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"coked" poems
Work is boring, I'd  Rather be home sleeping in A nice comfy bed  Work is boring, I'd  Rather be smoking a joint And watching TV Work is boring, I'd  Rather be drinking a beer And drunk barroom brawls Work is boring, I'd  Rather be out surfing the Gnarly ocean waves Work is boring, I'd  Rather stick my arm in a  Blender; cause some fun Work is boring, I'd  Rather be out banging some Coked up prostitutes  Work is boring, I'd Rather dig my brain out thru my My ears with a fork Work is boring, you  Can tell because I'm writing Too many haikus
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Nov 1, 2012
Nov 1, 2012 at 8:43 AM UTC
Work Is Boring (haikus)
Cellar door cell door Sell my soul just a little more ***** for a cellar that holds nothing but an empty, empty nothing nothing but nonsense sense sense My cents, two cents lined up on the door lined up Coked up, on the mirror let me disappear behind the cellar cellar door
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Nov 5, 2012
Nov 5, 2012 at 5:37 PM UTC
Cellar Door
Smoking *** can make you lose your job Drinking liquor can make you lose your liver Smoking tobacco can make you lose your lungs Eating McDonalds can make you lose your heart Drinking soda can make you lose your feet Snorting coke can get your high(ered) in congress You can lose your feet, liver, lungs, and heart while coked up in congress But you can't smoke ***
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Nov 10, 2014
Nov 10, 2014 at 2:59 PM UTC
Smoking ****
Mind body lump sushi tastes people blanket's warm sausage loopy plaid pants mimosa fueled mathematics map making pancakes waffles don't know **** Add chicken and enjoy. Dance like a coked up Napoleon ecstatic to heard Vincent Price reading Poe while Moby **** writes rhymes opined to killer wale princes and lords. Service the dinosaur's automobile when you get a chance don't dance on like a midnight acid FLOWER power of the hour scours the loud crowd to life after death.
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Dec 27, 2012
Dec 27, 2012 at 12:26 AM UTC
Tossing words in the ocean
we plant the seeds of our own destruction "everything in moderation." here I am in backlash station, braiding my hair with poison in my lungs, on my breath, in my stare. my silver tongue has an alchemists tooth a lung for a lung and the whole world's done anti-smoke anti-drink anti-fry diet coked, diet thinking, diet guy yes, he's gonna die bleeding through his finger tips we touch lips, hips? say goodbye, maybe take him home next time. he's got me in a bind stuck in his rhyme he peeled me from the core though I had a rind but the fruit which I drink is GMO such as he, the fluoride in my sink. a love poem made me think a tag is such a drag because a label isn't me, a price could be innocence mystery a held too close and you're history he sent to me late night called to see if the aches from which I break have calmed down to be more of a lesson than a test, more of a sleep than a restlessness. there's no one who should have to witness this... "I'll be okay." maybe I'll say it again... "I'll be okay." For once and forward because I want to, a lot of people said I didn't have a choice but to and I don't want to hurt any of you, with the insanity of keeping things in with the feelings that I simply suppressed thought he made me happy and undressed foolishly traded my tears for alcohol sweet words for smoke, true love for a joke. I've lost all I could lose let him take all that I thought could be took, and now I finally see what was to be had all along, what was there all along... you all were right and I was wrong. I ran away, that's not okay, but I'm back and here today. I love you all, I love you most, I wont push you away, so hold me close. I'm breaking and aching, I'm shedding out tears, I'm sorry for masking and mashing my fears. I know I don't know and I wish to learn quick, there's not that much time and there's no love in a **** excuse my bad language for I do not speak  French... I'll stop with the jokes and go for what's true, there's no more emptiness in the words "I love you".
