ur divine touch
Im done

But ready too start again in no time
A ghost writes my lyrics while u borrow ghost rights the game is so grimes you'll go blind


from staring up at the sun shine
One mic is all that is needed too become prime one time for my second hand addicts right winged savages on automatic why panic when u feal gigantic walking around on my ghost planet taking no damage
U wont manage acting so frantic
Invoked madness

In every pesant and vagrant
Becuz my essence is sacred
With every sentence connected
This headtrips defective im restless not connected infested the surface on purpose im wreckless confessions of an mcs lost sessions hoping that u.got questions im not stressing
These thoughts are weapons
Mic checking u too death your less im more when I press record check the cords before making a.mess on the floor opening the store knowing that youll receive more

I.dont wanna let u in
Your like toxic oxygen

Its ok. Its the end my friend
Lets runaway pretend
im here again
X3

Dreams undreamed
Dies at the seem
And who knows where they rest
Eternaly

Hopes unhoped
Goes up in smoke
And like the wind remains
Unseen

Love unloved
Ascends to Heaven above
And guarded by Angels for
Eternity

And

Prayers unprayed
Hidden in the  Heart
Belonging to someone whom cries
Alone

Dreams are dreamed
Hope gets Hoped
Love will be loved
And Prayers will unfold

Dear Lord
Let it be so...

Dear friend I wish to speak
of memories of which I keep.
Both in my heart and in my soul
You know that heart? The one you stole?

I treasure all them days we had
to see you leave it made me sad.
But when we do talk on the phone
I feel less, and less alone.

You made me climb out of my shell
you helped me rid a living hell.
Not sure if you knew but I lived in the rain
until one day like an angel you came.

I'd met someone different
someone like me.
I use to get bullied
for who I wanted to be.
So I kept it all quiet because I cared what they said
but after a while I put those thoughts to bed.

And now that you're gone it's just like the past
I sit, my head down, at the back of the class.
But I learnt so much stuff that will always remain
and i'm sure that one day it will come back again.

So I write you this poem, a letter from me
to thank you for setting me eternaly free.
And although you live far our now friendship won't end
I'm so fricken greatful that you're my best-friend!<3

Never losing hope
True love waits eternaly
Angel heart arrives

I wish I had the courage
When I last stood
In front of you
To tell you
And if I only could
Stand in front of you
One more time
On more moment
I would tell you
Not for your love
In return or to feel
This love that has burned
And consumed and haunted me
Both night and day
In dreams and fantasy
Pass from my lips to yours
Not to ****** your flesh
And remove your clothes
Rain my fingertips over your skin
Not to hear you whisper and moan
And shout under sheets
Not to claim your soul
Or your name
In that moment...
No
I want that moment
To reveal that this love
Smiles madly and lives completely
Feels impossibly and dances wildly
Lasts eternaly for the beauty
And perfection of the stars
And heavens and endless bliss
It finds in you
And against time and distance
And possiblity it will always stand
And burn with its hand outstreched
Should you want or desire
Or need
Or not
It will live and love
Alone or together
It exists only by the chance
And the luck of that
First moment when my
Heart knew it had always
Loved you

In darkness, sitting here and wonder
What parts of you belong to me
As i am spirit i am thunder
I am not bound by gravity.

I feel illusions grow beside me
Back in the corner of my eye
Its where my darkest fear might find me
Its where my deamons hunt their prey.

This time around, not like the other
I stare my deamons in the face
This time around my soul is calmer
There is no storm, theres only grace

This year, a long and epic journey
Has gave me a new sence of Me
I grew up quickly and eternaly
What ever happens now, im Free

What started off as poetry
Turned to shades of love
Deathly did I fall
Into woeful crimes of verse
Waking into dreams of you
So lovely that I wept

The endless ocean of your eyes
Has caught me in their storm
Wave after crashing wave
I have been tossed
In this love I am trapped to
Forever drown

The monsters beneath your bed
Have dragged me underneath
They have stripped me of my clothes and flesh
And broken every bone
But my heart still beats and sings
In this love to forever dream
Dancing down there with them now

Then the demons from your dark
Took and stabbed my soul
Both front and back
And as it died there in their arms
From its blood it scrawled
And painted images of you
The last words on its breath
In this love bury me to forever keep me here so that I have not died in vain

Then madness stole what was left of me
And jailed me in its heart and teeth
In this asylum I wander now
With the ghosts of my body, heart, and soul
Each one of us with our tales of you
Each word more beautiful than the last
Each story we all fall again
And again
Forever to walk in what started as poetry
In woeful happiness it's true
Now each and everyone of us
Fallen eternaly in love with you

I want it all
All the good
All the bad
Push your hair
From your face
Wipe away the tears
And when you need
Sit and cry with your pain
Until its consumed by us both
Becoming each of ours to bare
Whatch you dance with
Monsters of gloom and doom
And take over when your feet hurt and start to bleed
Sleep with your demons and depression
Absorb their tooth and claw
No pain of yours would I not share too
Never see the moon again
Never dream under the star filled sky
I would die by your side
Ask nothing in return.
I don't need heaven
There's no paradise
Worth staying in without you

To love you
All of you
I would glady stay
Eternaly in hell

Come with me my love
Under the depths between us
Under the darkness within us
Under the dreams that bind us
Come with me my love
Under the sheets of endless time
Under the night of forever more
Under the moon where I'm eternaly yours
Come with me my love
Take the blood in my heart so your heart may live
Steal the air from my lungs so you may breathe
Use my bones and my marrow and all of my thread
And mend your wings
Find your voice
Let your beauty shine through
I would be less than nothing
Without this dreaming of you
Come with me my love
I'm dying for you

Crickets and toads
In full chorus
And boisterous voice
Night has spread its wings
And claimed the sky
The man in the moon
Streches his limbs
Reaches into his satchel
And by handfuls
Tosses stars and sands
Of dream
Stars steak and make wishes
Sand falls and gives itself to death
And dream gives this endless sleep
Where forevers flower blooms
And my heart burns
With fire and flame
Eternaly dancing
For love
And
For you

Won’t you come and comfort me?  Blind me with angst, and fill my eyes with tears.  Bathe me with dismay, in your pool of fears.  Embrace me with regrets, caress me with hate.  I will not question you at all, for this is my fate.  Constrict me with your tendrils, do it with glee.  Hold me close in your darkness and never set me free.  Tell me lies, sing them like lullabies.  Let me sleep encapsulated in a blanket of demise.  Make me dream nightmares, the scariest ones. Tear my soul into pieces, then burn them in a thousand suns. You are my friend, my lover and my wife.  Ever since the day she left my life.  You’re the greatest company I have ever had.  So please stay eternaly, and make me sad.

Forever yours,

Echo the Day
Words i could never say
Never knew someday
You would go away

Silent the Night
As i hold my plight
Never saw the light
Now your from sight

The Seasons change slowly
Now im travelling lonely
Wishing i was only
Yet now far from feeling homely

Will i get one more chance
Remembering yesterday
Will i see you once again
How blessed i would be
Walking back into your arms
And maybe time will stand still
Even for an hour or two
Maybe a day or three

I guess its only wishfull thinking
Yet how blessed i would be
Having you here Eternaly
I will never be lonely
I guess its only day dreaming
Having you back right beside me
Yet how blessed i would be
I guess im now forever lonely

Echo the Day
Silent the night
The seasons change slowly
Aint it just  bittersweet irony