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Mar 26, 2014
Mar 26, 2014 at 11:40 AM UTC
emergence is peace
we plant the seeds of our own destruction "everything in moderation." here I am in backlash station, braiding my hair with poison in my lungs, on my breath, in my stare. my silver tongue has an alchemists tooth a lung for a lung and the whole world's done anti-smoke anti-drink anti-fry diet coked, diet thinking, diet guy yes, he's gonna die bleeding through his finger tips we touch lips, hips? say goodbye, maybe take him home next time. he's got me in a bind stuck in his rhyme he peeled me from the core though I had a rind but the fruit which I drink is GMO such as he, the fluoride in my sink. a love poem made me think a tag is such a drag because a label isn't me, a price could be innocence mystery a held too close and you're history he sent to me late night called to see if the aches from which I break have calmed down to be more of a lesson than a test, more of a sleep than a restlessness. there's no one who should have to witness this... "I'll be okay." maybe I'll say it again... "I'll be okay." For once and forward because I want to, a lot of people said I didn't have a choice but to and I don't want to hurt any of you, with the insanity of keeping things in with the feelings that I simply suppressed thought he made me happy and undressed foolishly traded my tears for alcohol sweet words for smoke, true love for a joke. I've lost all I could lose let him take all that I thought could be took, and now I finally see what was to be had all along, what was there all along... you all were right and I was wrong. I ran away, that's not okay, but I'm back and here today. I love you all, I love you most, I wont push you away, so hold me close. I'm breaking and aching, I'm shedding out tears, I'm sorry for masking and mashing my fears. I know I don't know and I wish to learn quick, there's not that much time and there's no love in a **** excuse my bad language for I do not speak  French... I'll stop with the jokes and go for what's true, there's no more emptiness in the words "I love you".
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HANGING WITH THE GALLO(W) BROS. Coked out Strung out Flipped out Had my share of friends Blow their brains out But still I went back out And hung out with the Gallo brothers And the drunks and the druggies and the homeless and the insane Downtown at two in the morning. Little did I know, The Gallo Brothers were leading me to the gallows Dead woman walking Hanging out with them, I was killing myself slowly Too cowardly to flat out pull the trigger and get it done with, I just squeezed it a bit With two, three, four visits a day From the dynamic dastardly duo. Sometimes we hung out at Sutter Home I remember the plastic thunk of bottles In my purse on the way there. The glass-laden Gallo Brothers sometimes made a bit too much noise When stealth was called for, So no one else would catch on to what I was doing. So no one would catch onto the feelings I tried burying, The demons I tried to drown, Who were squeezing the life out of me Feeling horrible, unworthy Always going back on my misery. Tremors, delirious Delirium tremens So shaking I can’t even double-fist A single can of soda I reached for the only help I’ll accept I grabbed on tight to their hands Even though my body turned it down Rejecting, ejecting Spewing, spitting their help Back in their faces “I wish I knew how to quit you” My body told them But the Brothers were a violent lot Beating me into submission When my mind was under their influence Sometimes I’d do the craziest **** For friends who didn’t know better, Didn’t have my best interests at heart Were -bent on my personal destruction. Talk about peer pressure! Doing, saying things I normally wouldn’t! They made me go against the grain of everything decent and good about me. Some friends just aren’t worth having I learned that lesson the hard way Cutting ties with the Gallo Brothers... The hardest thing I ever did! But... the only way to keep Dead Woman Walking From becoming Dead Woman Hanging around at the morgue instead of the Gallo Brothers’ house.
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Aug 15, 2011
Aug 15, 2011 at 12:32 PM UTC
HANGING OUT WITH THE GALLO BROS.
HANGING WITH THE GALLO(W) BROS. Coked out Strung out Flipped out Had my share of friends Blow their brains out But still I went back out And hung out with the Gallo brothers And the drunks and the druggies and the homeless and the insane Downtown at two in the morning. Little did I know, The Gallo Brothers were leading me to the gallows Dead woman walking Hanging out with them, I was killing myself slowly Too cowardly to flat out pull the trigger and get it done with, I just squeezed it a bit With two, three, four visits a day From the dynamic dastardly duo. Sometimes we hung out at Sutter Home I remember the plastic thunk of bottles In my purse on the way there. The glass-laden Gallo Brothers sometimes made a bit too much noise When stealth was called for, So no one else would catch on to what I was doing. So no one would catch onto the feelings I tried burying, The demons I tried to drown, Who were squeezing the life out of me Feeling horrible, unworthy Always going back on my misery. Tremors, delirious Delirium tremens So shaking I can’t even double-fist A single can of soda I reached for the only help I’ll accept I grabbed on tight to their hands Even though my body turned it down Rejecting, ejecting Spewing, spitting their help Back in their faces “I wish I knew how to quit you” My body told them But the Brothers were a violent lot Beating me into submission When my mind was under their influence Sometimes I’d do the craziest **** For friends who didn’t know better, Didn’t have my best interests at heart Were -bent on my personal destruction. Talk about peer pressure! Doing, saying things I normally wouldn’t! They made me go against the grain of everything decent and good about me. Some friends just aren’t worth having I learned that lesson the hard way Cutting ties with the Gallo Brothers... The hardest thing I ever did! But... the only way to keep Dead Woman Walking From becoming Dead Woman Hanging around at the morgue instead of the Gallo Brothers’ house.
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Nails the length of javelins click on countertop with the speed of a coked-up woodpecker as this goddess of the night with bullets of caked foundation sweating from her forehead awaits her fifth free Long Island of the night. Safe to say, she's a little high maintenance, like all treasured centerpieces of a local museum deserve to be. She is your generation's Mona Lisa, trust. Her sneezes will be dissected for coding. Like the rust on buried Babylonian armor, she lives sandwiched between myth and reality. A Frankenstein of queer iconography, door-knocker earrings designed by Adrian. Stilts for heels clack on blinking dancefloor, balancing a hermaphroditic echo that charges through hieroglyphic binaries with a four-on-the-floor precision.
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May 10, 2014
May 10, 2014 at 8:20 PM UTC
Goldyn Dylicious
Amazing how the bubbles make Each. Word. Stop. Easier to ride each wave to completion Than resist and escape as the wave departs Lethargic Nervous Coked up and tripping over words Until the muddy field, the proving ground Marks the beginning of reality Merge preconception, misconception, and perception, Into one bright shining lie Young dry brittle contradictions, deep like gravity wells. Losing sleep while pursuing the hand held sun. The out. The goal. Reality knocks twice. Once to break the tape. Once to cross the line.
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Aug 19, 2010
Aug 19, 2010 at 12:20 PM UTC
Bubbles
Through peach coloured faded blinds, you watch him type on ashen keyboards Low music playing, he used to cut her hair, she was breathing Words from a soul, or words from dictionaries faded as the blinds and walls and clothes on his back A team of typists, all in a line (factory work and the repetitiveness of city living) You notice the desk, cheap and flat-pack, worn markings exposition of veneer and wood Did you spot the reference, or did it pass your eyes, - are you a fan? His derivative verse of Bukowski and the like is painful to eyes and corroding of the soul Have you seen the bees flee? Watch as the lights turn dead, and the oven burns red I'm not sure if one could call it homely; his home The way darkness arrives early each night above that house alone and the way rabid foxes walk in large circles to avoid the shadow cast You hear him cry at night (and I feel ashamed at noticing you) He sets himself alight, to feel something new You watch from your couch and flip the channel Are the old haunts getting older still, by the night's final adieu, a wild dog scampers home To lay beneath the old car with grass in the engine and we both know the house is burning The flashing lights in the street and the coked up vagrants dance rhythmically Smoke contortions over the grassy morning dew A girl with a vacant stare, from a bench afar, watches and flicks broken nails Everything you are is nothing you want, still watching from the window Pacing. Pacing. (I am on the rooftop, and I saw it all.)
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Nov 2, 2013
Nov 2, 2013 at 8:01 PM UTC
Interpretations of Interim Morning Madness, When the Harsh Light of Day Returns The Ghastly Memories One Hopes to Forget
Through peach coloured faded blinds, you watch him type on ashen keyboards Low music playing, he used to cut her hair, she was breathing Words from a soul, or words from dictionaries faded as the blinds and walls and clothes on his back A team of typists, all in a line (factory work and the repetitiveness of city living) You notice the desk, cheap and flat-pack, worn markings exposition of veneer and wood Did you spot the reference, or did it pass your eyes, - are you a fan? His derivative verse of Bukowski and the like is painful to eyes and corroding of the soul Have you seen the bees flee? Watch as the lights turn dead, and the oven burns red I'm not sure if one could call it homely; his home The way darkness arrives early each night above that house alone and the way rabid foxes walk in large circles to avoid the shadow cast You hear him cry at night (and I feel ashamed at noticing you) He sets himself alight, to feel something new You watch from your couch and flip the channel Are the old haunts getting older still, by the night's final adieu, a wild dog scampers home To lay beneath the old car with grass in the engine and we both know the house is burning The flashing lights in the street and the coked up vagrants dance rhythmically Smoke contortions over the grassy morning dew A girl with a vacant stare, from a bench afar, watches and flicks broken nails Everything you are is nothing you want, still watching from the window Pacing. Pacing. (I am on the rooftop, and I saw it all.)
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You never did **** like that for me chillin in my lap, with a lighter and a sack tickets to shows and suckin' it clean Funny little nicknames, bed games, thinking about head thangs. Trips to Chico, down south, or left and right two lines in the morning and two tabs at night decided to be a bad ***** now, come freestyle and I'll put you in your place run laps around you the whole ******* race leave you in the dust without a ******* trace Step back, breathe dry heave, dry heave Switching lanes like a drunk man swerving on the highway, I'm ******* my teeth coked up going 90, 0 in my sheets. Blown out bass busting out **** beats Thought those 2 years made you a hard ***** ***** You're a lie ***** ***** you don't even try ***** ***** I'm glad I got to know ya but now I'll kick your *** to the curb like a ******* state patrola!
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Mar 24, 2013
Mar 24, 2013 at 1:51 PM UTC
Coke Coughs
The city spikes that peer out over rock-spires in the distance taste like coffee grounds and finger paint. They're bitter, but they matter. Maybe someone north of Washington will read our S.O.S. and send an airplane full of urban-types to gentrify our graves. And maybe Jesus saves. Or maybe Jesus raves with coked-up Gandhi up in Jersey, when the winter turns to mush.
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Jan 12, 2015
Jan 12, 2015 at 2:19 PM UTC
The End of the Town
Ill **** the ink right off the hemp of the constitution Just to spit dark remarks like coked up John Belushi at officials ass-hats enduring constant mood swings as the hormone pendulum signifies a revolution war drone generals, pimps for hire, lefty tool kits. hefty duties levied on the public, getting flooded yes I shot the tariff, but I never quit consumption off fake happiness so apathy's getting toothy Lucidly give historic figures clues through dream. Now thats nifty networking who do you know? A yeti befriended a spaghetti monster and got together to spin a blue globe.
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Aug 12, 2015
Aug 12, 2015 at 12:11 AM UTC
****
min far har altid sagt at jeg skulle tage det sure med det søde at jeg skulle nyde livet, og de morgner som er røde dog så jeg kun natten sort, jeg så det hele galt mit spørgsmål er, hvordan jeg kunne ende så fortabt og fatalt ikke et barn, endnu ikk’ en voksen, døde øjne og coked op på lykkepiller hvor længe lever jeg endnu og fortæl mig, hvornår er det tågen forsvinder? jeg prøver at ånde ud fra den røgsky jeg mig befinder men det er bare som om jeg mangler en stifinder kærlighed, siger de kærlighed, håber vi men idag er det penge og analsex og selv de fattigste i DK har råd til et kompleks vi er bundet på hænder og fødder skatter og politi, for de første ord vi snakker i dk er egoisme og “pansersvin” selvorienteret, disorienteret vi er alle født så uendeligt privligeret opvokset med en guldske i røven, vi spiller alle så fandens civiliseret -Cathrine Berendt
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Jan 22, 2015
Jan 22, 2015 at 3:42 AM UTC
velfærdsstat
they say write, say write, write all i hear is 70's french music and static. all i think of is you, last night i took shots until i couldn't hold a steady glass, remember thinking this is it, this has got to be it. this is how you forget. contemplating calling you- dreaming that i did on, on and on my english teacher said to write for poignancy, i wrote on a coked out father, sometimes i dream i see him at a grocery store, a church he's all screams, i'm all "you have the wrong person, sir." i've forgotten how to write, maybe i'll call you in a year or so, maybe i'll forget
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Oct 18, 2015
Oct 18, 2015 at 9:20 PM UTC
pourquoi
What business do you have getting jealous over me. You already have a wife, you ******* fiend. You ask too many questions. So I mention my non-boyfriend and the crazy in your eye catches me off-guard. If nothing else, maybe I've deterred you. And still there's questions. I never anticipated your coked out reaction. I don't need to be the victim of past life regression every time I enter the kitchen. I never gave into the chemistry cuz I could feel this poison coming from eons away. I never let myself joke with you unless I cracked. I never let myself care for you, and that's a fact. I always avoided eye contact at all costs, I pretend not to hear you when you scoff, cuz its not my fault. I tell myself it's not my problem when I ignore your attempts at connection and you look lost. My rejection is all you should have expected. You're ******* married. Even if you weren't, we have bad juju. It was never gonna happen. You are your wife's headache this life. So leave me out of it. How glad I am that I get to walk away and there's no us, and no children for you to hang over my head anymore just because I want out. You couldn't dare touch who doesn't exist. There's no cowards way to keep me oppressed. How relieved I am you cannot touch me. We are in public, I will never cower to you ever again. Your not my keeper, your just my boss. Get past the past lives. Get over yourself. If you do not, I'll just **** you again.
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Apr 24, 2016
Apr 24, 2016 at 6:13 AM UTC
Liberation
I brought you my still beating heart In a bismol pink bedpan, Your hands lifting from the gurney Awaiting salvation through my touch. In my visions I am seventeen. I am seeing you for the first time at my work And you make me laugh. You reiterate the scarring in your soul and down your back And I ask, rudely, if I may see some time. You say sure, But your face wishes that I had never asked. In my wonders I am eighteen and telling a group of people my age at a party Why I am sober, Because my body is weak And I am not tempted. Thoughts of you and my future swirl in my mind But they do not connect. I will try in vain for another year Before I realize that maybe I need to sober up from you. In my recent memory, I'm sitting on the side of your bed Hoping that you do not die. But I'm half naked, Underwear and undershirt the only things I have on And your skin is too hot And your voice sounds coked over And your breathing is not a slow hum But a ravenous wheeze And I'm scared And my breathing becomes torn. I'm nineteen again But now I am saying goodbye Though you are still living And a week earlier I had pledged myself to you forever. You cry to me that you were saving for a ring And I had hoped to hear that But now that you've said it, I can feel my stomach toss Into the bedpan Which houses my heart In your hands, I've taken my place among the dreadfully unbalanced And the perpetually sad. I have come to the conclusion that I have made a mistake That is too late in the making to be remedied.
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Nov 24, 2015
Nov 24, 2015 at 4:44 PM UTC
Mortal Kombat
I brought you my still beating heart In a bismol pink bedpan, Your hands lifting from the gurney Awaiting salvation through my touch. In my visions I am seventeen. I am seeing you for the first time at my work And you make me laugh. You reiterate the scarring in your soul and down your back And I ask, rudely, if I may see some time. You say sure, But your face wishes that I had never asked. In my wonders I am eighteen and telling a group of people my age at a party Why I am sober, Because my body is weak And I am not tempted. Thoughts of you and my future swirl in my mind But they do not connect. I will try in vain for another year Before I realize that maybe I need to sober up from you. In my recent memory, I'm sitting on the side of your bed Hoping that you do not die. But I'm half naked, Underwear and undershirt the only things I have on And your skin is too hot And your voice sounds coked over And your breathing is not a slow hum But a ravenous wheeze And I'm scared And my breathing becomes torn. I'm nineteen again But now I am saying goodbye Though you are still living And a week earlier I had pledged myself to you forever. You cry to me that you were saving for a ring And I had hoped to hear that But now that you've said it, I can feel my stomach toss Into the bedpan Which houses my heart In your hands, I've taken my place among the dreadfully unbalanced And the perpetually sad. I have come to the conclusion that I have made a mistake That is too late in the making to be remedied.
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hey big daddy dude i sure like your baby blue eyes and i sure like your lean style i wrote this little drug poem somehow hey broham can you do a little something for me right now just bring me a phat bottle of that cold pimp-juice and some of that smooth dom perignon oh yeah something is going down at the Paris Hilton Hotel Plaza can you dig it big daddy my crazy cat brother where life is so grand man i am just sitting up on top of world riding up on six white horses as i drive in my pink-virgin cadillac so welcome to my world inside the big white house full of diamonds and pearls the whole enchilada girl yes white coke in every room this ain't some coke in a can yes we are having a big fundraiser yeah its party time up in the cut fifty thousand dollars dreams but brother man set it out on the red carpet floor turn on the groovy and the juicey psychedelic lights somehow roll out the big bowl of chili now the big bowl of white coke and you are still a bad girl now have some white coke and a smile taste some white coke with your fingertips then snort some white coke up our nose add some heron with some blow and through your veins is where it goes your eyes open then close and you come riding up on six white horses look man this is so groovy like a ten cent movie and no more **** pain when we get coked up again roll out the Benjamins to climb up that phat hill Jack and Jill can you do something for me let the white lady in
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Mar 1, 2015
Mar 1, 2015 at 2:10 AM UTC
Let The White Lady In
Shes the sky and the ultimate waves Persued and fried, you and I can't sleep The seven animals outside won't be still There's glass in this drink And its all covered in pride But if i would drink it Colossus and the party Will dance until the knights sit down Coked out faces shining in the cupboards Worn throughout the ages by preachers and worms But the lakes will back up And the trees will grow to the sky The rivers will run pure and clean And men will be there too All we can do is think back Justice will be a mighty song Ringing through the telephones Too all those ducks and salmon platters That wait in the upstairs lavatory Someday I'll spin you a tale Of ships And of sailors And sunken treasure But thats not today The cobra den hisses and moans to the radio man He won't hear a thing until he's spaced "Send him to the gallows" shouted the crows, "Rip his skin with the axe" yelled the bag boys "And crush his thoughts with the rocks" screeched the roads But alas his tale is mixed in bowls of negativity And his body is now in the shoes you wear So now i'll say these words And frown upon your face Because we're all gone now And tomorrow we'll be back But we'll never be the same.
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May 5, 2010
May 5, 2010 at 4:57 PM UTC
The
I’m twenty years old, I wanna get caked up You’re twenty years old, but all you want is to get coked up, Live it how you want it, I won’t judge And you’re a happy girl As long as you’re fed, admired, and taken to interesting places But anyone could do that for you, I want to know why you’re with me. It’s a pretty chilled afternoon, cloudless skies And the sea is so blue As blue as lapis lazuli, You’re on the hammock reading War and Peace I’m learning how to clean a shotgun My father’s working on the Peugeot There’s wet air coming in from the sea, He’s hoping the salt hasn't started rusting the chrome You’re hoping you’ll finish that book in one lifetime I’m hoping you can stay here a few more days. This This is our life right now We could all be roped up, tied up, and dead tomorrow But this This is our life right now.
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Nov 3, 2013
Nov 3, 2013 at 4:53 PM UTC
Life at Twenty
Ran around all night Unsure why I was in But not about to turn it down There she was again With those black pants If you can call them that Crisis after crisis Where's the birthday girl? Search five different spots Drugs sold, embellished Never seen that life first hand But now I can hold my own Guy will get himself locked up I think he wants to Where's the birthday girl's friend? Getting coked Won't join Dealer's best friend I listened to her actions They were loud She saw situations as they were Friends came first Even if it was nonsense They needed her for Her red lips, I watched Her soft hips, I touched Mile a minute But not overworked Smiles all night Living the life
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May 24, 2015
May 24, 2015 at 12:44 PM UTC
Disco Techno Fast Lane
you want me to be happy adventure because, why not? be a free spirit be a free spirit and forget about the chaos inside me because, after all, I am so, so happy to be near you aren't I? to be for you aren't I? your mystery I dance around the kitchen table and put flowers in my hair every color of the prettiest rainbow here I am God, I'm so pretty I'm so smart too but not too smart I'm just smart enough to make you feel smart too God, I really am just one of a kind your kind the only kind that matters to be truly tell me, am I just everything you've ever wanted? I'm just so, so entrancing that's really why I'm here to be yours your ******* pixie dream your ******* sunshine coked out queen   I'm just your ******* doll I'm so ******* pretty I'm so ******* different I'm just so ******* stupid
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Jan 18, 2016
Jan 18, 2016 at 1:31 AM UTC
mania
I feel like my mind is coked out and im a zombie, wandering aimlessly through this abyss we call life. Brain dead, scarred to do anything about it. There are days I feel like I could lift skyscrapers, and then there are theses days where im alone, inside dead and struggling to do anything with my life. In my head its going 300 miles an hour, but I move so slow and pathetic on the outside. The very thing that keepa me alive is whats killing me. How ironic? I had dreams and goals. High school cheerleaders I still needed to **** **** random girls at lalapaoza. Do something epic with my friends ill never forget no matter what I put in my body... but responsibility and regret took my selfish goals and dreams out the Window. Dont pitty me, because I dont. I know I ****** myself over plenty of times due to me being a lazy son of a ***** I still have these illusions of possibilities, of a better life. None that has me in the bathroom of my buddies house snorting death off the back of his toilet seat. Or taking my happy meds right before some ****** looks at my girl and I beat his face in with a socket wrench. I had have to leave and jump from town to town to hide from me mind. I dont have multiple personalities... I have regretsyndrom, its ******* over the girl of your dreams with her cousin and hoping she doesn't find out. Arrogant son of a ***** he is. Cant keep a ******* girl even if it were to save his pathetic life. He really is a ***** on the inside. The little ****** cries at the end of my girl and Charlie st cloud... but hes "hard" nothing but a wanna be... blames it on his regret for a girl... shut up dude he loved her. If he loved her we wouldnt have tryed to be with her cousin because we got bored. Whose we? You didnt say **** because you were too worried she would find out. Well she did, didnt she? Oh like you are always right... just like you thought it was a good idea to **** your step sister...? Huh? ******* Iys 9 oclock larry you need to to take your meds again... what? Answer the telephone. Larry your meds...! Answer the telephone steveie! Leave me alone. There's no Larry or Stevie here... no ringing... and I cant take medicine... go away... hello? Well im alone again... uh great =/ come back guys...?
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Feb 25, 2015
Feb 25, 2015 at 4:45 AM UTC
the end is strange...
I feel like my mind is coked out and im a zombie, wandering aimlessly through this abyss we call life. Brain dead, scarred to do anything about it. There are days I feel like I could lift skyscrapers, and then there are theses days where im alone, inside dead and struggling to do anything with my life. In my head its going 300 miles an hour, but I move so slow and pathetic on the outside. The very thing that keepa me alive is whats killing me. How ironic? I had dreams and goals. High school cheerleaders I still needed to **** **** random girls at lalapaoza. Do something epic with my friends ill never forget no matter what I put in my body... but responsibility and regret took my selfish goals and dreams out the Window. Dont pitty me, because I dont. I know I ****** myself over plenty of times due to me being a lazy son of a ***** I still have these illusions of possibilities, of a better life. None that has me in the bathroom of my buddies house snorting death off the back of his toilet seat. Or taking my happy meds right before some ****** looks at my girl and I beat his face in with a socket wrench. I had have to leave and jump from town to town to hide from me mind. I dont have multiple personalities... I have regretsyndrom, its ******* over the girl of your dreams with her cousin and hoping she doesn't find out. Arrogant son of a ***** he is. Cant keep a ******* girl even if it were to save his pathetic life. He really is a ***** on the inside. The little ****** cries at the end of my girl and Charlie st cloud... but hes "hard" nothing but a wanna be... blames it on his regret for a girl... shut up dude he loved her. If he loved her we wouldnt have tryed to be with her cousin because we got bored. Whose we? You didnt say **** because you were too worried she would find out. Well she did, didnt she? Oh like you are always right... just like you thought it was a good idea to **** your step sister...? Huh? ******* Iys 9 oclock larry you need to to take your meds again... what? Answer the telephone. Larry your meds...! Answer the telephone steveie! Leave me alone. There's no Larry or Stevie here... no ringing... and I cant take medicine... go away... hello? Well im alone again... uh great =/ come back guys...?
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When I met you in the pub that night, The movement and the way you sauntered over, It was so clearly pre-defined. The way that you held your hand out, The over the top air kiss, Too effortlessly refined.   Later into the night the drugs imbibed, Drinks convivially consumed, The space between us lost. Time disappears down, Some rabbit hole, At some unsaid noir mutual cost.   The pint shoved with jovial force, From the slick wet bar, Into my waiting hand. The coked-up person, Backing me into a corner, Reassuring me that they totally understand.   And whilst my malnourished ribs, Are digging uncomfortably, Into your hard ***** floor. There are things that I would, Say to you, If bravery mistook me for more.   You consume me with, Your entire world, Whilst mine just ebbs away. My voice gets quiet, And agreeable, I forget that I had anything worthwhile to say.   This world takes the very guts of me, With every wrap of drugs that I see. And that girl slipping away in the mirror, Is becoming so very different from me.   With every drink fuelled choice, Each line of drugs, Each night that I see reappear as day. The feeling submerges, From the depth of me, That this life is not ok.   Whilst I can try and lay the blame, Of my gradual downfall, At the feet of some charismatic few. It’s some personal emancipation, That will allow me to start my again life, With a sanguine view.   As I disappear down the rabbit hole, For what I tell myself, Is one last epic fall. I hope that the person, Who appears on the other side, Is strong enough to walk away and leave it all.
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Oct 13, 2017
Oct 13, 2017 at 9:19 AM UTC
The Rabbit Hole
When I met you in the pub that night, The movement and the way you sauntered over, It was so clearly pre-defined. The way that you held your hand out, The over the top air kiss, Too effortlessly refined.   Later into the night the drugs imbibed, Drinks convivially consumed, The space between us lost. Time disappears down, Some rabbit hole, At some unsaid noir mutual cost.   The pint shoved with jovial force, From the slick wet bar, Into my waiting hand. The coked-up person, Backing me into a corner, Reassuring me that they totally understand.   And whilst my malnourished ribs, Are digging uncomfortably, Into your hard ***** floor. There are things that I would, Say to you, If bravery mistook me for more.   You consume me with, Your entire world, Whilst mine just ebbs away. My voice gets quiet, And agreeable, I forget that I had anything worthwhile to say.   This world takes the very guts of me, With every wrap of drugs that I see. And that girl slipping away in the mirror, Is becoming so very different from me.   With every drink fuelled choice, Each line of drugs, Each night that I see reappear as day. The feeling submerges, From the depth of me, That this life is not ok.   Whilst I can try and lay the blame, Of my gradual downfall, At the feet of some charismatic few. It’s some personal emancipation, That will allow me to start my again life, With a sanguine view.   As I disappear down the rabbit hole, For what I tell myself, Is one last epic fall. I hope that the person, Who appears on the other side, Is strong enough to walk away and leave it all.
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i was an ***** player for a talk show in the southside one night while tanking up preshow at a poolhall down the block i snooped a conversation about a stripper birthday party currently in progress at mcardles pub mcardles being a bar on an alley in the southside i made haste for the stripper party though i didn’t know which alley to head for alas, mcardles pub stayed aloof i was toasted and the southside got bigger with talkshow time only an hour away then 45 minutes, then half an hour and i couldn’t find mcardles many alleys, all blind, no mcardles no strippers, no off-duty pulchritude finally, in despair, i surrendered went to the lava lounge, plugged in my ***** painted my face and put on an indian headdress i sang "piece of my heart" sharing my misery with the audience (yes we had an audience, a good one) when i was done our mc alexie said "he looks like one of the village people but he sang the **** out of that song let’s hear it for unfinished symphonies" yeah let’s hear it for me taking pieces of my ***** heart and throwing them at the happy drunken coked-up ladies at mcardles invisible pub
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Oct 7, 2019
Oct 7, 2019 at 12:20 PM UTC
McCARDLES INVISIBLE PUB